Spirit Alien’s Poems

 

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Kazz’s Poems

 

 

Table of Contents

 

1.      The Freeway. 3

2.      Someone’s Death. 3

3.      Being Brave. 4

4.      Losing Touch. 5

5.      Hello Again. 5

6.      My Great Belief 6

7.      My Dead Son. 6

8.      My Problems. 7

9.      The Dead Letter 7

10.  Home Again. 8

11.  Fag. 9

12.  Renewal Passion. 10

13.  The Missing Star 11

14.  Work. 12

15.  The Ex. 13

16.  Weak. 14

17.  Why My Ex?. 15

18.  The Boss. 16

19.  Fear Becomes A Reality. 17

20.  Let It Happen. 18

21.  A Young Father 19

22.  A Pregnant Teen. 20

23.  The Abortion. 21

24.  Daddy’s Reaction. 22

25.  The No Good Boyfriend. 23

26.  A Fatherless Baby. 24

27.  Baptist Church. 25

28.  Where Is God?. 26

29.  Convert 27

30.  Fully Converted. 28

31.  The Shelter 29

32.  Where Would I Go?. 30

33.  During Class. 31

34.  This Place. 32

35.  Beautiful Voice. 33

36.  Doomed Success. 34

37.  Little Less Time. 35

38.  A Rainy Day. 36

39.  The Waves Of Life. 37

40.  In Their Shoes. 38

41.  Stupid Drugs. 39

42.  Different Schools. 40

43.  Too Graphic. 40

44.  Speech Problem.. 41

45.  Black Angel 42

46.  Suicide Doctor 43

47.  Suffering. 44

48.  Frightening Morning. 45

49.  Sex Addiction. 46

50.  Lusty Sex. 47

51.  Reactions. 48

52.  Close Minded Judges. 49

53.  Childless Mother 50

54.  Hollywood Bowl 51

55.  All My Money. 52

56.  Flat Broke. 53

57.  Male Prostitute. 54

58.  The Kite. 55

59.  The Lost Kite. 56

60.  Open Mike. 57

61.  Drunk Driving. 58

62.  This Angry Mother 59

63.  Thoughts In A Coma. 60

64.  The Meeting In The Jail 61

65.  Adoption. 62

66.  An Adoption Baby. 63

67.  A Special Man. 64

68.  Sick & Tired. 65

69.  Known. 66

70.  The Shadow.. 67

71.  The World’s Troubles. 68

 


The Freeway

By Kazz Falcon

 

The freeway

I pulled over to the side

It just occurred to me

People was passing me up

They was going somewhere in life unlike me

I was still stuck from a flat tire

I hadn’t any such luck yet

Going nowhere just sucks

I want to go somewhere

It could be anywhere

Life is a journey

Couldn’t my life get any worse?

It’s sad when life stops

I would be glad when it ends

I had it with life

I might as well stab me with a knife

The sight of my life is depressing

Where’s the help?

I want to get off the freeway

 

 

Someone’s Death

By Kazz Falcon

 

Someone’s death

It became a shock to me

He was forever my rock

We never saw it coming

He was in perfect health

Suddenly, he had a heart attack

I was so sad when he left too soon; he was 25

I was mad as hell; God took him away from me

I was glad; God need him more than I do

I need to let him go

I can’t hold on him that much longer

My memories would always be in my heart

That was my comfort

I can’t be angry with God

My lover’s time had come

Someday, my time would come to be with God

Any day, I would be someone’s death

 

 

Being Brave

By Kazz Falcon

 

Being Brave

I walked into a room

I talked to someone

I couldn’t see him

He wouldn’t show his face

I shouldn’t be afraid

I walked in another room

I talked to someone again

I could see him

He would show his face

I should be afraid

I went back to the other room

I need someone strong

I looked for him

He wasn’t around

“What to do?” I asked

I decided to go back to confront the other guy

I would be brave

He could know what happened to him

I should be able to overcome my fear

This time, the other guy wasn’t there

I wondered why

He wasn’t shy

He had the evil look

I was about to leave the room

I felt this presence around me

Hmm, I couldn’t see him

He wouldn’t show his face

I shouldn’t be afraid

Being brave

 

 

 


Losing Touch

By Kazz Falcon

 

Losing touch

My friend moved away couple months ago

I haven’t seen him in a while

I wondered what he have been up to

We used to do everything together

The movies, the mall, the beach, and more

We had so much fun together

Nothing could tear us apart

Then again, something did

His job transferred him to a new city

We said our goodbyes

We promised we would stay in touch

Some things weren’t meant to be

I gave him a call, no one answer the phone

I sent him a card, no response yet

I sent him a email, it didn’t went through somehow

Hmmm, I missed him so much

Losing touch

 

 

Hello Again

By Kazz Falcon

 

Hello again

It have been awhile I saw you

This is my paradise

This paradise contains 100% happiness 24/7

This happiness contains my new surroundings

This surroundings contains my mansion, created by Jesus Christ

This mansion belongs to me

I don’t have any locks on the doors

Nobody has locks at all

We trusted each other, fully hearted

There wasn’t a thieve among us

No one want to lie, cheat or steal

We could sin

Why should we?

The surroundings gave us everything we need

We are not from earth below

This is my paradise

Hello again

 

 

My Great Belief

By Kazz Falcon

 

My great belief

I believed in God with all my heart

I struggled with something heavy

It was so heavy that I couldn’t do anything

Wouldn’t you know it?

I prayed to God daily to get the burden of my chest

So far, nothing has happen

The craving was still there

Why can’t I stop those feelings?

Those feelings couldn’t be right

It put up a mighty fight

The flesh eats away at my soul

I felt like God abandoned me, I was so alone

He left me for being gay

I must do right in God’s eyes

I need to end it for once and for all

I couldn’t find any answers in the bible

The gun defeated my great belief

 

 

My Dead Son

By Kazz Falcon

 

My dead son

I heard a shot in his bedroom

I ran as fast I could

I saw blood running down on his forehead

It was too late to save him; he lost lots of blood

I noticed a poem on his bed

“My Great Belief” was frightening enough

He struggled with his sexuality and his belief in God

He must have use all his strength to fight it

He wanted to please his father

He loved God with all his heart

He couldn’t be both – Gay and a Christian

Why couldn’t he come to me?

I would have help him in any way

He should talk to me

Then again, my Christian beliefs was different from his

It was between God and him, not the three of us

He didn’t find the answers he needed from the bible

The gun defeated my dead son

 

My Problems

By Kazz Falcon

 

My problems

I need to see a psychologist

The problems weren’t going away anytime soon

I tried to face them alone

I cried about it every other day

I can’t take it anymore

My life wasn’t changing for the better

I was doing the best I could

It seemed like my best wasn’t good enough

The more I do my best, the more things get in the way

I want to break the cycle

Maybe, the failure in me doesn’t want to go far

Hmm, I couldn’t take failure once more

That’s why I was stuck, going nowhere

It really getting to me badly

I was depressed with the things going for me lately

I wasn’t happy with life; it was so disappointing

Everything just sucks big time

Nothing was going my way

I would forever have my problems

 

 

The Dead Letter

By Kazz Falcon

 

The dead letter

My family couldn’t believe what they read

I died from AIDS

Someone lied about it; I was still living in Hollywood

They franticly searched for the truth

Could it be true?

