Sulking, he rolled to his side. His head had started to ache again, even tough he had downed about four pills. He had even called room service for some crackers and some tea, thinking that some food into the system might make him feel better.
Wrong.
As soon as he had tasted the crackers he felt like puking again. Yet he had forced it down, remembering his mother's words when he was little. Food is the cure for everything. What a bunch of crap. Food was no cure for loneliness.
Nick's thoughts were taken away when he heard there was someone at the door. Finally.
Sulking, he turned the other direction so that he was facing the wall. He was going to make them feel really gulity for leaving him when he was feeling this bad.
There was a short knock on the door. A voice outside mumbled something about that he was probably asleep. It was Kevin. Not Brian. Nick felt an hint of disappointment. Had his best friend left him completly since Leighanne came into the picture?
The door opened and Kevin and AJ walked inside. Nick pretended that he didnīt seen them and closed his eyes.
" I think he is alseep," Kevin was whispering as he made his way over to Nick. Touching the blonde's forehead Nick had a hard time not jerking away. He didnīt want anyone caring for him.
"He is hot as ever," AJ nodded. "Think it's high?" he referred to Nick's temperature.
Nick wanted to shout, 'Why do you care?', yet he was quiet. Didnīt want to act like a baby. He had enough of those fits when he was younger.
"Letīs see" Kevin picked up the thermometer on the bedstand, putting it under Nick's arm. This had Nick's temper tested.
He jerked. "What are you doing?" Nick turned around, red in his face from both anger and fever he glared at them through glazed eyes. Everything felt so strangly fuzzy and he had a hard time keeping his eyes open.
"Oh Nicky, did I wake you?" Kevin sounded remorseful. "Why do you care? You left me!" Nick spat out. His temper was in full flare. He was going to let Kevin and AJ know that if you care for someone you just donīt dump them like they are garbage.
"Nick we.." AJ started, but Nick cut him off.
"How can you leave me when I am sick? Donīt you care about me at all?"
Kevin looked down in the floor. Nick was right.. They had really acted bad. No one had paid enough attention to their youngest band member, even if he was sick as a dog. They had thought that Nick could cope with it. He always did and no one had a second thought that he felt all alone.
"Am I too fat and ugly for you to care?" Nick was working up his temper. He was so mad that he was shaking. Tears were glistering in his eyes and he was in no mood for comforting.
"Nick, come on," AJ tried to get Nick to calm down with thouching his arm, yet it was no use.
"Get off me or I call security," Nick was acting all delerious. Kevin tried to reason with him, telling him that he was too sick to know what he was talking about.
"So now you are saying that I am insane too!!! Is that what you want? To put me in a mental ward? After all I am a drug addict," Nick sat up in bed and he spat out the words. Kevin and AJ backed away. "Wouldnīt it just be a great way to put Crazy Nick away? For good!!"
They had never seen Nick being so upset!
"LEAVE!!!" he shouted and thew his pillow against the door.
"Okay man, we are living. Calm down," AJ wanted out of this room. He wasnīt used with dealing with emotions like this. It was generally Brian or Howie's table.
Kevin on the other hand felt really bad. Nick was so sick, yet he didnīt want to let anyone near him. What had the doctor said? That he suspected that Nick might get even worse. That it wasnīt the culprit?
Nick was sweating up tons and his eyes had an wild fevered glaze that Kevin didnīt like one bit. AJ dragged him in his arm. " ome on, letīs leave," AJ gestured towards the door. Kevin nodded.
"Okay Nick, we are out of your hair. But if you need us just call."
"GET OUT!!!!!!" Nick was starting to stand so that he could push out his "brothers" through the door.
Kevin held up his hand then he said , "Okay" and off he went.
As soon as AJ and Kevin had left the room, Nick burst into tears, from exhaustion, sickness and loneliness. He didnīt really want them to go, didnīt they understand that? He had every right to be disappointed. And they had left him. Again..
He lay down, crawling into a ball. He cried so much that the pillow was all soaked from his tears, His fans should see him. What a misery. Everything was starting going down hill and years of bottled up feelings were starting to seep out.
He cried for a long time. Cried for his miserable life, for the guys not wantng him, for his faltering health as well for his downhill relationship with everybody.
Nick Carter was one miserable man.
"Oh Honey I am so exhausted," Leighanne sank down on the bed.
"Me too," Brian grinned and kissed his wife. "Love this was the best day we had in a long time," Leighanne giggled.
"I wanna have you." Brian ran up his hand under her blouse, touching the bra. Leighanne moaned.
They kissed passionatly when they were interrupted by the phone.
"Leave it," Brian mumbled in Leighanne's ear as she was reaching for the phone.
"Bri, it can be something important."
"Nothing is more important than you," Brian put the reciver off, not wanting to be disturbed. Leighanne started to interject but was silenced down by Brian giving her another kiss.
"I wanna make love to you," Brian mumbled, "you're my everything." He started to unbutton her blouse, still not taking away his hand from her soft breasts.
Then there was a knock on the door.
Brian felt irritated, didnīt who ever was out there understand that he was busy?
"Honey, you better open the door." Leighanne mumbled in his ear. Brian shook his head. "No you are more important than whoever is out there."
"Brian, it can be Nick."
"Then screw him, it is you I wanna have," Brian murmured, not thinking about what he really said. Leighanne smiled when she felt his hand travelling down her stomach.
Another loud knock.
"We're busy," Brian shouted back. He wanted Leighanne so much that he had trouble controlling himself. It ached in every part of his body and all he wanted to do was to make love to her, long into the hours.
"BRIAN!" Kevin called from the hallway.
Brian sighed, what did his cousin want now? He went off the bed, buttoning up his shirt a bit he opened the door. Kevin looked really upset.
"What is it?" Brian ran a hand through his hair.
"Itīs Nick." Kevin was red in his face and he talked fast. Very unsual for being Kevin.
"Nick, what about him?" Brian knew instantly that something had happend.
"He is very sick!"
Brian frowned. Leighanne had come to join her husband. "What is it Honey?"
"Nick is sick," Kevin started to tell them what had happend earlier and Brians heart started to beat even faster. He had to get to his friend, fast.
Something was very wrong!