I feel stupid - but I know it won't last for long And I've been guessing - and I coulda been guessin' wrong You don't know me now I kinda' thought that you should somehow Does that whole mad season got ya down
Well, I feel stupid - but it's something that comes and goes And I've been changin' - think it's funny how no one knows An' we don't talk about - the little things that we do without When that whole mad season comes around
So why ya gotta stand there Looking like the answer now It seems to me - you'd come around
I need you now Do you think you can cope You figured me out - that I'm lost and I'm hopeless I'm bleeding and broken - though I've never spoken I come undone - in this mad season
I feel stupid - but I think I been catchin' on I feel ugly - but I know I still turn you on You've grown colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around Will that whole mad season knock you down
So are you gonna stand there Are you gonna help me out We need to be together now - I need you now
Do you think you can cope You figured me out - that I'm lost and I'm hopeless I'm bleeding and broken - though I've never spoken I've come undone - in this mad season
And now I'm cryin' - isn't that what you want An' I'm tryin' to live my life on my own But I won't, no At times - I do believe I am strong So someone tell me why, why, why Do I, I, I feel stupid and I come undone Well, I come undone
I need you now
Do you think you can cope You figured me out - that I'm lost and I'm hopeless I'm bleedin' and broken - though I've never spoken
Well, I need you now
Do you think you can cope You figured me out - I'm a child and I'm hopeless I'm bleedin' and broken - Though I've never spoken I come ohhh... I come undone
In this mad season In this mad season There's been a mad season Been a mad season
-Mad Season, by Matchbox 20 (CD: Mad Season)
Kindlin stepped quietly into the house, many hours later, at 2 in the morning, letting the back door shut behind her. Her foot steps were light as she walked into the kitchen, setting her purse down on the counter, on her way to the hallway, where she climbed the stairs tiredly, and headed towards her's and Nick's bedroom. She turned the bedroom door knob and pushed the door open, stepping inside the room. With her foot, she closed the door behind her and made her way to the bed, where Nick lay fast asleep.
Kindlin kicked her black flip-flops off and unbottoned her short jean shorts, shimmying them off of her body. She pulled off her black tank top and crawled onto the bed, on her hands and knees, in her bra and underwear. Straddling Nick's stomach gently, she wrapped her hands around the back of Nick's neck and layed her head down on his chest.
Nick stirred in his sleep, subconsciously wrapping his arms around Kindlin's bear waist. His eyelids fluttered, before fully opening. He sighed, "You're finally home."
Kin's head rose, to look at Nick, tears in her eyes, "I love you," she whispered. "I'm so sorry. I need your help... please?" she paused, choking back a sob, "I love you... do you still love me?"
Nick's arms wrapped so tight around Kindlin, she could hardly breathe. He rolled her over onto her side, placing kisses across her face. "Of course I do, baby. I'll never stop loving you. I love you so much."
"Will you help me, Nicky?" she whimpered. "Will you help me?"
Nick nuzzled her neck, inhaling her vanilla scent, "You've gotta tell me the truth," he whispered, placing various kisses from her neck down to her shoulder, and back again.
Kindlin suppressed a moan, now laying on her back with Nick on top of her, her fingers tangling in his hair as his lips skimmed lower down her body. As his lips and tongue sucked on her collar bone, she breathed out, "I wasn't taking my pills, Nicky... I'm so sorry."
Come to me now And lay your hands over me Even if it's a lie Say it will be all right And I shall believe
I'm broken in two And I know you're on to me That I only come home When I'm so all alone But I do believe
That not everything Is gonna be the way You think it ought to be It seems like every time I try to make it right It all comes down on me Please say, honestly, You won't give up on me And I shall believe And I shall believe
Open the door, And show me your face tonight I know it's true, no one heals me like you And you hold the key
Never again would I turn away from you I'm so heavy tonight, but your love is all right And I do believe
That not everything Is gonna be the way You think it ought to be It seems like every time I try to make it right It all comes down on me Please say, honestly, You won't give up on me And I shall believe
I shall believe And I shall believe
That not everything Is gonna be the way You think it ought to be It seems like every time I try to make it right It all comes down on me Please say, honestly, You won't give up on me And I shall believe
And I shall believe I shall believe I shall believe I shall believe And I shall believe
Please say, honestly, You won't give up on me
And I shall believe I shall believe An' I shall believe I shall believe
I shall believe I shall believe I shall believe I shall believe I shall believe I shall believe I shall believe I shall believe I shall believe I shall believe I shall believe
-I Shall Believe, by Sheryl Crow (CD: Tuesday Night Music Club)
Nick lifted himself back up so that his face was level with hers. He stayed silent for so long that Kindlin began to fear that he was angry with her. But then he spoke... and his voice wasn't only soft and gentle, but loving and comforting.
"I know, sweetie, I know," he wrapped his arms tightly around her, placing a gentle kiss on her forehead. "We'll get through this, okay love?" Nick smirked as he felt Kindlin raise her legs up and pull his boxers off with her feet. "Here I am, trying to be reassuring and understanding... and you're just plain horny."
Kindlin giggled, her eyes sparkling for a split second, "You talk too much," she whispered, placing a gentle kiss on his lips.
