Okay, these are my poems. Some new, some old. Some are songs, some are thoughts. Right here at the start, there are a few that I wrote for certian people in particular. They are some of my favorites too. You can also kind of see some transitions in my life by reading these poems. I can go from comic to tragic from one poem to the next but I have some streaks of different emotions.
I have my stupid streaks, but who doesn't? I also have my morbid steaks. My humor streaks. Whatever. Here they are so enjoy.
Oh yeah, the way to tell if they are separate poems is by the one return space between each poem.
Loving You Really Aches
Inside my heart
I feel the pain
When I see you
Tears fall like rain
It makes me cry
To think that I
Cannot speak
To you and I sigh
I try to talk
But I cannot
Make any sense
With you
I try so hard
I really do
Just to say
That I love you
It is too hard
I know this true
The pain inside
Is all for you
I do not know
Quite what to say
When I see you
On any day
You make me feel
Like I'm a child
I have known you
Since I was wild
Long ago I even said
That I'd be with you
Before I was dead
I don't know how
To say what's true
But what it is
Is I Love You
This is true
I really do
I honestly
Do love you
Crying A River Reality Is Empty
She is just
That kind of girl
That I know of
To shock the world
She can sit down
To talk to me
At any time
I'd hear every sound
I listen to
What she has to say
It means a lot
On certain days
I know that she
Will someday be
A very famous woman
I hope that even then
She still will think of me
I know that I will not forget
What she has done for me
Her last name is a jewel
Her first name
Will go unsaid
I never will forget her
And this is what I've said
I'll even remember
Her middle name
She never has caused me
Any great pain
She is my pal
And she is my friend
And I would stick with her
Until the end
I know that she
Will forever be
A friend of mine
And my pal, you see
She is with me
And will always be
My Old News Again
I've told her before
That she wasn't a bore
And to me
Could never be
I asked her once
But she declined
Feelings for her
Deep were mine
I talk to her
Like she's my best friend
I could talk to her until the end
I know that she
Could someday be
Anything she wants to be
I try to tell her
She's part of my life
And that loving her
Causes great strife
Inside myself
I feel the pain
I sit outside
And cry like rain
I sit and watch
Her all I can
Just to see
How to be her man
I look at her
And try again
My feelings
Take over and then
I tell something
That is not true
Because I can't say
"I love you"
I've only known her
For a year
But I still wish
That she was here
Crying Out Remember Every Yell
He has been my friend
And will be till the end
I have known him long
Enough to write a song
About the way that we
Would laugh and play, you see
I talk to him all the time
He is a friend of mine
He, to me, is like a brother
And his mom is like my mother
We've known each other very long
And at times, we both were wrong
I treat him like he's family
And at times give sympathy
Because know each one so well
We both remember every yell
And when we fought
It was not hard
And I know now
That he'll go far
When he's away
I often say
That I wish
He was back home
Over here
Where he'd be near
So we could go
Out and roam
It's fun to be
Around him, you see
Because he is my friend
And hopefully
He'll always be
A friend
Until
The
End
Life Examples Invariably Fail
He has been my friend
For many years
We both saw laughter
And both cried tears
I see him almost every day
At school and
I've seen him at the play
He had to be there
For us because
He did the lighting
Painting and was
The manager of
Our only crew
And this I need
To say to you
Because of him
We had those lights
Him and I
We've had few fights
Few to mention
But they were there
I remember
And I care
I really hope
That he will be
A friend of mine
For eternity
May he always have
The strength to be
The one he is
Trust and friendship
Will come from me
Forever more
His honesty
Will prevail
And he will be
A friend of mine
And friend to thee
He will, I know, you wait and see
And People Realize I've Loved
She is a friend
A friend of mine
Until the end
I'm hers, she's mine
I love her
I know I do
I say this is
And know it's true
To talk with her
Is so divine
I'm very glad
For this friend of mine
I trust in her
All that I know
I cannot tell her
For I'm too slow
To show my feelings
For anyone
When I'm with her
I have such fun
I truthfully
Do love her
How can I say it
My thoughts are a blur
Very often
I tell myself
Either say it or
Leave it on a shelf
To gather dust
To grow and grow
Until I cannot
Bear for her to go
But I must
Let her away
Until we meet
Again someday
Why can't I tell her
How I truly feel
This I do not know...
