What Hanson Means To Me
My idols, the ones who inspire me to go on
My hope in this world when it seems too hard
A sweet smile on my face when I start to feel down
Those I admire and keep in my heart
That's what Hanson means to me.
A breath of fresh air on a bad day
Happiness in excess that they want to share
A reason to get up after crying myself to sleep
Something to live for when there's nothing else
That's what Hanson means to me.
Music ringing in my ears
Laughs rising above the sobs
A place in my heart that they will always hold
A love that will last forever
Yes, that's what Hanson means to me.
~*~
To Those Who Inspired Me
You make my day seem brighter,
Help me to be a fighter,
Encourage me to follow my dreams,
Teach me how to use my wings,
Give me a hand when it seems too hard,
Carry me there when I think it's too far,
You will never know what I see,
But thank you to those who inspired me.
~*~
Too Close
Sitting alone in a room
With no one around,
Fire is burning between them.
There are silent glances,
Secret desires unfulfilled,
Chances they won't take.
Ten seconds left,
Will they take the fall?
No, the words remain unsaid once again.
She stands to leave
And he gives her a hug
And everything they want is conveyed without a word.
As she drives away,
As he watches her go,
Both are thinking the same thing...next time.
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Goodbyes
I know he's going to be there
Or I wouldn't bother going.
My feelings about him must be resolved
Before I am able to move on.
I walk in and see him standing,
Waiting for me and hoping with all his heart,
Hoping I'll be there and also
Hoping I won't show.
There are sparks when he grabs my hand
And tears fill my eyes.
We belong with each other
But we know better than anyone
It can't work; it's over.
We are no longer together.
Two seperate people with seperate lives.
I will no longer see his eyes in my mirror.
Arm in arm, we walk away,
Holding on for a final moment.
We hug tightly and share our sorrow,
Say our final goodbyes and break apart.
~*~ For You
You could never understand
This pain, this Hell you've put me through.
The tears, the drugs, the knife,
Sinking deeper and deeper into this abyss in my soul.
You know me better than anyone
Could ever imagine knowing me, better than I know myself.
You see that part
Inside of me that I can hide from everyone but you,
And it kills me
Just to be with you, to touch you, to kiss you,
And realize that
Between us, there are no secrets or hidden skeletons.
If only I could
Change you or myself or what we are to each other,
But we are doomed to remain
Way more than friends but not quite in love.
You were the one
Who held me tight through good, bad, and unreal,
But you can't
Be there with me all the time, not anymore.
I understand
That she is more important but remember one thing.
For you
I have been to Hell and back.
~*~
I Was Meant To Be Your Woman
We were all that I imagined we could be,
We were so happy together, just him and me.
But he wouldn't tell and I couldn't wait,
And our parting was inevitable, just like our fate.
Now I sit alone, watching him with her.
And I can't even blame him for making me hurt.
We did what we did because it's what we had to do,
And we did what we did even as our love grew.
Sometimes our eyes lock and I manage to forget
That he's not mine anymore and our futures are set.
Moments like that are too precious to waste,
But the truth and the facts have to be faced.
If you're listening right now, you know what's on my mind.
You know why I have to leave you and this place behind.
I hope you understand me, honey, better than I can,
I was meant to be your woman, but you'll never be my man.
~*~
Two Young People
In Memory Of John Anderson and Chris Gibbs
Two young people, two sad deaths.
So unexpected and unpredicted.
One minute so full of life
And the next buried deep in the ground.
The pain is so great,
The grieving so long.
One only fifeteen,
The other twenty-two.
Everyone cries, feels scared and alone,
Why here and now, two at a time,
This town is alive with tears and hurt.
With shaking hands we go on with our lives.
They never had a chance,
To start their lives,
To grow old and wise before they died,
So, so young.
And to think of all the people
That they left behind,
And all the others
They will never know.
I know that all here
Will remember their names
And none of us
Will ever be the same.
~*~