Shouldn’t the police told them the bad news

The letter was killing them

They lost so many sleepless nights

They prayed, “Let him still be alive.”

They traced the letter back to LA

They called some places around

He may stay in contact with some places

They found me in a homeless shelter

The sound of my voice brought tears to their eyes

They were so happy to hear me talking

They offered me to come home again

We became close as ever before through the dead letter

Home Again

By Kazz Falcon

 

Home again

I went back to Dallas; my family missed me so much

It was so great to see them more

I moved in with my sister and her three kids

It seems like I never move to Hollywood

Something was missing, I felt like I wasn’t home

I have been gone since 1994

People changed, things changed and home changed

I tried to be happy in Dallas again

It didn’t felt right at all

My life was somewhere else, back in Hollywood

I didn’t have a strong connection at all

Yes, I had family in Dallas

I figured that wasn’t enough

All my friends lived in Los Angeles

I felt like I gave up my life

I missed my friends a great deal

I loved being on my own

Back to Hollywood, I was home again

 

 


Fag

By Kazz Falcon

 

Fag

Someone told me that he wanted a fag

I could sense he wanted something from me

I should give it to him in his mouth

He would blow very gently

He was that type of a guy

He has ravishing lips I ever saw

I pondered about something

Should I give him one or kiss him first?

I don’t like fags breathe

I won’t kiss him at all

His mouth should be refreshing clean

A thought crossed my mind

The more he likes me kisses,

He may give up the bad habit

I lived for that moment

He would be better off

He must control his stress some other way

Please don’t bit your fingers either

I won’t scratch your eyes out

He met his match in this fag

 

 


Renewal Passion

By Kazz Falcon

 

Renewal Passion

I haven’t write any poems in a few years

It was like learning how to fly a kite again

I need strong winds for a successful flight

I must maintain its balance in the blue sky

I trusted I could fly again

As long I try, I should find the right notch

I concentrated on the winds

The winds were powerful all day long

The kite was a loose cannon; it blasted all over

It almost crashes into the trees

I pulled up on time; I had control

It made me realized I could do anything

I headed back home in the evening time

I was proud of the flight

I landed smoothly on my feet again

From the fabulous experience,

The artist rushed back into my very soul

The kite pushed me to renewal passion

 

 


The Missing Star

By Kazz Falcon

 

The missing star

I stared into space

I couldn’t see my star

I guessed my star is far

I looked deeper in the galaxy

So far, I didn’t come upon my star

I had a gut feeling; I wouldn’t be one

I felt so alone

I didn’t notice the time; I was too stoned

I kept on looking for mine

I wept, where is my star?

I have been waiting for years

I want my star to shine bright

The star must be in another sight

I shined my flashlight

So far, I was disappointed at night

The morning star rose into the blue sky

I missed my chance

The drugs kissed my star away from me

I could have been in Hollywood

The missing star

 

 


Work

By Kazz Falcon

 

Work

I had a fabulous job

Something drastic change my life

Anything but that I cried

I recently found out that I am HIV+

I was shock beyond belief

Knowing my HIV status us such a relief

I felt healthy continued working

My boss really love me, treating me like a friend

He does care for his employers

Do I dare to bring up my HIV status?

It scares me that my job might be in danger

I don’t have hospital insurance yet

I can’t risk losing my three months old job

I had three months to go for the insurance

I might as well keep it as a secret

It was none of his business

As long I wok hard and stay healthy, I would be better off

After I get the insurance, I would tell my boss

I prayed I stay healthy for work

 

 


The Ex

By Kazz Falcon

 

The Ex

We remained friends after we broke up

Things didn’t work out for us as lovers

We were better off as friends

I found another lover from a gay parade in Weho

He sounded like a fabulous guy

We dated for a while and we fell in love

He hated his life; I figured it would pass

He truly believed that I was the only good thing for him

Everything else just sucks for him

He complained about anything or everyone

I explained, “Don’t let everything get to you.”

He cried that the world was out to get him

I tired to make him feeling good inside

He felt ugly inside; he hates looking in the mirror

On the outside, he doesn’t see how beautiful he was

His negative attitude gets on my last gay nerve

I tried talking with him; he won’t listen to me

He pushed me away, so I gave up on him

I hung out at my ex’s house for comfort

My boyfriend thought I was having an affair

He was jealous of the ex

 

 


Weak

By Kazz Falcon

 

Weak

I fell in love with someone

I had so many problems to be in one

I need to work on myself first

The weed was my escape; I want to forget my problems

He doesn’t mind me doing drugs every day

He was kind enough to let me use his place

He was so strong for the both of us

He can take care of my problems and his

I was happy to be with him

Recently, he became distance from me

I tried to talk to him; he wouldn’t open up

I cried I might lose him

I don’t know why he won’t talk to me

Things were great in the beginning –

Hug, kiss, comfort, write letters and say “I Love You.”

We hardly do any of them any more

I don’t feel love by him

When I tried to talk about my problems, he became angry

I had no ideal why he treats me different

I wondered why he brought vodka, he feels like to

I need him to be strong, not weak

 

 


Why My Ex?

By Kazz Falcon

 

Why my ex?

My new boyfriend has so many problems

Like others said, “Too much baggage!”

He cried that his life wasn’t getting any better

I tried to send him in the right direction

I set him up with doctors and medication

He doesn’t seem want to get any help

He relied too much on me

It was taking a toll; I had problems too

He seems to only care about his problems

Most times, I tried to talk to him

He doesn’t listen at all

His problems and him are emotional draining me

I may look healthy outside, I felt sick inside

I can’t go on trying to solve his problems

He needs to see a shrink

He pushes me away; I can’t talk to him

Therefore, I go to my ex

My boyfriend may lead me to drink again

Why my ex?

 

 


The Boss

By Kazz Falcon

 

The boss

He was wicked as they come

He ticked me off big time

As soon he found out, he privately fired me

I was one of his best workers

I flew to Mama’s nest for comfort and advice

She hated the boss for what she done

It was his loss, not mine

From her love, I was fabulously fine

She encouraged me to take action

He was a low life no good fake

Wait till I stab him with a knife

It would be sweet revenge

It could be worth millions

He can’t do anything about it, except pay up

Something positive should happen at court

I need to prove he wrongly fired me

I was in perfect health

I didn’t get sick once

Sometimes, I even work on my day offs

For that, I was discriminated for being HIV+

I have a good chance of winning the case against the boss

 

 


Fear Becomes A Reality

By Kazz Falcon

 

Fear Becomes A Reality

I hope my nightmare doesn’t come true

I worked so damn hard to get where I am today

It scared the hell out of me

It dared to wreck my life

I stared right into hell; the nightmare lives there

I tried to avoid the evil trap

I cried to God, “Let the nightmare stay in the dark.”