Can Omnipresent Love Break Youth
She is everywhere
Within my mind
Where is she now
There, in my head
Whatever I do
She won't go away
I must talk to her
If I don't
It will cause me
Hardship and pain
I need to tell her that
I love her
But how can I
It seems so hard to
Tell anyone that
But that I must
For I am obsessed
I have to talk to her
Sometime soon
I've met with her
Twice
I want to meet
With her again
Possibly we could
Become more
Than friends
But I have to talk to
Her first before that
Can happen
Where is she now
She is there
In my mind
I see her face
I hear her voice
I am afraid
Of what might happen
But I have to find
Her and tell her
That I love her
Jaded Entropy Necessitates Nebulous Affection
Long have I loved her
This vision in my mind
Long will I love her
And someday she will find
Herself in need
Of a friend
And I will be there for her
If she ever needs to talk to me
I will be there for her
An old friend she is
That I wouldn't abandon
For she is still a friend
I've got two shoulders to cry on
Should she need them at all
I will be there
If she needs but to talk
I will sit there and listen
If she needs just to listen
Then I will speak
I try to make her laugh
All that I can
Some days though
I truthfully can't
Though we may soon part
And each go separate ways
I hope we stay in touch
Until our dying days
Though I know I annoy her
I will miss her much
And I just hope
She'll miss me as much
I cannot say
What that'd mean to my heart
In my life that is ending
This is just a start
Believe in each other
Is all we can do
Believe in herself
Is what she must do
Suddenly Undertaking Zealous Activities Numb Near Entropies
I don't know how to help her
And I know I've tried
Though there were times
When to her I lied
I didn't feel good
And I never will
For making her take
Gullibility's pill
A friend from the past
Is what she needs
In a time of distress
She thinks of her deeds
Of the things she had done
And she felt in that halt
That the problem was hers
That it was all her fault
But it could never be
For she did nothing wrong
In the car they call life
She's just riding along
Many care for her and
I'll let her know
The people all love her
They all love her so
Because they are friends
And will never part
And through all the suffering
They won't fall apart
They will stick by her side
And they won't let her stray
They will give her their love
Until their dying day
And if they should fail
They can only hope
That she will make it
And that she can cope
With all of the hardship
After they're nil
Because though they are gone they will all love her still
All Might Accept Non-Definite Answers
As I sat by the wall and waited
I wondered who would be there
I wondered how they would look
And would they be looking at me
I saw from a distance, a face
Surrounded by fiery hair
With eyes so clear and happy
Happy to just be here
She walked towards us
And then turned away
To talk to someone else
Later, I met her
She was in my group
She talked with us
Got to know us
And we got to know her
She had an air of happiness
There within her soul
I could see that she was tired though
From a life on the road
Traveling around all over the globe
And living wherever she could
We talked for a while and I learned
That she was currently staying somewhere
That I was familiar with
I was even going there that night
And so we said goodbye
And went our separate ways
Then that night I saw her again
There in my friend's abode
We all got together
And goofed off for a while
And then the next day
We both went away
And will I ever see her again
That much I don't know
But if I do
It will be a happy day indeed
For I consider her one of my friends
Let It Swiftly Appear
I talk to her
She is my friend
I look at her
But I see more
Could she be more
Than a friend to me
Could love exist
Between us
If so
Then how long could it last
Could it last forever
Or would it be a swift
And painful departure
I would not enjoy that
To happen
To us
For she is my friend
And hopefully will
Always be a friend of mine
If love were to happen
Would it destroy
That friendship
Would it make my life
Seem cold and lonely
If she disappeared
Or would it continue
To radiate a glow
Of friendship
But can a friendship
Exist between two
People in love
Can anything
But that love exist there
I have the hope that a friendship
Can be stronger than love
And that even if the love disappears
The friendship can still
Exist between
Me and her
Now And Then A Slight Hassle Arises
I talk with you
And I feel good
Because with you
I think I could
Be in love
I think I am
But I'm all alone
And I'm just one man
I think of the past
Of the people gone by
I think of the future
And I hope love won't die
There's not many things
That I would not do
To help out a friend
Especially you
I know from the past
That I move rather slow
And that information
You need to know
Because you have
Experience
At least
More than I
But I'd like to think
That not only birds fly
That love can soar too
High above all the clouds
That all my love now
Won't burn the flame out
I'm only eighteen
There is so much to learn
And I'm way too old fashioned
To be "taking a turn"
I don't move too fast
But I hope you will see
That being with you
Means a lot
To me
Just Understand Love Ends Abysmal Heartache
Explain to me
Just what I see
In the eyes of the one
Before me
Is it love
Or is it trust
Or something I
Know nothing of
Could it be
She looks at me
And wonders
All the same
What I think
Of when I blink
And envision something
In thought's black ink
What does she see
When she's looking at me
Does she see a friend
Or what she'd like me to be
How can I know
My thoughts race on so
I sit and I wait
And wonder some more
I think of her now
And I ask myself how
Could the things that I see
Be allowed
I know not what's right
But I will search all the night
To find out the truth
And to shed on it some light
Now I stop rhyme
And I ask of myself
What is it she sees
When she looks at me and
What do I see when I look at her
I cannot be sure
But I intend to find out
________is a lovely name
And it is her I have to blame
For stealing my heart
Straight out of my chest
I know that she
Is by far the best
In my life
What can I say?
