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Somewhere Over the Rainbow

Does anybody remember the old classic movie "The Wizard of Oz?" These friends dance down the yellowbrick road, arm in arm, buddies forever, on a life quest for the one thing they are missing. They seek different things ... because of course, we are all different!

And so together they face all the difficulties (flying monkeys) and fears (witches!) and they arrive at the Wizard's door. But, the wizard is a fake!

I think this is Oz, my friends. We are dancing down the yellowbrick road, arm in arm, anticipating receiving our new "characteristic" that we have been missing for so long. I have been smoking for 30 years. I am not quite sure what to ask the Wizard for.

I know I'm discovering a new heart and courage and a brain. I love this new me, for I am acquiring all of those missing ingredients in my personality.

I had the courage to stand up to this fear that I have been running from for so long!

I had the brains to finally do it (after 30 years)!!!

And of course, I finally developed the heart that I had been hiding for so long, under the disguise of anger and impatience and misplaced judgements.

Those of you who are feeling the need now to join me in a song of ... "Somewhere Over the Rainbow ... " hahahaha

I'm just being silly here. Did I mention to you that the wizard is a fake? The disillusions that drive home are really frightening. I thought, I believed, I knew this to be my world. What on earth am I going to believe in now?

Maybe it's time to go home. Beautiful beautiful home!

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