I prayed a little to late

I became weak; I ended up in the hospital

Somehow, I caught a feverish flu

Anyhow, it was much worse than I thought

It happened so fast; I was full blown AIDS

I hardly see my doctor for check ups

Work took up most of the time

I regretted not seeing my doctor often

I felt fine; I wasn’t on any medications

Now, I was facing one tough battle ahead of me

I must change my life for the better

The doctor put me on meds and placed me on SSI

Nightmares comes true

Fear becomes a reality

 

 


Let It Happen

By Kazz Falcon

 

Let it happen

My friend was doing fabulous till he drank again

His life was perfect – a car, a job and his apartment

Something happened along the way

He met a drop dead gorgeous man

I wasn’t one of his biggest fans

I already knew his game plan

He used men for his pleasure; he doesn’t give a damn

I tried to warn my friend

He thought I was jealous of the relationship

He ought to know better, we go way back

I fought tooth and nail; he still wouldn’t listen

The new lovers sought to destroy his life

He brought into his act, love and all

Everything was beautiful, so my friend thought

Then the wicked plan fell into its place

He persuaded him to go clubbing

The more he went, the deeper he got in alcohol

He claimed he loved him, he truly believed it

I had no choice, except to let it happen

 

 


A Young Father

By Kazz Falcon

 

A young father

I became one at age 17

I figured it wouldn’t happen to me

My girlfriend and I couldn’t believe it

We were so safe; it was the farthest thing from our minds

We were truly in love; we wanted to wait for a few years

We wanted out relationship to last

We didn’t expect out baby to come fast

We got good grades; our future was about to blast off

Now, the baby changed everything for us

We need to hold off the collage plans

A broken condom planted the seed

The done was done; we became parents

We considered abortion; we weren’t ready

We couldn’t blame each other; we were in the mood

So, we wouldn’t destroy the baby inside

He deserved a chance to live; he was innocence

My father set me up with a good paying job

We lived with her parents

We both quite school

The baby became our full plate

I don’t regret of being a young father

 

 


A Pregnant Teen

By Kazz Falcon

 

A pregnant teen

I wished I didn’t listen to his sweet-talking

He was only after one thing

I thought he care about me

I brought into his act

I felt so used and pregnant by him

He refused the truth, his baby

He wouldn’t admit we had sex

My parents became outrage at me

It was the same guy my friends warned me about

I blamed myself; I let my guard down

Why did I get myself in the mess?

He only wanted to get under my dress

I was foolish enough to believe him

He promised to love me and be there for me

Now, my life was destroyed

I was so alone; my parents wanted no part of my life

Everyone was dead set against the low life

I wouldn’t listen to them

How could I have a bright future?

I’m a pregnant teen

 

 


The Abortion

By Kazz Falcon

 

The abortion

What can I say?

I’m damn if I do; I’m damn if I don’t

I always wanted kids, but I was too young

My father wouldn’t take it well

I wouldn’t dare to let him down

I was his world, my mom died when I was six

I loved him very much

I would do anything for him

I have to keep the pregnancy a secret

I need to sleep on it

I must figure out what to do

Trust me, it’s really hard for me

I was a daddy’s little girl

I looked at all the options

This one really shook me up – Abortion

Besides, I wasn’t ready to be a mother

I want to go to collage

My dad would be proud of me

I know he wouldn’t accept my pregnancy

I must be sure of the abortion

 

 


Daddy’s Reaction

By Kazz Falcon

 

Daddy’s Reaction

He was shocked about my pregnancy

I couldn’t keep it as a secret a little longer

He accidentally found my test results in my room

He was so disappointed in me

I tried to talk with him

He cried, “How could I mess up my future?”

I confessed I let passion took over my life

We were hot and heavy; it was too late to stop it

My boyfriend broke up with me; he didn’t want the baby

I was left holding the responsibilities

The pregnancy was too much for one person

Even daddy didn’t want me to have the baby

The only option I had was abortion

I had no other choice; my future was at stake

Daddy took me to an abortion clinic

For some odd reason, he wanted me to know the truth

He felt like a damn hypocrite

I didn’t understand why, he was looking out for me

He told me the secret of me

My parents considered abortion too, no money

They change their minds at the last minute

They want me to give me a shot in life

Life is precious to throw away

Daddy’s reaction

 

 


The No Good Boyfriend

By Kazz Falcon

 

The No Good Boyfriend

He drastically ended our relationship

He pretended nothing happen

I was offended by his negative attitude

He left me holding the bag; I was pregnant by him

He stoop ever lower, he claimed he was a fag

Yeah, right!  We had sex many times

The sight of his lies continues

He explained he was sexual confused

I was outrage by his stupidity

He should be more responsible for his actions

There was a baby on the way

I would have the baby in May

I truly don’t believe he was gay

I wasn’t his first girlfriend, or his last

Dating him was a blast

He treated me like a princess unlike him

He cheated our baby from having a father

There was a heated argument between us

He thought I trap him

My father ought to kick his sorry ass

He had no class whatsoever

The no good boyfriend

 

 


A Fatherless Baby

By Kazz Falcon

 

A fatherless baby

I got a certain girl pregnant by accident

I wasn’t really in love, I was sexual confused

I want nothing to do with her

All along, she knew I had feelings for guys

We had a few drinks

We ended in the sack

In the back of my mind, having sex didn’t feel right

The alcohol fogged our brains

It was too late to turn back time

She thought it was fate; I was cure of being gay

She ought to know better, it doesn’t work that way

She brought up a terrifying ideal

If I don’t change my ways, I won’t see my baby

I can’t exchange my true feelings

I would be living a lie

It could ha e serious effects on the baby

I can’t see hurting an innocence baby

It would destroy his future in the long run

I won’t live a lie for the baby’s sake

She promised I would never be in his life

I made the ultimate sacrifice

A fatherless baby

 

 

 


Baptist Church

By Kazz Falcon

 

I grew p in a Baptist church

I knew I was different from the rest I felt like the Baptist wasn’t the best

For being gay, did God put me through a test?

The more the pastor mentioned it was a sin,

The more I felt rejected by God

Throughout the years, I was sadden God don’t love me

I privately struggled with the gayness

It was a heavy burden on my shoulders

I distanced myself from God and the church

I danced alone in the dark

From being drunk, I passed out in the park

I smelt like a skunk, someone woke me up

She wondered why I was all alone

I wept, God left me

I kept on crying, why couldn’t I be myself for God?

I was trying my best to understand the bible

I did noting wrong

Something came forth; I saw the light in her

The light shows me the way

God still love me for being me

 

 


Where Is God?

