I can't get the stupid wax out of my hair!
My hair is turning in to a f*****g sequel!

Now I can't get the bloody styling wax out of my hair. I have washed it three times today and it still feels stiff. I give up. Sarah is right. It's just part of me and not all of me. (Thanks Sarah.) Besides it will grow back. I used to curse my quickgrowing hair, now I can't get it grow quick enough. :)

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I lay Tarotcards everyday. I can never get over the fact how rigth they often are. Yester day I got the 10 of swords. It means mental anguish. Sure enough I ran in to "V" and "S". they where standing on the sidewalk. I don't think they saw me, wich is good.
But I feelt completely destroyed.

Today the cards promised me a really good day and emotional serenity, I sure could need that.

The story behind "V" and "S" is that I had an affair with "V" for three months. He is 41 years old and a refugee from Kosovo. He is working for the guy who owns the appartmentbuilding I live in. That's how we meet, he was working there.

I don't have much experience with men and being slightly autistic I don't always see or understand things other people would. Well, sure enough it turned out that he was married and had five kids. One of his older daughters moved to the appartement above me. After a while he tried to get me to get a friend to sleep with his best friend. There was a lot of other stuff too. Emotional blackmail and other things. Anyway, we broke up after three months.

And suddenly, a few months later. My doorbell rings. Outside is a guy, "S". saying he just moved to my builing could I help him with the washing machine. I agreed. It didn't take long for him to invite himeself to coffe in my appartment. I foolshed enough agreed. The day after he came. We talked, he claimed he was from Bosnia. I guess any other person would have figured this out by now. But I didn't. Then he wanted to sleep with me, and he didn't give up even though I said no. Finally he got his way and left. A few days later I find out that they are related. "V" is "S" uncle. "V" used me and then sent his nephew. I am so angry, hurt and heartbroken. I really hate the two of them.