Lauren sighed in frustration as the cool wind whipped across her jacket. It's coolness stung her bare skin, but she barely noticed it. It couldn't have possibly stung more than the fight she had just had. Why was he so fickle? She probably would never figure it out. 'I'm young, I need to just leave this behind and be with a normal guy' She would often tell herself. But could she?

What makes this world go 'round?
Will the answer let her down?
She is so sweet and young
And her life has just begun

"I need to look to my future." She said softly to herself. "Not to some guy who can't figure out if he loves me or not."

Why should she stay with a guy who only gives her hurt and pain? But she loved him, and that's why she was still here. She didn't know anything that kept her through those days, except for her hope that he would change. She knew love would eventually come around. She had to love something to stay that long, right?

What does her future hold?
That's a story left untold
Will she make it through her days
Let love lead the way

She silently laughed to herself. She was letting this get to her too much. It was just a guy. Her laugh intensified, then she stopped walking. She heard his voice and footsteps coming after her. It was all in slow motion, just a movie. She wished it was just a movie. She didn't even realize how far from the bus she had walked. The laugh went to a haulting stop, and then the tears came pouring out. This wasn't just another guy. She knew she loved him.

Part of me laughs
Part of me cries
Part of me wants to question why?

The sun shine immediatly disappeared,letting the grey clouds take over, releasing a pounding rain that almost matched her pounding heart. She couldn't stand this. She had so many good times with him, but joy comes with pain. She let out another sob as he kept getting inches closer to her.

Why is there joy?
Why is there pain?
Why is there sunshine and the rain?

She couldn't stand how one minute he was with her, and then the next he was gone. He could never make up his mind. It seemed as if Monday they were friends, Friday they got back together, and Monday they were friends again. She knew she had to move on, but she felt she couldn't. She was too weak. She was weak because of him.

One day you're here
Next you are gone
No matter what we must go on
Just keep the faith and
Let love lead the way

She felt him getting closer. She could sense him. And she hated that too. She instantly started up walking again, she couldn't bare to even look at him.

"Lauren!" He shouted over the thundering rain. She shook her head as another sob came out, and started walking faster.

Everything
Will work out fine
If you let love
Love lead the way

Flashbacks came flooding into her mind. She couldn't stop them. She remembered nights when she was waiting for the guys to board the bus. They would all say hey to her, but he didn't even look at her. It was like he was ashamed of her. She could remember looking out the window and just crying as the guys laughed and goofed around with some of the hoochie fans. She didn't mind the fans, but he reacted better with them than her. This just didn't cut it for Lauren. There where nights when JC would notice her and try to comfort her. They had been friends for quite some time now. She felt as if she should have been with him instead of Justin.

Sitting there all alone
In the window of her room
Watching the world go by
Brings tears to her eyes.
All she sees is hurt and pain
And she wants to break the chains
She'll keep pressing everyday
She knows love will lead the way*

She felt his hand grab her arm. She yanked at it feircly like a dog trying to get out of it's leash. "Justin there's nothing to talk about, just GO!" She said, pushing him away from her. She could see two bodyguards running up to the scene. She chuckled bitterly.

"Can't go anywhere without them can he?" She asked herself.

"Lauren, listen. I'm sorry. Really, I..I love you ok?"

Lauren calmed down at those words. "What?" She questioned.

Part of me laughs
Part of me cries
Part of me wants to question why
Why is there joy
Why is there pain
Why is there sunshine and the rain
One day you're here
next you are gone
No matter what we must go on
Just keep the faith and
Let love lead the way

Everything,
It will work out fine
If you let love
Love lead the way

Lauren sobbed again. Justin pulled her in for a hug as the other three guys came tumbling out of the bus. A fight between Lauren and Justin was trouble. Often violent. Lauren couldn't believe it. He'd said it. But now...was she doubting herself? She looked over Justin's shoulders to see the shadowy figure of JC standing on the bus.

You have been all down*
You just can't be who you are*
You gotta know for sure
That it isn't make-believe

Lauren looked up into Justin's eyes. Her eyes told it all, all her pain with him, all the tears that had fallen from her blue eyes. All of the miserable nights she had tolerated for the past year. All the feelings of not being wanted for anything more than sex and a date to award shows. A hatred for him that hid behind the love. Justin noticed this. The look in her eyes screamed every one of these things. He followed her gaze over to JC. He'd apologized too late. He swallowed hard and shoved his hands in his pockets, walking away. Lauren sighed and walked after him.

"Justin, what now? You don't love me anymore?" She said bitterly. Justin turned around and stared down at her.

"That doesn't matter. There's someone on the bus who loves you more than I ever could." He said tearfully as he walked off into the rainy streets, not sure where he was going.

You may feel weak
But you are strong
Don't you give up,girl

That was it? That's all it took? She started walking towards the bus. A smile came across her lips as she thought about what was about to happen. She began running towards the entrance to a confused JC.

If you keep holding on
You'll never go wrong
Just close your eyes
'Coz it lies
Deep in your heart, yeah

JC had cloudy eyes as he awaited what Lauren was about to tell him. He and Justin had talked earlier, and he had talked Justin into finding out wether he loved Lauren or not. It ripped JC up, but he knew it was the best for all three of them. Lauren jumped into the bus and shut the door. JC backed up as she lead the way to the bunk area.

"What's the deal?" JC asked softly.

"He told me he loved me."

"Oh, that's great!" He lied.

"It would be, but he said that someone in the bus loved me more," She said innocently. "Know who that may be?" She asked playfully as she kissed him.

....Everything
Will work out fine
If you let love...
Love lead the way...
Love lead the way...
Love lead the way...

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