By Kazz Falcon

 

I searched for him the longest time

The last church mistreated me badly

They cheated me out of a relationship with God

I beat myself to death

The heavy burden defeated my soul

I had a heated conservation

God let me down; he abandoned me

It was time to pack it in, I moved to Dallas

I hoped I would find peace and happiness

With dope, I could really escape from reality

With a rope, I should end it for once and for all

Then again, I want to make a go in Dallas

This could be my only chance for happiness

I came upon a stranger; he was flamboyant

Me mentioned of a church

I dreadful didn’t want to go; my faith was gone

He promised I had never experience God this way before

I was intrigued, my heart pumped for joy

I went to church, being open minded

I found the love of God again

Sounds like a dream; I’m a gay Christian

 

 


Convert

By Kazz Falcon

 

I realized I was gay

It didn’t make my day

It wasn’t the right way

I disclosed my feelings with the church

No one else knows, not even my family

Someone soon showed up

I had never saw him before in church

He convinced me to go with him

We arrived at another church far away

I strived to trust him, not knowing him to well

He seemed nice enough

A group showed up in the room

They tried to convert me

I cried, “Why do they want to control my life?”

They kept on telling me their stories

I wept, how could I be happy?

I can’t go on listen to them

I already know the truth

More than ever, I was happy being gay

 

 


Fully Converted

By Kazz Falcon

 

I used to be a homosexual

I refused to live a sinful life

I abused God’s love for granted

I didn’t like being gay

From the bible’s point of view, it wasn’t the way

My life drastically changed in May

The church sent me to a support group

I went to check it out

I got to admit, being gay is a bout

They wasn’t happy, nor I was either

I mostly ended up at the bathhouse

I just wanted to be love and feel good inside

The moment my desires passed, I wasn’t happy

The same thing goes for the clubs

Day in & day out, I was looking for love

At those places, I didn’t find anything but sex

I kept on going to the support group

I wept; I was sick and tired of being gay

I was too weak to go on throughout the day

The group comforted me; I want to change

It gave me a desire to be with a woman

The way it supposed to be

 

 


The Shelter

By Kazz Falcon

 

I had only one chance at the shelter

They only ALLOWED once chance

I don’t want to mess up my only chance

I could stay up for six months

I must make most of my time

I want to succeed in life

I can’t do any weed or any other drugs

They would test me if they suspect me

I must follow the rules and do a daily chore

Trust me; that was the smart thing to do

They want us to find a job, save money and an apartment

Six months was enough time for anyone

Then again, some felt the place was too strict

I saw a few to last a month or less

I truly believed they were stupid

Come on, they messed up their only chance

Hello, is that stupid or what?

I would stay for the long run

The more I stay, the more money I would save

I would be better off

Everyone should use the six months wisely

I know I had a good chance from the shelter

 

 


Where Would I Go?

By Kazz Falcon

 

My time was almost help at the shelter

I was waiting word on Section 8 housing

Till that time, I was racing against time

I had no ideal of what would happen to me

I wondered about my future, I was so worried

I didn’t want to stay at another shelter

Once was enough for me

I just couldn’t do it again

I had enough of the homeless life

Six months was a long time

I also didn’t want to go back to the street either

I won’t let it happen again

I might as well be a male prostitute

I can get money for a hotel

I don’t want to ask my friends for help

Emotional support was good enough

What would I do?

I was running out of time

Section 8 may not happen after all,

It may take years to get my own place

My future was at stake

Where would I go?

 

 


During Class

By Kazz Falcon

 

Rebecca Street taught a poetry class

We were learning how to write poems

She has great knowledge of poems

I couldn’t get much out of class

You wouldn’t think so

It wasn’t the teacher’s fault

She absolutely does her best

T goes to show me, I should be a great poet

Certain things were foes, much to my dismay

Was it curtain for me by the foes?

I don’t want to trip over somebody’s toes

Then again, they stepped on mine

The noises came from everywhere

It became frustrating that I can’t stand it anymore

The same crap we faced on class every week

We couldn’t focus and concentrate on the poems

We need complete silence for them

We can enjoy them much better

How could we?

The foes wouldn’t top disturbing us

The door slamming, people rudely talking and other things

When would it end?

During class?

 

 


This Place

By Kazz Falcon

 

Clod withering air, I froze at night

Awful dreadful food, I hardly eat anything

I couldn’t function right

Mean staff, I can’t talk to them

Smelly restrooms, I must cover up my mouth and nose

Fallen ceilings, I need to run

The kitchen, I could get food poisoning

Sleepless nights, the bed was hard as a rock

Rotten floors, I could fall through

Roaches, they were everywhere

Fruit flies, I couldn’t escape from them

The tables, there weren’t enough to eat on

The area, it was located in the worse location, skid row

I wasn’t safe inside or outside

Darkness, there weren’t any light in the building

Just the sun and its rays

The residents, I can’t trust them

They were either on drugs or drunk

The sight of things made me gruesome sick

I must leave somehow

Whether I end up dead in this place

 

 


Beautiful Voice

By Kazz Falcon

 

I loved to sing

I moved to a different beat

People complimented me for my singing

It encourage me to be a singer

Smoking discouraged me as a great one

It friend my throat throughout the years

I cried, my dreams vanished – Hollywood Bowl

I tired to give it up, no such luck

Smoking was a bad habit; I started at 16

I became sad; I gave up singing

I was mad; my dream won’t come true

My voice was that bad, I was out of tune

I was glad that I gave it a best shot

I met a young lad; his voice was awesome

He knew who I was

He heard so much about me from his parents

I noticed he had a pack of fags

My story scared him; he tossed them in the trash

At the Hollywood Bowl, the crowd loves his beautiful voice

 

 


Doomed Success

By Kazz Falcon

 

I founded a band in high school, the students loves us

Time was our stock; a record label could pick us up

I had a few drinks here & there, patience waiting

Someone finally gave us a contract

I had a toast at the club for our good fortune

I continued to rock & roll across the nation

After the concerts, we got blasted

Our success was too good to be true

From heavy drinking, I branched out to drugs

I didn’t care about the hugs

In my mind, the girls want me

I was living a rock & roll life

I had alcohol, drugs and sex

Nothing could stop my success

Anything but that

The partying was my downfall

The other members realized I had too much of a good time

I missed rehearsals, tour dates and more

They kissed me goodbye, they kicked me out of my own band

My alcohol/drug problem was too much for them

It made me mad; they picked another lead singer

 

 


Little Less Time

By Kazz Falcon

 

I had six months to live

I don’t have anything to give

I wasn’t rich; I had low income

Whatever I would become?

