"Show Me The Meaning

by Emma Henriksson


"So many words for the broken heart
It's hard to see in a crimson love
So hard to breathe
Walk with me, and maybe"


Brian started to sing their number one hit from the year 1999. It was a cold February night, Valentine's Day. It was the last night of their five week tour in the US. They all wanted to go back home as soon as possible after this. For the last three shows it had been a weird feeling between them all. But then again, it hadn't been like it used to since 2003. Something happened back then but no one could really tell what it was. They hadn't stopped touring or making records, though. And they always tried to be happy and act the same as they always had in photoshoots, interviews and in front of fans. But everyone knew that someday it would all end. And this was it. This was their last tour together, forever. The had gotten sick of each other, after traveling the world and living together 24/7 for almost twenty years and they had had enough.


They still loved the buisness, the music and each other, but they were sick of it all. They wanted to do something else for a change.


"Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free I could feel the sun
Your every wish will be done"


AJ continued the song, a tear slipping throu his closed eyes. He couldn't believe that this was it, their last show together. Yes, he did love being on stage by himself, but then he always knew that someday he was going on tour with the others again and that was a secure feeling for him. To never feel that again was scary to him. To never be able to rely on the others if something goes wrong, to never have his best friends around day and night when he needed to talk to someone ... He hated the feeling.


"Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart"


They sat on stage singing, Kevin playing the piano. They didn't look at each other once during this song. It was too painful for them. No one in the audience or anyone from the crew knew about their plans, they hadn't noticed anything wrong. But to their management it had seemed kind of strange when the boys had asked them to arrange a press conference after the show.


"Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze"


Kevin started his part looking, taking a glimpse at the others just to see them all looking either on the audience or looking down at the piano. He couldn't remeber how things got like this. It all started after the summer of the year 2000 when he and Brian got married. But the others were happy for them, or at least they said they were. No that couldn't be it, he thought. No, it had to be something else. Maybe it all started before the weddings, but he hadn't noticed anything. He wasn't sure, but he had to find out before the press conference that's for sure.


"Guilty roads to an endless love
There's no control
Are you with me now
Your every wish will be done
They tell me"


Nick joined in. Since that show, the last one, had started, he had hoped that it would never end. This was his family. They had been his family since he was thirteen and now he was 30. That's more then half his life. What would he do without them, his brothers??? All the jokes with Brian, the fights with Kevin, the small talk with AJ and the clubbing with Howie. He sure was gonna miss it all.


"Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart"


They all kept singing, no one wanting the song or the night to end.


Howie kept thinking that this was it. THIS might be the last time we sing this song together, ever!!!! He couldn't hold back the tears and started to cry as he sang his part.


"There's nowhere to run
I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body and soul
How can it be you're asking me to feel the things you never show"


Who would he break apart from fighting now??? His brothers and sisters never fought! He was gonna get bored. No Nick to laugh at at interviews when he screwed things up and no Kevin to try and loosen up a bit; no AJ to try and control around females and no Brian who will burst into song at any time. He sure was gonna miss these moments.


"Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart"


AT THE PRESS CONFERENCE


Kevin, Nick, Howie, Brian and AJ all came in the press room together, not a smile on their faces. Everyone in the room asked themselves the same question: What is all this about?!?!?


The boys sat down and it was all quiet. Not a word was said in five minutes then Kevin opened his mouth to speak up.


"We have asked you all to come here tonight because we have some big news for you. We have together as a group and as brothers made the decision to..." he looked at Nick, AJ, Brian and Howie, all with a sad look. He smiled and continued: "...make another album!!!"


The boys gasped in unison and looked over at Kevin. The reporters were relieved to hear the great news, they had all thought that the group was gonna end that night. But no, another album. That would make it their ... tenth album. And they had only gotten more and more popular for every year and every new single they released.


"Kevin, what are you talking about? We aren't gonna make another album??" Brian said.


"C'mon guys, you have to admit that you rather make another album then quit!!! Right???" he asked getting a bit worried that he might have done wrong.


They looked at each other for awhile.


"GROUP HUG!!!!!!!" Nick started screaming.


THE END!!!



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