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Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Sequel: If
I Don't Have You
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Prologue
Taina and AJ were best friends. Taina was in love with AJ but was
afraid and refused to tell him her true feelings in fear of loosing
him. Taina was so determined not to tell him that when he fell in love
with her close friend Tara it tore her up inside. She ultimately
decided to keep her distance from both of them, which kept Taina from
realizing just how much AJ actually needed her..
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Chapter 1
Over a month had past Taina was severely depressed and had started to
starve herself causing her to lose almost half of her body weight. She
had been so busy keeping herself working that she didn’t have time to
see or hear from anyone.
Taina slumber was interrupted by a loud knock on the door. She tried to
just ignore it by covering her head with a pillow but the pounding
continued to persist. Taina grumbled all the way to the door as she
slowly opened the door ready to explode at whomever it was.
"What ?" she griped rubbing her eyes.
"Oh gee I love you too" AJ replied just waking into Taina’s apartment
without being invited.
“Sorry AJ I was just now getting to sleep for the first time in two
days,” Taina explained.
“What the hell has happened to you?” AJ ask asked worried noticing that
she has lost a lot of weight. "I have been trying to call you and
waited by your door step for you to get home several nights."
"Working mostly," she explained hoping he wouldn't ask too many
question.
"Why haven't you returned my mom‘s or even my calls. We worry about
you, ya know," AJ replied trying to control his anger.
"Between work, spending time with Raul, and the little sleep I got I
haven‘t really had time to," Taina stated shutting the door behind him.
She walked back to her room to crawl back in bed knowing AJ was right
on her heals.
"What is wrong with you?" AJ asked sitting on the bed next to her, “Why
cant you just take a few minutes in the day to call me or my mom to let
us know how you are doing or if something is wrong?” he stated resting
one of his hands on her lower back.
"Nothing is wrong with me,” Taina replied sitting up to give him a hug,
“I am sorry for not calling ok. I'm very sorry."
"What is this?" AJ asked running his fingers lightly across the small
bruises on her lower arm.
"I don‘t know, maybe I bumped into something." Taina replied. “Listen
now that you know I am ok I am going to have to ask you to leave
because I really need to try to go back to sleep.”
"Ok," AJ said feeling that she was shutting him out, “Please call don’t
make me worry like that ever again!”
"I won‘t I am sorry," she replied walking with him to the door, “Take
care,” giving him one last hug once they reached the door.
"Before I go I just wanted to tell you that I am going to ask Tara to
marry me and wanted to know if you could help me pick out a ring," he
asked, "But its ok if you don’t.”
"No, its ok when are you wanting to go and I will do my best to be
there," she replied holding back the pain of her heart shattered into a
million pieces.
“I was going to ask if you wanted to go now and maybe go out to lunch
after words to catch up,” AJ stated.
“Well, ok sleep can wait,” Taina replied only going to get it over with
sooner instead of late.
AJ sat down making himself comfortable while Taina was back in her
bedroom getting ready. While they were getting ready Taina’s boyfriend
came home furious that there was another man alone with her in their
apartment.
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Chapter 2
“Who are you and what are you doing in my apartment?” Raul asked. “Wait
I recognize you, your one of them N’sync boys or whatever.”
“My name is AJ and I am a friend of Taina’s,” AJ explained, “and its
not N’sync its Backstreet.”
“Where is Taina?” Raul asked angrily.
“She is in the room getting changed, do you have a problem with that or
are you just cranky from your underwear riding up your ass,” AJ sneered.
Raul just ignored him and walked into the bedroom.
“Where do you think you are going Taina?” he yelled.
“I am just going to help him find something for his girlfriend and then
maybe go out to lunch. That’s it I swear,” Taina explained as she
finished tying her last shoe,” and if you have a problem with it we can
deal with it when I get back.”
“Fine than it will wait,” Raul yelled before Taina grabbed her bag then
joined AJ back in the other room.
“Ok I am ready,” Taina smiled.
AJ and Taina left leaving Raul behind angry that Taina had disobeyed
him. Their first stop was a local jeweler. The two walked into the
store where they were greeted by a sales clerk.
“May I help you,” the salesman asked.
“Yes, I am looking for an engagement ring.” AJ replied.
“Oh ok congratulations,” the man said leading the two to a case full of
engagement rings.
“Um no we are just friends. I am just helping him find the perfect ring
for his fiancée,” Taina piped up wishing the ring was for her.
“Oh ok sorry my mistake,” the clerk replied.