Jesus was poor; his heart was made of gold

A wish came true; I wouldn’t grow old

I have something to show

I wasn’t cold as snow

Something was true

I turned blue

I can’t gasp for some air

I fallen from the chair

Everyone panicked for my safety

No one could save me

Yesterday was my funeral

Today was a new beginning

I finally was recognized for my art

My poems & stories weren’t a fart

They were as clean as a baby’s behind

I really don’t mind

Success came late

It was purely fate

 

 


A Rainy Day

By Kazz Falcon

 

I walked in the rain

Suddenly, I ran to the train

Pouring down on me was a pain

I was soaking wet

I lost the bet

The $25 went to Met

He was right about the weather

I bird tried me off with a feather

The train took me somewhere

From the rain, I hope it was anywhere

I ended up nowhere

I became lost in the wood

I was hungry for food

In the freezing rain, I stood

For crying out loud, I wasn’t in a mood

I just wanted to go home alone

Someone offered me to get stone

I called Met on the phone

He picked me up at the train

The weather tricked me with the rain

All day was a pain

 

 


The Waves Of Life

By Kazz Falcon

 

The waves were pretty high in the Pacific Ocean

I grabbed my surfboard to tackle the waves

I surfed the mighty waves

I was bound to slavery of them

I found it hard to escape them

The sounds of them, I feared for my safety

They had a grip on my life

One slip up, my life would be over in a second

Here’s a tip, I must battle the waves to stay alive

My life depends on it

I mended my life with the waves

I tended not to know what wave I would ride

It could be the waves of sorrows

It could be the waves of fear

It could be the waves of happiness

It could be the waves of tears

It could be the waves of life

It could be some other wave I must take

I better surf the waves

I can’t let them to control my life

I was in the driver’s seat on the surfboard

I must stay ahead of them no matter what

If not, the ocean would eat me alive

I don’t want to drown in the wave of life

 

 


In Their Shoes

By Kazz Falcon

 

I tried to imagine in their shoes

Sometimes, it fried my brain

It was emotional hard for me to put through the agony

Hmm, a thought occurred

I could be a great actor

It should be a great learning experience

I focus on their pain the most

In their shoes, I wouldn’t be lost

I become them in every which way

Then some

I go through the emotions to see how it felt

I couldn’t handle it sometimes

I felt their pain

My heart melted for them

I wondered how I could do things different

In their shoes, it was emotional roller coaster ride

Can’t things be any different for them?

Some things, they couldn’t take back

I wouldn’t forgive the person either

I should live their pain

I tried to imagine in their shoes

 

 


Stupid Drugs

By Kazz Falcon

 

I thought too hard

I can’t think of anything to write about

I know I have many ideals

There were in the back of my head

I don’t see them clearly

I won’t be able to put them down on paper

I wondered if my brain is working

Did the drugs play a part?

It couldn’t be that

Wouldn’t it?

I shouldn’t let the drugs affect my brain

Then again, maybe it did happen that way

It dawn on me

When I think too hard, my brain hurts

I better lay off the drugs for a while

Then I would know the truth

I could tell the drugs messed up my mind

I can’t think straight

The drugs are powerful destroyers

I used to get good grades

Now, I lost my great ideals to stupid drugs

 

 


Different Schools

By Kazz Falcon

 

There was a time

I was quite popular in middle school

Everyone thought I was cool

I wasn’t anybody’s fool

My favorite activity was the pool

Hugs were allowed

Drugs, forget about it

The girls like me a lot

The guys envy me

Next year, things drastically changed

There was a different feel to school

Everyone thought I wasn’t cool

I felt like a fool

I wasn’t the best in the pool

Hugs weren’t allows anymore

Drugs crossed my mind a couple of times

The girls like the other boys

The guys had a chance for love

I was least popular in high school

 

 

Too Graphic

By Kazz Falcon

 

Nah, it couldn’t be

Wah, it shouldn’t be

I don’t have a dirty mouth

I was glad that I don’t live in the south

There would be a hanging

Anywhere, I would be banging

The thought sicken me

It brought out the good in me

I fought being too graphic in my art

I sought out the feel good real life poems

I ought to kick his ass

Oops, what happened to my class?

Me bad

I could be a dirty filthy mouth lad

Was I being too graphic?

Don’t have a cow

I was waiting for a bow

I deserved that much

I served my art not being too graphic


Speech Problem

By Kazz Falcon

 

I had it since I was a young lad

A kid made fun of me, I was sad

I had a mother’s comfort, I was glad

I couldn’t escape the pain; he was still bad

I wouldn’t take the crap much longer, I was mad

I shouldn’t be hateful to him; I saw an ad

It was about a writing contest

I should show the creep with the test

I would enter it; he was still a pest

I could win; I was the best

With winning the contest, he should give it a rest

A poem came up; it was exciting enough

He picked on me; I would be tough

He hasn’t stop; it was rough

Mom watched TV at home, she was sick

The curtain flew opened; the announcer was Rick

He announced the winner of the contest

I accepted the award; I was the best

The pest wept, he lost to me

I kept my dignity; I showed him I was smart

He thought I was pretty dumb than him

He ought to know by now; I was the winner

 

 


Black Angel

By Kazz Falcon

 

The fire of hell raised me

I seek seriously ill people, even suicidal

The pain they have, I want to kill them

I loved to make them suffer fast

With lethal injection, they won’t last

No other angels have the power and freedom to kill

I always wear black

No, I wasn’t the angel of death

I was more sinister then him

I kill innocence people at night

The ill people called out for me

I answered back with their death

Then I ceased the killing moment

The deceased bodies, the angel of death took their souls

Wherever they turn up – Heaven or Hell

Some would burn in the second death

Their souls scorched for life

It makes me happy when they call out for me

I truly confessed, it gave me satisfaction

I was blessed for being the black angel

 

 


Suicide Doctor

By Kazz Falcon

 

Did I commit murder or assist in suicide?

I admitted I played a big part in their deaths

For them, I used a lethal injection

Some believed I abused my doctor’s rights

Come on, I didn’t misused my rights

There were miserable, they wanted to end it

They came to me; I accosted them with their deaths

Their families hissed at me

Only because they missed their love ones

They didn’t have the guts to kill themselves

I gladly gave them a helping hand

Being the black angel, they put up a stand

The families and friends cried fowl

I tried to explain, “It was in their best interest.”

I fried their love ones with lethal injection

I ended their pain; I was doing my job

I defended myself; they couldn’t accept the suicides

I sent them to an early grave

I bent over for the suicide needs

I went to prison, that wasn’t fair

In the love ones’ eyes, I was a hero

In the families’ eyes, I was a murderer

In my eyes, I was the black angel

 

 


Suffering

By Kazz Falcon

 

When is the suffering going to stop?

I can’t go on living like this, Black Angel

I was in too much pain

My body aches all over by every moment

I wished it would stop

I dished out all the pain I could take

Right now, the pain was too great to handle

The sight of things, I hope it would end soon

I prayed, my lover has the strength for me

He promised he would be the Black Angel

He can end it for me; just pull the plug

Do it for me, I would ole him a big hug

I just want to die, free of pain

Did he lie?  Did he take off in the train?

