Chapter 8
Last night after I stopped writing AJ came in. He asked what was wrong and I started to tell him but I started crying again. So he took me outside. I felt like such a retard walking down the street in pajama pants and a T-shirt. I told him everything. About how excited I was when I first found out Pat liked me and how it used to be and how we said we’d always be together and now it was over and I feel like there’s something inside of me that’s missing. AJ was so sweet and understanding. It was almost like he was a different person. He reminded me of Mike from the Internet. Anyway after I told AJ everything he just kinda sat there for a minute and I cried. He held me and it felt so good. He kept telling me Pat was an ass for dumping me. Then he told me I was pretty and he couldn’t understand why Pat dumped me. I was a little surprised by that. There was a silence and then he kissed me. I kissed him back. I don’t know why I did. I'm not sure if it meant anything or not. I'm so confused. Neither of us said anything on the way home. I better go now. I think Danielle’s awake. Bye luv Rachel
Why did I kiss her? I'm such a retard. When I went in her room last night she looked upset so I asked her what was wrong and she started crying so I took her outside. She told me everything. I couldn’t believe she opened up to me. Then she sat there and cried and I held her and told her it would be ok and she was pretty and all this other stuff and I kissed her. I shouldn’t have. On the way home she was silent. I don’t think she wanted me to kiss her. How could I have been so stupid? I hope she’ll talk to me. I'm going now. Peace AJ
Today we went to Disney. It was soooo fun. When we went on Tower of Terror I got to sit next to Nick =) and he said I almost made him deaf cuz I was screaming so loud. I was hoping to see Mike. He told me he works at Disney. I checked all the nametags and there wasn’t a Mike. Then someone came up to Kevin and told him he looked like one of the Backstreet Boys. We all tried really hard not to laugh till she left. Danielle and Shannon kept telling me I like AJ and I'm in denial. Even though I hate to admit I think they’re right. What if I do like him? Does that mean the kiss meant something? I don’t wanna like him. The last time I liked someone I fell in love with him. And now he hurt me. Love sux. Bye luv Rachel
The One Index*
Chapter 7*
Epilogue
Email Rachel