“Do you think she will like this one?” AJ asked pointing out a simple
ring with diamonds around the entire ring.
“Truthfully no I don’t think she will. She would want something more
like this,” Taina replied pointing to the ring covered with little
diamonds and one gigantic stone in the center. “She is the type of
woman who wants as many diamonds she could get as well as the biggest.
At least that is what I have noticed about her,” Taina said hinting to
AJ that she was just using him for money.
“Ok this ring it is,” AJ said noticing her eyeing the ring pointed out
earlier while he paid for the other ring. “Don’t worry you’ll meet and
marry the man of your dreams someday.“ AJ said.
“Yeah I will someday, that’s if there is someone out there for me,”
Taina replied knowing that he was the one she truly wanted to be with.
“Awe come on don’t say that, there is someone out there who will just
knock you off your feed,” AJ stated as they headed for the door. “So
where do you want to go out for lunch?” AJ asked once in his car.
“Um how about McDonalds,” Taina suggested knowing that it would just be
a quick cheap and simple
“No, I was thinking more like an actual restaurant not some fast food
joint,” AJ commented.
“Eh if you want to,” Taina replied.
“Tai please be honest with me but is there something wrong, because it
feels like you are hiding something from me,” AJ asked curiously.
“No nothing’s wrong I am just tired,” Taina lied as they pulled into
his favorite restaurant.
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Chapter 3
They two went in and ordered. Taina was pretty well distant the rest of
the night.
"I was just wondering. Why have you lost to much weight?" he continued
to interrogate.
"I thought it was time that I dropped a couple of dress sized.. Is
there a problem with that," Taina shot back.
"Why you were perfect the way you were before?" he stated leaning over
to move a long strand of her long dark brown hair out of eyes.
"My bosses think differently, They feel if I loose about 20 more lbs
than I would be perfect,“ Taina explained.
“Taina if your job like that than you can always get a job with me,” AJ
replied.
“No, thank you. I am quite content with my job now and I don’t have a
problem with loosing the weight just to keep my job, “Taina replied.
“Well I do,” AJ replied taking her hand, “I don’t like seeing you like
this.”
“I am sorry you feel that way,” Taina replied pulling her hand away
from his.
Their food finally arrived shortly after. They ate in silence as AJ
watched Taina toy with her food taking a small bite now and then. He
knew she was making herself sick and wanted to do something to help her
but he was clueless on where to start. Every time he even tried to show
concern she would push him away and he wanted to know the reasoning for
that. Once they were finished AJ paid for their lunch and drove Taina
home. As Taina reached to open the door AJ grabbed her arm.
“Taina I know something is wrong with you, but I can’t help you if you
wont talk to me about it,” AJ said searching her eyes in hope of an
answer to her awkward behavior.
“Nothing is wrong, AJ,” Taina replied sincerely, “And I am sorry for my
harsh behavior today,” she reached over to give him a hug.
“Its ok, I just worry about you,” AJ replied returning her hug.
Taina gave AJ a slight smile before getting out and began to walk back
to her dreaded apartment where he would have to face the wrath of her
angry boyfriend. She took one last breath before entering the apartment
thinking that Raul would be in he living room waiting to scald her for
having another man in their apartment. Raul was no where to be found,
shutting the door behind her she walked back to their room to change
and get ready for work only to find him having sex with another woman.
Taina didn’t even bother to look back running into the living room to
grab her car keys and took off. Raul chased after her standing in her
way so she couldn’t leave but eventually jumped out of the way when he
realized that she wasn’t going to stop.
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Chapter 4
Taina drove around for awhile trying to decided where she should go.
Not wanting to burden AJ with her problems she decided finally decided
on taking a drive to see Nick.
“Taina what are you doing here?” he asked inviting her in.
“I need a place to stay for a night or two?” Taina answered.
“Of course, you can stay as long as you need to. Why did you come to
me? Did something happen between you and AJ?”
“Thank you,” Taina responded, “I don’t really want to stay with AJ I
just need to get away. Not to mention I just found my boyfriend
cheating on me,” she cried wondering if the already horrendous day
could get any worse.
“I am so sorry,” he replied giving her a hug.
“I was also wondering if I could borrow some money. I promise to pay
you back.”
“Yeah sure. What do you need it for may I ask?”
“I think I am going to move. I don’t know where right at the moment but
I need to leave,” Taina explained.
“Oh ok in that case then no I am not going to lend you the money
because running isn’t going to solve anything.” Nick answered.
“I am not running I just need a fresh start. A new beginning.”