I hope not, I really need him

The plug, honey, the plug, just pulls the damn plug

I looked at him; he crumbled to pieces

He booked his tears away from me

I saw the pain in his eyes

He had a tough decision to make

It was rough for him; his true love was dying

He could stop the pain for the both of us

Just pull the plug, Black Angel, death awaits me

 

 

 


Frightening Morning

By Kazz Falcon

 

After awhile, the table’s lamp begun to flash

The chairs made some noises

Through the walls, I heard some voices

It called out a name

I didn’t heard quite well what it was saying

It became furiously with me

The chairs moved faster

The table was lifted

I jumped on my bed; I wouldn’t dare to hide under

The bed kept on crashing everywhere

I wept, why is the demon mad?

I didn’t do anything wrong, the voices screamed at me

I screamed back, “Leave me alone!”

I searched for the good luck charm, the special stone

The door, I remembered, the door

I could escape; I leaped forth to the door

It was locked; I was trapped

I jumped back on the bed, my eyes was shut

I was scared, I prayed to God

The voices got louder; I hid under the blanket

Things got calmer; my mother came in

I was glad to see her; she comforted me

She noticed the stone; it put a smile on her

A tornado struck, I was safe in her arms


Sex Addiction

By Kazz Falcon

 

I became a sex addict through looking for love

My sexual needs came stronger than love

The same old story, I looked for love in the wrong places

I tried love at the clubs

I managed to get sex from one-night stands

I tried love at coffee house

I managed to find sex

I tried love at a church; it was somewhat better

We somehow ended up in bed

I tried love at the movies

The movies became x rated, more sex

It seems like nobody wanted to be in love

I thought they was more interest in sex

I ought to know, love wasn’t around

I fought my sexual desires; I was lonely

I sought out love; it got too frustrated

I brought some x-rated magazines

It didn’t do me any better; I want the real thing

I was vulnerable; the bathhouse became a second home

Sex was on my mind 24/7, I felt empty inside

I couldn’t get enough sex; I want sex badly

My life was a mess; sex was my drug

 

 


Lusty Sex

By Kazz Falcon

 

I was turn on by sex at an early age

We was the same sex, we experienced the gay sex

It was very interesting thou

We was fascinated by the male body

He moved away, my desires didn’t stop there

I loved the experience I had with him

I drove around, as I got older

I picked up men everywhere I could find them

Quick sex wasn’t enough for me

I wanted sex to last a long time

It was hard; I still lived with my family

So, I kept on searching for sex

I slept with many men

Love never entered my mind

It was the farthest thing from me

I came upon an ad for a bathhouse

I didn’t know what one was

I figured they sell bathtubs for houses

Boy, I was wrong!  I got an eyeful

And, girlfriend, I had more fun ever before

Sex didn’t stop there

Along the way, I found out about the sex clubs

 

 


Reactions

By Kazz Falcon

 

I wrote a story about the pussy for kids

With a note, I got permission to read in the library

At first, the parents thought nothing of it

The moment they heard pussy, they was beyond shocked

They were ready to throw rocks

I had a sinful dirty mouth

Of course, this was the south

They didn’t take kindly to the pussy or me

I defended my freedom of speech

I ended in jail for a couple of nights

They pretended it was much worse than that

I went to another town for another chance

The same thing happened; I couldn’t dance

Both times, they ran me out of town

I couldn’t believe it; I was down

I cried, “Give me a chance, dear lord!”

This time, open minded with my sword

They picked up some rocks

They thought I tricked them

I gave them some advice

Please listen to the whole story

A miracle occurred; they didn’t judge the pussy or me

The pussy became successful, thanks to reactions

 

 


Close Minded Judges

By Kazz Falcon

 

I was being judge for the pussy

They took the pussy out of content

I explained it was only a word

I wasn’t being negative about the pussy

Such words as “fag, nigger” are in bad taste

Without much luck, I was crucified at the cross

They didn’t give a damn

They only want to believe what they heard

I told them very nicely,

“You are old enough to know better.”

Once again, it went over their heads

I wondered what happened to the freedom of speech

Whosoever is not open minded, they are stupid

They want to judge anyone for something

My God, what kind of life is that?

I pouted, “You’re not being fair!”

I shouted, “God is the judge, not you.”

It went out in one ear, out the other one

They can be so close-minded

What a sad, sad sight indeed

 

 


Childless Mother

By Kazz Falcon

 

My baby fell off the bed

I thought my boyfriend watched her closely

Soon enough, he came back to the room; the baby was dead

He was lost for words; it was a shock to us

It almost cost my other kids too

Losing one kid was bad, losing all of them were much worse

Everyone was sad; she didn’t live a full life

I was mad, I hold him responsible for her death

He was old enough to be careful with babies

Someone told the Child Protection Agency

They came fast for an investigating

In the mean time, they took the other kids away

I was shook up, more heartbreak

I wasn’t allow to see them, I couldn’t bare the thought

I cried, I missed my kids including the dead daughter

I tried to get them back; I want my kids now

I was denied; they believed I was an unfit mother

It fried me; I would never hurt them in any way

It wasn’t my fault; he foolishly walked away

Things happens, he thought the baby was safe

I ought to trust him; he was like a father to them

I must get my kids back; they are my kids

I felt horrible that she was dead

It melted me that I may never see them again

I can’t live without then, they were my life forever

 

 


Hollywood Bowl

By Kazz Falcon

 

I finally convinced the supervisor to let my play in the bowl

He thought my art wouldn’t fly with the audience

Hmm, the way I see it, it was up to the audience

They may boo or cheer me

I wasn’t even a big time star

I just wanted to show my craft during the intermission

Trust me, I had a long way to hit big time

I must think small; then I would grow into Mr. Big

I climbed up the wall once before, I watched from afar

Watching them at the bowl, I felt alive

The performers and the music were alive in me

Since then, I had the desire to play at the bowl

I didn’t know what my act would be

I would do anything to perform including reading some poems

It dawn on me, what if I became a artist

Then the supervisor won’t denied me

Boy, I was wrong – he denied me so many times

I tried all kinds of act

I cried, none of them work smoothly

He did like my one ideal; I could read poems

My big night came; the crowd wouldn’t leave for the intermission

They was glued to their seats, my poems drawn them to me

The supervisor realized I was good enough for Hollywood Bowl

 

 


All My Money

By Kazz Falcon

 

I wasted it on drugs

Nobody was around to give me hugs

Everybody did something else

Somebody was my drug dealer at the park

A few go to him for drugs

He could trust me; I was one of his many buyers

I would go to him each month

I should do something else with my money

But I had no desire

I was homeless for a while

I lived in a tent in downtown LA

I vented my problems with the drugs

Then again, what problems

The drugs freed me from them

I was relieved; I don’t have a care in the world

I didn’t want to deal with an apartment

So many times, I was late with the rent

The late fees cost me a bundle

I didn’t keep up with the bills either

I spent the money on drugs each much

I was tired of the hassles from the landlord

On skid row, I was freed from every day’s troubles

I don’t miss the apartment, I was glad I gave it up

I had more time and more money for drugs

It was sad that I get pay once a month

 

 


Flat Broke

By Kazz Falcon

 