Often times
I'm known to stray
But with her
This won't happen
Because with her
It's love I'm in
I try to speak
But I cannot
Because my voice
Works with her not
It could be that
I'm kind of shy
But I am just
That sort of guy
I see a girl
In this big world
Who I would like
There by my side
And even though
I've tried and tried
I think of her
And I just cry
I'm no ashamed
To say it's true
And what I say
I say to you
To_______
This is for you
All I need to say
Is I love you
I dream
Therefore
I am a king
Or a creature
Of great strength
I dream
Therefore
I am with you
With a family
In a great big house
I dream
Therefore
I live alone
Along the paths
Of this big world
I dream
Therefore
I think I am
Not just thought
But also a bit of hope
I dream
My life is hard
I live alone
With no one
Here for me
I'd love for you
To come to me
So we
Could always be
Together now
We'd have such fun
You come
And wait
You'll see
My life is not
Quite over yet
But someday soon
It will be
I sit alone
Inside my home
And sleep forevermore
I sit with you
I feel brand new
No longer just a bore
And again
I sit within
My home
I'm all alone
For you have gone
You've traveled on
To right what once was wrong
I am the one who lives all alone
I am the one who has no home
I am the one who has a nice wife
I am the one who has a nice life
I am the one who lives in a house
I am the one that eats like a mouse
I am the one with big meals everyday
I am the one who's got nothing to say
I am the blind
I am the sights
I am the deaf
I am the noise
I am the filthy
I am the clean
I am the dead
I think you know what I mean
For I am the people
upon this great earth
And I am the ones who never got to be born
I can, said I
I will, said too
I'll try, I said
Just to love you
I believe a fairy tale
Is somewhat in the right
For almost every fairy tale
Tells a lesson of odd might
Whether it be a physical thing
Or something that cannot be seen
A fairy tale is often wrong
Especially when it is long
A fairy tale should just be short
And tell the truth without contort
I can only ask what is to become of me
When I am dead and gone you see
Will I grow old or become bold
Or will I never see
I ask again where will I go
And how will I get there
I know not what the future holds
Or how or when or where
I only know that life will end
For you and them over there
But it will also end for me
Yet life will travel on
Because my friend life is to be
An everlasting bond
From Beyond The Grave
My life is done
I've just begun
An eternal trip
And to construe
I'll be with you
When you are also dead
I'm sorry that
I died that day
When I was so alone
Because I know I love you dear
And wish that you were here
Create what was destroyed
Destroy what was created
Build up what has fallen down
Tear down what was built
A never ending circle
In this life that we know
That is what all this is
And we do not have the power to stop it
Living alone
I often dream
About a life
And what could be
I think of times
And people past
As I sit alone
Out on the grass
I look to the sky
To see what is there
A cloud, a bird,
I have not a care
I see some rain clouds
I smell the rain
And with the rain comes
The extreme pain
When I think about
What has gone by
As I sit alone
Beneath the sky
I do not know quite what I said
To make you mad and wish me dead
All I know is I love you
And will always to you be true
I'm sorry if I caused you pain
If I did something out of vain
I love you dear and that is true
I'll try to make it up to you
Memories are of what has been
Memories are of little sins
Think about the little ones
That were hurt by what you've done
Back from there
Where I had a scare
I come to you
Looking for a clue
I ask you not
What you have got
But rather
What you sought
Thinking of
Undying love
Becomes of me
What I can't see
I do believe
What I can see
But it's not here
And will never be
Understand
That I'm a man
Who doesn't know the way
To get back home
Or where to roam
Or what to do today
I know you're a girl
That lives in this world
To co-exist with everyone else
But you see
It is not me
That forces you to be
My life is an eternal bond
What I tell you is not all wrong
But some of it may be. I'm just one man, you see
And one man all alone
Can't always find the way home
This Is Just To Say
I have spent
The money
That was on
The table
And which
You were probably
Saving
For a rainy day
Forgive me
It was so much
So much
And yet, so little
This Is Just To Say
I have stolen
The heart
Of a young
Girl
And who
You were probably
Protecting
From harm
Forgive me
She was so innocent
So beautiful
And so sweet
I may say that nothing matters
But this just isn't true
Because, my dear, what really matters
To me, is loving you
