My Pain

My pain soars through me like a candle in the wind,
blowing out my fire for all my sin,
walking into the fight wishing that somehow I might possibly win,
but it is just my oblivion,
unwillin’,
to sit and listen the people telling me to just take it in.
To not fight,
but I kept pushing knowing that can't be right,
reality was nowhere in sight...
and there was the possibility that I might, just might,
be still dreaming in my long sleep filled night.
Knowing that right now I am at my height,
all of this advice and yet I was still in spite.
As everything ways down on me,
I pray that someday it would grow light.
Feeling that life seems to use me for torture,
in a sense to lure,
the naive would soon come in and pour...
and what for...
this painful torture...
my mind is suppressed by the ignorant in this world,
and slowly each brain cell come undone, slowly twirled.
My tongue has been cut out,
because of all I used to shout,
yelling at those who were fucking up my life in rout.
My eyes tore out
of the caves they used to lie...
so no more I will be able to look and asked why,
no longer will I be able to runaway and shy,
I am put up on the podium as the prize...
by heart rip apart piece by piece,
making my time temporary like a house on lease,
making my time quick, in which soon it would cease.
Bring me my peace.
My finger cut off from the middle of my fist,
the only way to express my anger anymore is the knife to my wrist.
So now I contemplate coming back starting with number one on my hit list...
my feet ripped apart from my legs making my incapable to move on,
I am only able to sit and watch on my un-mowed lawn.
Gone.
You may have my body, heart and mind...
but you will never be able to hold me in this bind.
So go ahead and show my quote“perfect”"e life to the blind,
to follow and walk towards you to find...
but know this...
your ignorance is bliss...
blinded is your sight,
your blindness to the light,
know this my friends who stalk the night,
you will never win this fight.
I will always fight!!!

----- by Gabrielle

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