Chapter 1
Hey this is AJ. I can’t believe they actually got me to do this. That fatass (Pearlman) is making each of us keep a “journal”. He won’t tell us why. I guess were supposed to write our personal thoughts in here. It’s supposed to be confidential. I don’t care if anybody reads this. It’s not like I’m gonna put anything in here that I wont tell the others. This is so gay! I’m gonna leave. I guess I’ll go online or somethin. Peace AJ
I can’t believe this! Chris and Jenny get to go away for Spring Break with their friends and I get stuck at home. I'm gonna be all alone on my bday. At least I have Pat. I cant believe I'm gonna be 18 in 2 months. I wonder what Pat’s gonna do for my bday. It’s almost our 3-year anniversary. I guess you could say we’ve been through pretty much everything together. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like without him. What if we had never met? If he left me I don’t know what I would do. I don’t think I would be me anymore. Sure I’d still be Rachel but I wouldn’t be the Rachel everyone knows. I’ve really changed over the past few years. I try not to think about how life without Pat would be like. Just the thought of it is scary. Well I gotta go now. I'm gonna check my email. Bye luv Rachel
Well I guess I'm supposed to write again. I decided to go in a BSB chat yesterday. I wanted to say what people were sayin about us. I didn’t tell anyone who I was. I just said I was a guy that lived in Florida. I met this girl and she seemed pretty nice. She’s almost 18. She thinks I'm 19 and my names Mike and I live in Florida. Her names Rachel and she lives in New York. I think she’s a fan. I wonder what woulda happened if told her who I really was. She portly wouldn’t believe me. I've heard there’s alotta posers out there. Oh. Brian’s goin to McDonalds so I guess I’ll go too. Peace AJ
I met this really sweet guy named Mike on the internet. On TRL they announced a contest. One winner and 2 friends get to fly to Orlando and spend a whole week with BSB. I'm gonna send in like a billion entry forms. If I win I'm gonna bring Danielle and Shannon and if one of them wins they’re gonna bring me. It would be so fun to go. Plus it would get me outta here during Spring Break. I wonder what it would be like if I went. I’d get to spend my bday with them. That would be sooo cool. Oh. Shannon’s here. Jenny thinks it's funny that she just shows up on the doorstep and invites me somewhere. OK OK I better go before Shannon gets pissed. Bye luv Rachel
Well I found out why we need to write in our “journals.” We get to spend our vacation with 3 “lucky fans”! There’s a contest and 1 winner and 2 friends are gonna be flown down here to spend a whole week with us. Just what I need. 3 overly obsessed 12-year-old teenyboppers coming to ruin my vacation. I really appreciate all the fans but I was looking forward to having some time to myself. Well anyways I guess the “journals” are supposed to help us see how the fans change our lives and affect us. Kevin claims they tried to ask me if I liked the idea. He said I was drunk at the time. That’s horseshit. I haven’t been drunk in a long time. I'm gonna go. It’s 3 o’clock in the fuckin morning and I need sleep. Peace AJ
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