“Don’t deny it Tai I know you are in love with AJ, and he is the one
you are running from.”
“Ok yeah I am in love with AJ but I know he doesn’t feel the same way
about me and I cant stand the fact that he is never going to look at me
that way and knowing that it just kills me,” Taina confessed unable to
hold back the stream of tears that followed shortly after. “And you
know what? He is getting married to her and I don’t want to stick
around to see him marry her.”
“I don’t blame you but I am not going to let you run away from this. I
mean look at you. How much longer are you going to make yourself
suffer. If you keep this up you are eventually going to kill your self
and I nor AJ want that to happen.” Nick said continuing to hold and
comfort her.
“That is why I need to get away Nick. Please help me,” she pleaded.
“Well first let me help you by getting you something to eat and I will
think about lending you the money,” Nick replied.
“Ok.”
“What do you want to eat?” Nick asked as they walked into the kitchen.
“There is frozen pizza, ramen noodles, cereal, Mac and Cheese, hot dogs”
“Um pizza preferably cheese if ya have it.”
“I Do,” he said turning the oven on.
Once they had finished eating they headed to bed.
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Chapter 5
Taina woke early the next morning and decide to go see if Nick was
awake yet. Quietly creeping into his room she found him fast asleep in
his bed so she decided to write him a quick note. Once finished she
left the note on the nightstand next to him and took off.
Nick woke up just minutes after Taina had left. He immediately found
the note setting on the night stand and began to read its contents:
Dear Nick,
Thank you so much for your help. I decided to go ahead and leave so
when you read this I will be gone. Please whatever you do “DO NOT” tell
AJ about me coming to see you and leaving.
I decided to move as far as I can with the money I have. I will call
you in the next few days.
Remember not a word to AJ please he has a enough stuff to worry about
without throwing me into the mix.
Love,
Tai
He immediately got up running outside to see that her car was
gone.
Once she reached her apartment she cautiously walked the parking lot to
see if Raul’s car was there before proceeding to enter the building.
Once in her apartment she didn’t waste an instant and immediately began
packing all her things and carried them to her car. After loading up
the last of her stuff she took off again stopping at the bank to close
out her accounts along the way.
Taina drove for hours only stopping to fill up with gas and to go to
the restroom. While on the road she finally decided to settle in
Greensboro, North Carolina. It was near the beach and a place that no
one would ever think of. Once there she rented a cheep hotel room where
she took a nice long hot bath and went to bed.
The next morning Taina woke up and went out to a nearby convenient
store to buy some coffee and grab a paper. On the way out of the store
she bumped into someone as she read the headlines of the front page.
“Oh um excuse me,” Taina said looking up briefly into the
stranger’s gorgeous eyes.
“Its ok,” the stranger replied flashing her his gorgeous smile, “Are
you new around here?”
“Um yes I just moved here,” Taina explained.
“Welcome to Greensboro then, my name is Josh… Josh Tyson.”
“Hi,” Taina said, “Um my name is Taina Dominguez.”
“It’s a pleasure to meet you,” Josh responded taking her hand to kiss
it softly.
“Its nice to meet you too,” Taina replied, “Well um I better get going
I have a long day ahead of me.”
“Alright have a nice day and I hope to see you around.” Josh watched
Taina leave.
Once Taina had arrived back to her hotel room she began to looking in
the paper for a reasonable apartment circling the ones that were within
her price range. After finishing that task she turned to the help
wanted adds and did the same thing circling all the jobs that she would
apply for. With doing that she was off.
Within the next couple of days she had found a great furnished small
one bedroom apartment and had been hired on the spot at the Player’s
Bar and Grill. Taina moved into her apartment soon there after.
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Chapter 6
Nick hung around his house the next few days in hope that Taina would
call. He began to worry when she didn’t and began to wonder if he
should get a hold of AJ and tell him that she was missing knowing that
AJ was going to find out eventually. Nick hesitated to pick up the
phone and began to dial his number hanging up only after the first
couple of rings. Nick then decided to call to call Denise to inform her
of what was going on and to ask if he should inform AJ.
“Yes I would call AJ he has the right to know and if you don’t hear
from Taina by tomorrow you need to call the police to report her
missing,” Denise explained.
“Ok thank you Denise I will call him right now,” Nick replied hanging
up with Denise and began to dial AJ’s number once again.
“Hello,” AJ answered.
“Hey um J its um Nick. I have some um very bad news to tell you,” Nick
began.
“Bad news. About what dude? I hope the label didn’t fold on your solo
record.”
