1.
You can only dig into the past so much; the vein of rich ore dwindles and
then you're picking through mine tailings, sifting for flecks and grains that
might have been missed. You have to wait for younger jewels to settle into
the muck, buried, changed to stone and maturity by time. If the now is
fallow, you have to be generous; you have to wait for the field to rot,
compost, nourished by worm shit, catastrophic flooding, ex-boyfriends,
tides of life and circumstance.
2.
There seem to be an overabundance of books about terrible fathers and how
they fucked up your childhood. Terrible parents. Daddy dearest, mommy
meanest. It's easy to blame the parents between the pages. When you're
a child, they're the vast ocean you're stuck in, floating on a raft of fly paper.
All you have is some stale Saltine crackers and some rainwater you've
collected and half an oiled tarp to keep the worst of the sun off. If the
sharks choose to come or not to come, what can you do about it? You
make do. Sometimes you lose a leg or an arm, but that's why you have
two. You make do with what you have; you muddle through the years until
you can find solid ground: the fabled father land, the missing mother country.
3.
Everyone’s compass blood misses the sea; wavering, needle-sharp
yearning for the salt in the air like the salt in sweat. The blue distance that
pulls the eyes to the horizon. Everyone has a sea that the flesh wordlessly
remembers, an ocean that lives on only in our cells. Water that's warm and
taut, the skin of the drum I stretch across the world; water that holds me up
when I walk across it.
Updated: Tuesday, 2 September 2008 9:05 PM CDT
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