Time may take you away
From me but in the end
I will always love you dear
Because you are my friend
Poetry can often say
What normal thoughts cannot
Poetry can also say
What was also never thought
Throughout life
Many lessons are learned
Like if you get too close to fire
You will probably get burned
Or if you fall in love
The pain may run so deep
That no matter what you do
You never get to sleep
Or when a good friend dies
Or simply goes away
You might not recognize them
Passing on the street one day
You know something will happen
But you don't know when or where
But it is guaranteed that it
Will give you quite a scare
Competition
Something that
Will never go away
As long as we
Can sit around
To think of things
To play
Rocks and trees
Birds and bees
What do they
Mean to me
I don't know
But I could go
Up a mountain
Into the snow
What do I find
When my mind unwinds
I find myself
In a personal well
A well so deep
It's well beneath the street
And hidden too
But I wait for you
I try to find
A little time
To help you see
What you mean to me
Because I can
I know I will
Because I try
To continue still
Because I am
And will always be
Because of you
I can be me
Smashing pumpkins
On the ground
Trick-or-treaters
All around
Little goblins
Come out to play
With the humans
On this day
Toilet paper
On the house
A little kid
Dressed as a mouse
So many things
That can be seen
Because today
Is Halloween
Often times
I sit and stare
And wonder just
What is out there
I think that there
Could be a girl
Out there in
This great big world
Maybe she's the one for me
When I find her
Then I'll see
Love hurts
I'm sure
That someone knows
It really hurts
When loves must go
Love pains
They are
Only sometimes goo
The bad pain
I wish would not
But it does
That is a fact
Love hurts
With pains
You can't take back
I cry when I a lonely
I cry when I am sad
I cry when I have feelings
Like the ones I had
It makes me cry
I know it's true
I cry sometimes
When I think of you
I believe that someday I
Will be happy
And will not cry
Time
Continues
On
Without
Us
No
Matter
How
We
Try
To
Stop
It
From
Destroying
Us.
Believe in yourself
Because many a time
Will come when others
Will not believe in you and
You will have to
I love
Therefore I am hated
I hate
Therefore I am loved
I cry
Therefore I care
I care
Therefore I am thought weak
I try
Therefore I succeed
What is
Is
What isn't
Isn't
Make
The
Most
Of
What
You
Have
Because
Someday
It
May
Be
All
You
Have
Can you hide, when the rain comes out?
Do you sit alone, in silence from the black?
Do you run home, to your house of stone?
Do you run to your room at the top of the stairs?
Does it hurt you, that the rain is not merciful?
Or that it does not mind, the things you don't have?
Where do you go, when the rain is finally gone?
Do you run, from something you can't hide?
Or do you sit there, alone within the black?
We all hide
From it
But it is
Always there
No matter
What we do
It will always
Be there
We can wait
For it but
We choose not to
Wait
It is undeterminable
It is death
I wonder what
Will happen now
I do not know
How to deal with it
That's okay though
I know what to do
Eventually it will
Come for me
Be quiet
My friend
This is not
Your end
You will survive
Before you die
You will live
And so will I
When I am bored
What can I do
I sit alone
And think of you
When I get tired
And go to bed
Thoughts of you
Are in my head
When I awake
I know it's clear
I only wish
That you were here
Because I try
To talk to you
But that's too hard
For me to do
Someday I will
I know it's true
Someday my love
I'll be with you
I cry sometimes
I know it's true
I cry sometimes
When I think of you
And what will happen
Eventually
Of what will happen
To you or me
Quiet now
My little one
You day was long
You had such fun
It is okay
To sleep my friend
This long hard day
Is now at end
Believe yourself
Is what you should do
Believe yourself
What you say could be true
But do not trust
The things you do
For sometimes those
Aren't good for you
Believe in me
The people say
Believing them
Is hard today
Every day
I'm sitting here
That is because
I have this fear
That my end
Is coming near
What to say
I do not know
What to do
Or where to go
For I am lost
Within my mind
I travel on
Hoping to find
That simple thing
I've waited for
Is just outside
my little door
But I won't leave
Oh no not me
I cannot go
Away from thee
Crying now
I look away
You will not see
Me cry today
For I'm too proud
To let you know
I have a heart
I cannot show
I wish I could
And I really should
But I'm too proud
To do it
The power of
A single man
Lies only in
His own two hands
Try to be
And you will see
It is so hard
To live like me
Me thinks thou doth create a mess
