The Angel Connection
A Newsletter and Support Group for Bereaved Parents
Angel Connection
It's 4:30 AM. in my world and I am awake with a million and one thoughts
running through my head... I received a letter in the mail yesterday
from a lady who lives close to me. She said that all three of her
children were killed in an accident at the same time. She asked how
could she go on living without them... She gave me her phone number
and I wanted to call her right away and tell her all the answers.
I have survived by the grace of God over the past years... living one
day at a time in desperate search of each new miracle to shine a
light on the past and the pain... I have written more newsletters
than I can count, I have facilitated grief groups, hugged and prayed
with many bereaved parents... yet I am at a complete loss of words.
I wanted to die after the loss of my Jaymi. My one little beautiful
angel... I can only imagine how this lady must feel. When I read her
letter... it again reaffirmed the fact that my life has been blessed
in so many ways.
I will call her this morning... I will talk with her. I will tell her
how sorry I am but I have no answers... I will tell her I don't know
how she feels and I can only imagine the pain that she feels... but I
will promise her hugs and a listening ear and I will tell her that I
am always here for her when she needs me... *sigh*
Our reactions, experiences and grief is as different as the causes
for them... We as bereaved parents... know far to well the pain of
never seeing our children again... never touching them, never feeling
their joy or hearing their laughter. But I don't believe that grief
can be measured... I don't think a child lost in miscarriage is any
less valuable or painful than a child of 25, fresh out of college. I
don't believe that the loss of a newborn is any less painful than a
toddler... We all love our children more than our own lives... we all
want and need to see our children live, grow and succeed in this
journey we call life. We aren't supposed to outlive our children.
Wow! I didn't intend to write a novel. *sigh* My mind was too heavy
this morning and I wanted to share... I sincerely thank you for listening!
I wish you love, peace and healing,
Cyssi
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