“No it has nothing to do with that.” Nick paused, “ Dude Taina’s
missing.”
“What the hell do you mean by missing?” AJ yelled into the phone.
“Well lets just say she packed up everything and left town,” Nick
answered.
“How the hell do you know this and where the hell could she of gone?”
AJ said furiously unable to believe that Taina would do something like
this.
“Well because she came to me yesterday asking for money to help her
leave because she found her boyfriend cheating on her,” Nick explained.
“Why didn’t she come to me?” AJ asked now hurting thinking that Taina
didn’t trust him anymore.
“Because she felt you were probably busy and didn’t want to disturb
you,” Nick responded. “I am going to report this to the cops tomorrow
if she doesn’t call me before then.”
“Ok. Thank you for telling me. When we find her we are definitely going
to have a heart to heart.”
“Well I better go so I can leave the line open for her to call,” Nick
stated.
“Alright dude thanks and bye,” AJ said hanging up the phone as he sat
on his bed wondering what he was going to do without Taina there to
talk to and comfort him.
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Chapter 7
Taina finished her first day at work and headed home where she began to
draw a bubble bath. Once she was relaxed and in the tub she picked up
her phone and began to dial Nicks number.
“Hello,” Nick answered.
“Hey Nick it’s me,” Taina replied cheerfully.
“Where the hell have you been? You have no idea how much I was worried
about you.”
“I am sorry. I was busy trying to find an nice apartment and a decent
job,” Taina explained.
“Well don’t ever do that to me again ok. You should of waited for me to
wake up instead of leaving like that,” he exclaimed calming down, “So
where are you?”
“I don’t think I am quite ready to tell you yet,” Taina replied. “I
will say I am very happy here the people are very nice.”
“That’s good but you know we are going to find out sooner or later,”
Nick replied.
“Don’t worry I will tell you next time I call ok. I just want to be
sure you didn’t call and tell AJ,” Taina replied.
“Um ok,” Nick answered.
“Ok, well I better go. I wall call and talk to you in a few. Take
care,” Taina said.
“Ok you take care too, and don’t forget to call me this time,” Nick
stated hanging up the phone briefly and began to dial AJ’s number
again. “Hello J man, she is alright.”
“She is, thank god,” AJ replied with a sign or relief.
“I have one favor to ask of you. She is going to call you. Act like you
don’t know a thing,” Nick explained.
“Ok why dude?” AJ asked curiously, “because I am ready to give her a
piece of my mind.”
“Because if you act like you don’t know she is going to tell me where
she is the next time she calls,” Nick continued to explain, “then we
can both go there find her give her a hug and then yell at her for
leaving like that.”
“Oh ok then if you put it that way,” AJ stated.
“Ok remember. I better get going just incase she tries to call you
tonight.”
“Ok thanks man,” AJ said before hanging up.
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Chapter 8
The next couple of days passed by quickly. Taina did her normal routine
of going home after a long day at work and started the water for a
soothing bubble bath. Once relaxed in the tub she began to dial AJ’s
number having a feeling that Nick told AJ that she had left.
“Hello,” Tara answered grumpily.
“Um, hi is AJ there?” she asked wanting submerge herself in water
knowing she had just interrupted something. Taina decided to hang up
and immediately dialed Nicks number.
“Hey Tai,” Nick answered “its about time you called.
“Hi Nick,” Taina answered trying to hold back her teary voice.
“What’s wrong?” Nick asked concerned.
“Its nothing don’t worry about it. Hey I wasn’t able to get a hold of
AJ,” she lied, “If I tell you where I am you have to swear not to tell
AJ. If you do I will never contact you or any of the other guys ever
again and I am dead serious Nicholas.”
“Ok I promise not to tell as long as you let me come and visit,” he
joked trying to lighten the awkward mood.
“Yah yah, well see about that mister,” Taina sniped.
“Ok ok,” Nick replied “So where are you?”
“I am in Greensboro, North Carolina,” Taina answered.
“Really wow, is it nice there?”
“Yeah it is beautiful.” Taina paused thinking of Josh hoping to get the
chance to see him again, “Well I better let you go. I am going to go
out tonight.”
“Alright take care and please be safe.”
“I will you take care too and remember your promise.”
The two hung up. Taina finished her bath and then began to get ready to
go out and to get her mind of AJ for once. Moments later Taina arrive
to the Karaoke club where she waiting watching several other people
perform until it was finally her turn. She slowly walked up to the
stage full of mixed emotions. When she arrived to the stage she began
to introduce herself.
