(Kristin’s POV)

“Kris I’m sorry baby I have some extra stuff to do in the studio so I’ll see you when I get home”

“Okay I guess I love you”

“um yeah later” I hung up the phone. Why did he do this to me? He doesn’t love me. He never did. I made up my mind. I was going to leave. I pulled one of the many suitcases I owned and stuffed what I could in it. I wonder if he would even know I was gone. I wiped the tears from my ears and headed downstairs. I quickly scrawled out a note telling him I left.

“Manda are you there please pick up”

“Um yeah” she answered the phone out of breath.

“Can I come crash there for a few days? I’m leaving Kevin” She didn’t say anything.

“Okay are you sure?”

“Yeah I need to have someone to take care of me”

“Of course sweety just come on over” I put the phone down and walked out the door. I looked back at the house I had spent so many years in.

I don’t know what had changed us. When we starting dating we were inseparable. Very much in love. Then one day, at least a year ago he changed. He wasn’t the Kevin I fell in love with. My Kevin was sweet, and sensitive.

I wiped my tears away and climbed into my car. I pulled up in front of Manda and A.J's house and just stayed outside for a while. I needed to think. Unfortunately I wasn’t having much luck. I peeled myself from the car and knocked on the door.

“Come on in” AJ grabbed my bags and took them up to the guestroom.

“Miss Kris tell me what happened” I sat down on the bed and looked toward the ground. It was too hard to tell people. I lost the only man I ever loved.

“Later”

“Okay well me and AJ are going to be .. well...you know but if you want to talk just tell me. I’m sure AJ can handle himself” We both laughed. It felt good.

“I’ll be fine. You two go have some fun” I curled into the bed. I didn’t bother changing. I didn’t have the will power. I was lied to. That’s what I felt. I kept thinking I did something wrong. But I didn’t. Still my mind drifted toward that thought. I closed my eyes and hoped that some sleep would fix it all.

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Meanwhile.......(Kevin’s POV)

I felt bad for what I did. I was just scared, confused. I’m getting older. It was time to be settling down. But is Kris the one? I called out my name. No one answered. I began to get worried. It wasn’t like her to just leave.

I searched the entire house ending back where I started. Then I saw something. A note. I picked it up and read it.

Dear Kevin....
I love you so much yet you push me away. I can’t take it anymore. I need to be loved. I guess you don’t feel that way. I only hope that one day you’ll see what we had. Hopefully it’s not too late.

A tear slid down my face. I really lost her. I was blinded by my own stupidity. The person I saw myself with forever was gone. I fell to my knees and cried. What was my life worth now?

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(Kristin's POV)

I woke up feeling better. He left me as far as I was concerned. He left me alone. It wasn’t my fault.

“Good morning” I called out. Amanda and AJ looked at me funny.

“Someone’s feeling better” AJ teased.

“It’s his fault not mine”

“Kev’s my bro, don’t get me wrong but he’s an asshole. He had the world and he let it slip through his hands.”

“I know. I’m gonna go shopping wanna join me?” I asked as I turned to Manda.

“Sure. You wanna call the other girls?” I thought for a moment.

“Yeah we’ll make it a girls day out”

“That’s my girl. I’m gonna go get dressed, call the others for me will ya?” she put on the face she had learned from Becca.

“You know you aren’t the baby” I smiled slyly at her.

“I know, what can I say” she bounced up the stairs.

I shook my head. “That girl” I picked up the phone and dialed Lei’s number. “Leighanne answer the phone” I sang to her.

“This is Miss. Wallace soon to be Littrell.” OMG, everyone was getting hitched. AJ and Manda were engaged, so were Leighanne and Brian. Becca and Nick were married.

“You wanna go shopping. Manda’s going, I’m sure Claudia doesn’t mind and Becca well that’s a no duh” (I’m actually like that)

“Uh yeah sure in like an hour at Citrus Park?”

“I guess so later chica”

“Later” I hung up the phone and called the other two. They said yes of course. I wondered how Kevin was. My heart told me to call him but my mind told me other wise. I called him none the less.

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“Yeah” I mumbled. I was cranky. I had been up all night crying.

“It’s me” Her voice was so beautiful.

“Kris, baby I am soo sorry. I am such an idiot. Baby you’re the best thing in my life ” (hehe that’s a line from the song!)

“Kevin save it. You tell me that a lot. I don’t believe it anymore. I need you but you aren’t there for me. I’m sorry Kev but it’s over.”

“No Kris! Please, please no” I begged.

“No. I’ll send someone over later for my stuff. But Kev...”

“yeah” I sniffled.

“I still love you and always will”

“I love you too Kris, I mean it” she didn’t hear me cos all I heard was the dial tone. I slumped back to my place on the floor. It’s final....

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(Kristin’s POV)

I wasn’t really paying attention to anything the other girls were saying. My mind was still on Kevin. Yeah, sure I told everyone I was okay but I was lying. Lying to myself.

“Kris, Kris” Claudia broke me from my thoughts.

“Sorry” I mumbled.

“Don’t worry Kris things will work out. I promise. We know you two are in love your just having some problems” Amanda comforted.

“Houston we have a problem” Becca said in one of those goofy announcer voices. I cracked a smile.

“I know. Let’s not ruin this day. Let us shop!” the 5 of us giggled and we headed to another store.

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(Kevin’s POV)

“Yo Train, come on dude. This isn’t healthy” AJ tried to get me to eat. The chances of that were slim to none. (Something to think about: Slim to none; fat chance; mean the same thing)

“Fine but I’m not happy about this” I shoved a forkful of something in my mouth. This was AJ after all.

“Go Kevin! So tell me exactly what happened? Panda was short on details last night”

“I’m an idiot”

“We knew that but really what happened?”

“I was spending more time at the studio than with her. I’ve blown off so many dates with her. This relationship is over with”

“Don’t say that. You never know what could happen”

“Whatever”

“I’m gonna go now but if ya need anyone call me” I waved him out the door. I tried to keep my mind busy. I pulled out the song I had been working on for over 3 years. I played the first few notes on the piano. I scrawled out a line.

It’s not that I can’t live without you

Pretty good if I say so. The lines filled my mind. They all fit together so perfectly.

It’s just that I don’t even wanna try
Every night I dream about you
Ever since the day we said goodbye
If I wasn’t such a fool
Right now I’d be holding you
There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do
Baby if I only knew

I thought of calling Kristin. But I can imagine her hanging up on me. If she only knew hoe much I was hurting. She’d see I was sincere.

The words to say
The road to take
To find a way back to your heart
What can I do
To get to you
And find a way back to your heart

I don’t know how it got so crazy
But I’ll do anything to set things right
‘Cause your love is so amazing
Baby you’re the best thing in my life
Let me prove my love is real
And make you feel the way I feel
I promise I would give the world
If only you would tell me girl

Give me one more chance, to give my love to you
‘Cause no one on this earth loves you like I do

I turn back time
To make you mine
And find a way back to your heart
I beg and plead
Fall to my knees
An find a way back to your heart

I had finally written it. I had poured my heart out. I only hoped that she would believe me.