False Reality

falling in love with you as the days grow farther apart,
not seeing you makes you look more like a god,
not remembering the flaws,
but the wonderful times we shared,
as happy as i am the more i grow scared.
Why do i feel this way,
is it because this is how you play,
sweep her off her feet knowing she'll be gone the next day,
doubtful to meet someone like you,
knowing when i come home, you'll be through,
with me, with us, you could give a shit less,
i am setting myself up for a fall,
the more in love i get,
the more hurt i will become...
tears fall from my face,
looking in the mirror only to see a disgrace,
loosing my space as the days go by,
i won't be there, and i know why,
cuz i am a fuck up,
never can shut up,
i should've gone home,
the knowledge just wasn't inside my dome,
i am lost,
i am paying the cost.
i love you, and sadly i know,
your love for me will not grow,
instead it will get old and go...
i wish i was there, so this couldn't be,
i wish i was home and at the only place i was happy!
but sadly, this is a false reality.
i must say goodbye and forget about the possibilities,
of there ever being a we...
drenched in my sadness
as the only thing that grows is my madness...
goodbye for now,
only i know that somehow,
i will keep you in my heart,
till death do us part...
i will wait for the day i can go back to the start!

----- by Gabrielle

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