“Um Hi, My name is Taina and I will be singing “My Immortal” by
Evanescence,” she said as the music began and she began to sing:
My Immortal
I’m so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I’ve held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I’m bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I’ve held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though you're still with me
I’ve been alone all along
Taina sang with all her heart and soul releasing all the emotion she
had build up. When she finished the song she had a standing ovation
from the small crowd of people. Once she stepped off stage she was
greeted by a familiar face.
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Chapter 9
“Hi Josh right?” Taina smiled.
“Right, its great to see you again.”
“Great seeing you too. What brings you here?” she asked curiously.
“Well I am scouting for talent and apparently I found it,” Josh replied
handing her his card.
“That’s cool but I cant take this,” Taina replied.
“Why not?”
“Just because,” Taina responded.
“Well take it anyways just in case you change your mind,” Josh
stated, “or whenever your in New York and need a place to stay.”
“Ok,” she replied taking the card putting it in her back pocket. “So
how long do you have to be here?”
“Until I am ready to leave why?”
“Well because I was planning on going clubbing and wanted to know if
you would like to join me,” Taina suggested.
Josh agreed to go as they headed out to a club a few blocks down and
danced the night away. The two hit it off and for those few hours they
were together Taina had completely forgotten about AJ and was happy for
once. Taina had learned that Josh was originally from Greensboro but
moved to New York after finishing college where he found the job of his
dreams.
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Chapter 10
After two weeks had passed Taina had finally decided to give Nick
another ring to find out how AJ was doing and to tell him all about
Josh.
“Hello,” Nick answered half a sleep.
“I’m sorry did I wake you pumpkin,” she joked.
“Taina is that you. You actually sounds cheerful for once. What’s going
on?”
“Yes its me you dufus. Not much. I met someone. He is so sweet and
charming,” Taina answered.
“Wow I am glad that you are finally happy.”
“Thanks. So how is everyone?” she asked curiously.
“Well um. AJ is going ballistic. If you don’t call him again soon he is
going to report you missing,” Nick explained.
“Well Nick you see I um never called AJ. I mean well I did but I hung
up before he got on the phone,” Taina confessed.
“You really need to call him. He is worried about you and he knows you
left because he went to you apartment several times and every time that
jackass of an ex-boyfriend said he hasn’t seen you.”
“Ok I will eventually, but until then just tell him that I talked to
you and that I am fine.”
“You aren’t going to call him are you?”
“Yeah I am,” she stated.
“Ok if you don’t call him in the next 48 hours I am going to tell him
where you are,” Nick threatened.
“You wouldn’t?”
“I would.”
“Ok fine I will call him tomorrow. I have to go now. I have a date
tonight,” she exclaimed turning to the attention at the soft knock at
the door.
“Oh someone’s got a lover boy,” Nick joked.
“Shut up Nicholas. I will call you tomorrow after I call AJ.”
“Ok bye,” Nick replied.
Taina walked over to the door to invite Josh in. Once Taina had grabbed
her coat and purse they were off for another special night on the town
enjoying each others company.
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Chapter 11
After hanging up with Taina Nick decided to call AJ to let him know
what was going on.
“Hello,” AJ growled into the phone.
“Gee nice to talk to you too man,” Nick replied
“Oh hi Nick what do you want man,” AJ said.
“I just wanted to tell you that Taina is going to call you tomorrow,"
Nick explained, "and if she doesn't than be sure to give me a ring and
I will tell you where she is."
“Why don’t you tell me now and we can get there by tomorrow to drag her
ass back home,” AJ replied, “she has no idea how much I need her man.”
“Because I promised her and apparently she doesn’t need you anymore.
She has somebody new and it sounds like she is very happy,” Nick
confessed.
“Could you at least tell me why she left?” AJ asked having a feeling he
already knew.
“Before I answer that you will have to answer this. Are you in love
with her?” Nick stated in a low serious tone.
“Yes, I am, but I don’t want to leave Tara because she is pregnant,” AJ
confessed.
“And that is why you are marrying her,” Nick said shaking his head
unable to believe what he was hearing.
“Yeah.”
“Do you even know how long you have been hurting Taina,” Nick said
trying to hold back the anger in his voice. “She has loved you for a
long time. Did you ever wonder why she staved her self, yeah that was
why she was as thin as a tooth pick the last time you saw her. Ever
since you got with Tara, Taina has came to me whenever she needing
something because it hurt her to even look at you and when you told her
that you were marrying that bimbo it killed her in side man. You could
see the pain in her eyes, she just wanted to hurl herself off a cliff
and she probably would of if I wasn’t here for her. So she decided to
leave. I ask her not to but she got up early the next morning and took
off without my knowledge.”