I get paid early in the month, once a month

By each paycheck, I spent it all on drugs

The money lasted a week or less

It depends on much drugs I want

Sometimes, I want a dime, a quarter or whatever

Most times, I buy the big one

I hope it would last me a long time

The dope I was, it doesn’t last throughout the week

I must cope with the other druggies at skid row

Some I can’t trust, some are my friends

We tried to look out for each other

I cried when we ran out of drugs

Then the search begins, I scores drugs somehow

I would lie, cheat or steal to get what we want

I could work, but nobody wants to hire a homeless person

The supervisors truly believed I was bad news

No matter what how hard I try, I was flat broke

I do favors, any favor they want from me

It could be anything, I don’t mind

I don’t care as long I get my high of the day

I want the4 high to get away from being homeless

I felt much better; my nerves won’t be shock

The drugs was my escape from reality

My highlight of the month was my paycheck

My low is by the first week I am flat broke

 

 


Male Prostitute

By Kazz Falcon

 

I couldn’t find any other job

I shouldn’t let it get to me

I wouldn’t cry over spilt milk

It happens often

By now, I was so used to it

I refused to work for low lives

They abused their powers; they turned me down flat

It burned me that they can’t see pass the speech problem

It was their loss; I could be a great asset

Oh well! Life goes on

Prostitution was the next best thing for me

Any men would pay for me; I have a perfect body

I could charge a bundle; anything goes

I should be careful; they are STD’s

I don’t give a damn, no one ants me

I won’t stop; I need the money no matter what

I was in a tough position; I can’t afford a place

It was rough, the street as my home

I don’t care if I get AIDS

I don’t care if I get kill

I don’t care if I get sick

I don’t care if I die young

Why should I care?

No one does

I tried my best, I failed miserable

I cried every other day, the tears was my blanket

Now, you know, I’m a male prostitute

 

 


The Kite

By Kazz Falcon

 

She blew right into my life

I knew God sent her my way for a reason

It could be any season

It was spring, a new beginning for everything

It also be a renewal of some sort

I didn’t know what it was yet

Hmm, I see that you already placed your bet

Are you sure about it?

I had a good feeling that I would beat the odds

I sensed something great was about to happen

It could be anything that I set my mind to it

It would be nothing; the kite would never come my way

But the kite did

I kid you not

The lid was opened; I found some paint

I went around in circles; I must focus

Sounds like a great ideal; I became patience quickly

I control the kite in the rough winds

It has written something in the air

“Become the artist you once was.”

I let go of the kite; it disappeared into the skies

The artist reappeared after a long absence

She blew right out of my life

 

 


The Lost Kite

By Kazz Falcon

 

My owner let me go in the air

Therefore, I was on a private quest for a mission

He won’t miss me; I always come back

I flew to Los Angeles; I was on the right track

I knew I would find him; he was dress in black

He changed over the years, but his heart remained whack

He was lonely and confused; he lost his way

For a long time, he won’t go on living for another day

His heart broken in a million of pieces

He needs something to renew his heart’s desires

The weed wasn’t do him any good

The seed wanted him to grow

He could be anything he wants to be

He should live his dreams; he was quite good

He would be known for his art

He only needs a helping hand

I was the enforcer; I must make it right

He wasn’t happy with his life, he fallen on rough times

Being homeless again was so badly tough

I saw him in the park, crying out loud

I was there for him, trying to fix his life

The seed was planted; I flew back home

 

 


Open Mike

By Kazz Falcon

 

I wrote a poem

I was running late from drunk driving

I arrived one hour late

I survived the traffic on the way

Thank God they took a break

I signed up for Open Mike

Then I realized, “what was I doing?”

I can’t speak in front of them, I wasn’t nervous

I did had the nerves, I just can’t do it

I wasn’t comfortable there

I tried to persuade a friend

He denied me; he believed I could do it

I cried, “How could I do it?”

I was fried at the moment

It was agonizing for me; I couldn’t do it

I wasn’t ready; the drunk driving was awesome

Should I do it? Yes, I should

Could I do it? Yes, I could

Would I do it? Yes, I would

Only if I concentrate on the drunk driving

I know I was the best in my heart

I couldn’t go on with drunk driving

I wasn’t ready of felt comfortable

People wouldn’t understand me

 

 


Drunk Driving

By Kazz Falcon

 

I almost kill someone in Hollywood

He was in intensive care, barely hanging on

Our futures were at stake; I couldn’t bare the thought

Me, a murderer!

It can’t be, I hope it doesn’t come true

I was a dope for drunk driving

I must cope with the deadly consequences

Trust me, I wished I had a rope

I felt it tightening around my neck

Their hands wouldn’t let go of choking me

I wished I died right along with him

He don’t deserved to die unlike me

I made it out of alive, why couldn’t it be him?

I want to trade places; my guilt may go away

It won’t fade away; I must live with the guilt

The guilt of my actions was too powerful

I still need to face his angry mother

Lots of thoughts races through my mind

What if it didn’t happen?

I would be better off

It could never happen

But it did, I became so drunk

I got in the car from the gay club

I can’t remember a damn thing

All I know, the police took me away for drunk driving

 

 


This Angry Mother

By Kazz Falcon

 

I just found out that a drunk driver struck my only son

I didn’t like the sound of it

I never thought it would happen to him

I ought to know, drunk driving could happen anywhere

I brought him up to be a happy loving young man

Damn him! He destroyed my son’s future

I couldn’t gasp the thought; he was on his deathbed

He may not make it out alive; I wished the same for him

Better yet, let him rot in jail where he belongs

Hell, no!  I would seek the death penalty on his behalf

That would be my ultimate revenge

I was so angry; I couldn’t forgive him

I can’t live on without my only son

He was 16 year old; he had a bright future

Now, his future was taken away from him

He didn’t graduate school or went to collage

How could he live with himself?

He ruined my son’s future

He deserved all the pain in the world unlike my son

My heartbreaks, my son lays there helpless

I couldn’t do a damn thing

Then again, I can start my own MADD in town

It was a positive way to heal this angry mother

 


Thoughts In A Coma

By Kazz Falcon

 

I was helpless; a drunk driver put me in a coma

I couldn’t reach out to my mother

I just can’t do it; I was badly hurt

I felt my mom’s presence; she tried to hold on to me

I melted by her love; she cried that I might die soon

The way my mother carried on, she wants him to fry

With the law on her side, she can’t be deny

I hope I woke up soon; she cares to see my eyes

She wants to look into my eyes

She gently said, “Your mom is here. Everything would be all right!”

I wished I could hear that, I need her love and comfort

Most of all, I need her strength

It might be a tall order; it was worth the shot

The sight of things, I wondered why me

Why do I deserve to be punished like this?