AJ was speechless and hurt wishing he didn’t make such a drastic
mistake. Wishing he had actually taken a chance on Taina even though it
would of threatened their friendship.
“And if you truly love her man you would ditch that bimbo because the
probability of that kid being yours is zip to none. Then you need to
fly your ass to where she is and tell her how you feel,” Nick stated.
“Well that’s kind of hard being that I have no fucking clue where she
is. And I am not ditching Tara until I find out for sure that the baby
she is carrying is mine.”
“Ok then pack a few things we are going to see her,” Nick stated. “I
will be over to pick you up so we can head over to the air port from
there,” Nick explained as the two hung up and began to pack a few
things.
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Chapter 12
Taina and Josh’s night was remarkable. After a romantic dinner at a
fancy restaurant they went back to her place and started to watch a
movie, but was unable to finish it because they began to fill each
other’s sexual desires, kissing each other passionately over every inch
of each others body completing the task multiple times before falling
into a vast sleep in each other’s arms.
The next morning Taina began to kiss Josh passionately once again so
they could continue were the left off just hours before. Taina then
laid on her back so Josh could begin to devour her once again moaning
with his every touch to her soft tanned skin. The moment was short
lived when there was a loud pounding on the door.
“Do you think we should get that?” Josh asked.
“No lets just continue where we left off,” Taina replied seductively as
the pounding persisted.
“Maybe we should answer that?” Josh suggested, “Because I don’t think
they are going to go away.”
“Ok, will you go answer it baby,” Taina asked giving him her puppy dog
eyes.
“Of course darling,” he said getting up to put his boxers and wife
beater and walked out to answer the door. “Um yes may I help you?”
seeing two men stand before him.
“Um is Taina here?” the shorter man asked.
“Who’s at the door baby?” Taina asked walking out in her red silk
bathrobe wrapping her arms around Josh and began kissing his back
softly.
“You tell me,” Josh said as Taina peaked over Josh’s should to see AJ
and Nick in the doorway.
“AJ, Nick what are you guys doing here?” Taina asked as her grip around
Joshes hand began to tighten.
“I need to talk to you Taina after I kick this guy’s ass,” AJ said
lunging for Josh.
“Dam it AJ leave Josh alone,” Taina yelling wondering if things could
get any worse.
“Well tell me what the hell you wanted to say and get the hell out of
my apartment,” Taina yelled at AJ after Nick had managed to pull him
off Josh.
“Taina please don’t say that. I… I love you and I need you. My days are
nothing without being able to see your smile,” AJ said as he began to
cry softly. “Please tell me that you still feel the same.”
“AJ there was a time that I loved you until I met someone new. Someone
who will be able to be here for me no matter what. Someone who I know
loves me back. Someone who would never hurt me. Someone who had help me
get over you,” Taina said as she began to cry herself. “I am sorry but
I can’t be with you AJ. I left my life in Florida so I could try to be
happy somewhere else and I found that and more. I am not just
going to give it up like that.”
“You can’t be serious. Did you not just hear me. I love you Taina. I
can’t live with out you,” AJ continued dropping to his knees.
“AJ I am sorry, I don’t want to put you through what I went through.,
but I cant be with you because I don’t feel the same about you anymore.
And trust me I know what it feels like to love someone and not have him
feel the same way about me. Or so I thought.” Taina explained. “I know
I probably should of said something, but you had just gotten with Tara
and I didn’t want to mess things up between you two.”
“I only started to date Tara because well because I thought you were
too good for me and that you would just laugh in my face.”
“Didn’t you ever wonder why I never had a boyfriend. Because I waiting
hoping you would look at me instead of through me. I even tired
changing my personality and appearance so you would notice me as more
than a friend.” Taina confessed as the tears began to stream down her
face even more.
“Taina you still love him,” Josh said softly. “I can see it in your
eyes.”
“Yes I do a little but I have begun to move on,” Taina answered.
“Come On J, I just brought you here so you could tell her how you feel.
I think its best if we leave now,” Nick said calmly looking to see the
same pain she saw in Taina’s eyes merely months before.
“It was foolish of me for not telling you how I felt sooner and it was
foolish of me for hurting you and I am going to suffer until you find
you way back to me. I will be the one to wait for you this time.” AJ
stated standing up to leave, as Nick followed.
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