I didn’t do anything wrong, I was one of the nice guys

I don’t know what to make out of it

It couldn’t be a part of God’s plans

God wouldn’t punish the good people in the world

I shouldn’t be angry with God

I know in my heart, something positive would come

My mother and I can’t be negative about it

We need to hold on to our faith in God

I need to hold on to dear life

We need to hold on to each other through thick and thin

 

 

 

 


The Meeting In The Jail

By Kazz Falcon

 

The mother and I met face to face for the first time

I never saw so much anger from a mother before

Her eyes were red shot, so devilish, and steamed

She didn’t hold back, she lashed me with her whip

I felt the hurt; I bashed her son’s future

With her belt, she wanted to strangle me

No man or God could stop her

She was determined to name me pay with the drunk driving

She vowed I would get mine – the death penalty

Gulp!  I feared, please not that, I didn’t mean to

Her tears could have flood my jail cell

I won’t be able to get out; I was locked up

I would drown; she wouldn’t care

I didn’t care either

I left her son to die in the street

He was innocence in all of this

I created the mess; I was a drunk driver

I confessed, “I deserved the pain her son got from me.”

She thought I should be the one in the hospital

I ought to; a life hangs in balance

She fought for her son’s life; he needs her strength

She hope she never ever cross path with me

If she does, my life would end with a car

Much like her son’s life may end soon

 

 

 


Adoption

By Kazz Falcon

 

It was sad that it led to adoption

I was glad my baby would have a better like without me

It was bittersweet; I can’t see him to grow up

I would miss the joys and pains of parenthood

It could be much better if I stop doing drugs

It should be much easier if I receive hugs

I won’t be able to hug my son

I don’t have the money to raise him

It always goes to drugs; the addiction was too strong

There goes my son’s motherly hugs; it felt empty for long

I was a dope, the drugs were too important than him

I hope to God, he would understand why I gave him up

Maybe, he would never know the truth of me

His new parents nay not tell him at all

They would claim him as their own flesh and blood

I wouldn’t blame them; he was their son now

They can raise him any way they want to

I trust the adoption agency

They must have put him in a wonderful family

That was the only thing I could hope for my son

Damn!  I need to stop saying “my son”

It was hard thou, he was a piece of my life

I felt so lonely inside; I want pot to forget about him

It was a good thing I gave him up for adoption

 

 


An Adoption Baby

By Kazz Falcon

 

We wanted a baby so badly. My wife couldn’t have any

We tried so many times in the natural way

She cried, the doctor gave her the bad news

We also got good news; he knew a fabulous adoption agency

He recommends that place too all his patients

She felt she couldn’t dot it

The baby wouldn’t be hers; it was somebody else’s

She wanted her own baby to love and care for

Besides, it may take months or even years

We didn’t have that much time

We were going up in the years; we want a baby now

We stared into each other’s eyes

We dared to admit; we could wait a little longer

We tried for a long time

Couple more months/years would be fine

We prayed that it doesn’t take a long time

We deserved an adoption baby no matter who we are

We had lots of love to show

We had lots of money to raise the baby

We had lots of friends for support

Things couldn’t get any better than that

We want the same experience our lesbian friends had

We could be great parents for an adoption baby

 

 


A Special Man

By Kazz Falcon

 

God has a plan for my speech problem

It came about so that his work might be displaced in me

It was the same thing with the blind man

I became Jesus Christ’s biggest fan

Let put Satan where be belongs – in the can

Set my mind, the artist came within

I met my power; it was an awesome feeling

I can’t get wet; God is behind me 100%

I bet the artist would have influenced in their lives

My safety net was God; he gave me a powerful voice

People should listen to me; I was one of a kind artist

They could get more out of life

I would give them a reason to

They can see themselves in the art

The influence I have over them

They would think twice of the choices

Wink, wink,

I won’t control their lives

Everyone must learn the hard way no matter what

I earned my powerful voice

Hear me in the art; I speak the truth of life

Tear away from your troubles

Clear your mind; think positive thoughts

I sought God’s plan by being a special man

 

 


Sick & Tired

By Kazz Falcon

 

The homeless situation ticks me off

Why don’t I have the strength to lick it?

I didn’t pick to be homeless again

Sometimes, it was a dick

No matter how hard it is, I want to trick it

Someone came to my rescue in the nick of time

His name was Rick, he was in the same boat

He was a male prostitute, now a successful actor

He offered to take me to his pad

It was tempted; this lad would be in paradise

I couldn’t accept it; I want to make it on my own

I wouldn’t dare to; it was sweet of him

“You shouldn’t be a hooker,” he claimed

“I know I could get something dreadful,” I proclaimed

He remembered the place he used to stay

We raced to La Brea; it could be a way

I faced a uncertain future

It could be a place to get on my feet

I should be able to sleep easy at night

I would be safe from the streets

He offered me a real job if they accept me

I took up on his deal; I got on my knees

God listened to our needs

Being homeless, I was sick & tired

 

 


Known

By Kazz Falcon

 

I walked in the shadow of Jesus Christ

I talked mostly about real life

He made himself known to the world

Just like I did with my poems

He reached out to millions of people

Just like I did with my poems

He healed people with his powers

Just like I did with my poems

He saved millions of people

Just like I did with my poems

He taught about love and compassion

Just like I did with my poems

He preached the truth of life

Just like I did with the poems

He showed the world what he was about

Just like I did with the poems

He didn’t look beyond by some people

Just like I did with the poems

He was turned away from who he was

Just like I did with the poems

He was the one for everyone

I was the one for anybody

We traveled down the same path

We both have insights about the world

Wherever the shadow goes, I followed him

 

 


The Shadow

By Kazz Falcon

 

I heard so much about the shadow

I wanted to be like him

He was mysterious and loved by all

He kept on doing wonderful things throughout the world

I wept, “We need to be more like him”

He was so loving, caring and a sweetheart

Wherever he goes, I followed him

I searched for him everywhere

The places he have been to

No one ever saw him, nor they had a picture of him

I wondered why

I had another question, “Where does he live?”

I continued to search for his home

He didn’t have a phone or address listed

I searched more; he was missing

I gave up on him; I couldn’t find him

I sensed a presence; no one was around

I felt the shadow lurks in the background

He didn’t stay that long; he mysterious disappeared

I saw a description on the wall

“Follow me, I would give you the world again.”

I felt something in my heart

I was melted by the shadow

 

 

 


The World’s Troubles

By Kazz Falcon

 

The world’s troubles were at my feet

I could see things they couldn’t see

I could feel the pain the didn’t feel

I could hear their voices crying for help

I observed the world in my mind

I served healing

I deserved to be like Jesus Christ

I put the troubles on the table

The troubles comes alive through me

In their eyes, I was Satan

In their flesh, I conflicted pain

With their ears, they were dead to the world

In their hearts, opening the door for Jesus

I saw the pain in their eyes

I felt the pain in the flesh

I heard the pain in the voices

What troubles time we were in

They didn’t understand the troubles

I cried, “I want to stop the pain.”

I walked in the trouble’s shows

I talked for the world’s troubles in my poems

 

 

 

 Spirit Alien’s Poems