Upon the ground and on the flesh
What this means I cannot say
I only lost myself today
Awaken now, my bonnie one
It's a new day, here comes the sun
It rises there, in the East
To tame the mighty strong foe beast
Awaken now, so we can leave
The beast, it comes, for us cleave
We must go now to get away
From the foe beast, on this day
I exist in the minds of children
I am there when they sleep
I live there, beneath the beds
And I am the voices in their heads
There, in night, hear me roar
But then, at light, I'm heard no more
For I exist only when
I'm thought of in the minds of them
I am one with all around
Even though I make no sound
I live inside of everyone
And what I do, creates such fun
I love to play the day away
Imagination, I am what I say
Be everything that you can be
Is what they say in the army
But I say you will not be more
After you have been at war
I know now that I am gone
To where no one has been
A place in life
A little spot, where
I am caught within
Time brings love
Into the heart
Where none have ever been
To touch a place
So deep in me
Takes only but
Your smile
Love will pass
As does time
But my love grows only stronger
Passage of life
Would not end it
That which I feel for you
A stem, the life of a rose
A petal, a life, a heart of love
Many petals together create
The true heart of it's life
The budding of a rose
The start of a new life
With a loving and caring heart
A heart capable of unconditional love
The love that should be felt
Between all people and
All creatures upon the earth
Time is a passage, a never ending road.
Time creates a barrier, as we all become old.
Time is sometimes harsh, and yet it is soft.
Time is never ending, like this journey that we're on.
In time we see the changes, in everyday life.
In time all we have is hope that we don't die.
But death is inevitable, and will always be there.
Because time is everlasting, and doesn't like to share.
They say that curiosity
Was that that killed the cat.
But I say creativity
Was the thing that did that.
It is a place
A place of darkness
A place of light
There, exists feelings
There exists stone
Existing within
In this place hidden well
Many hide from it
But it is always there
The human heart
Pumps out and in
Not always blood
But feelings too
It is best to listen
To what your heart
Has to tell you
It may be painful
But in the end
It will be for the better
I'd like to believe that someday we will live
In a world without hate, willing to forgive
But my dreams are so big and the world is so small
As time travels on
I am sure to fall
Believe in yourself
Is all I can say
To a person who lives alone in dismay
Creation
Destruction
What was
Now isn't
What could
Have been
Now is
Impossible
Morning dew
Upon the ground
Fear only that
It makes no sound
For silence is a deadly thing
I'd rather hear it laugh and sing
Love is a strange emotion
It can make you laugh or cry
It can hurt, and it can sting
Love is a strange emotion
Do not cry, my little friend
This story has not come to end
Instead, it has only begun
You wait, you'll see
You'll have such fun
Goodbye is not
As it conveys
A happy thing at all
Instead goodbye
Is never good
Because it is said when you die
Often times
I see myself
Alone, against the wind
I try my best
To regain my footing
A slip, a fall, an end
But when I'm down
Upon the ground
I look towards the top
Of the mountain I'm climbing
And I never stop
"Just try,"
They said,
"To live your life,
And you will always be,
A person who is living life,
Just trying to be free.
But,"
They said,
"Don't follow me,
Or examples I have made.
Because,"
They said,
"That's what makes me,
Only here to wait."
I
Live
In
A
World
Where
No
One
Man
Can
Control
My
Fate.
No
One
But
Me.
It is dark.
Dark all around.
I hear things,
But I do not see them.
Darkness is all that I can see.
It envelopes me forever
In this world without sight.
Time rolls by us
Ever so quickly
We do not realize
That our time here is short
If we could only become
Something more than we are
Then we would have no worries
And we would have no cares
Let us help one another when
We are in need of help
We have no need to destroy
It is just in our nature
We have no need for hate
But we all create it
It is just in our minds
Believe
Believe in Them
Believe in Us
Believe what is Right
Believe what is Not
Believe in Creation
Believe in Evolution
Believe in Light
Believe in Darkness
Believe in Realism
Believe in Surrealism
Believe in All
Believe in Nothing
Believe
Take control
Of what you know
If you don't
It takes a toll
Mother
A person like no other
She brought us up
And she taught us
To love one another
A mother is so much more
Than you or I can know
A mother's love is always strong
To her we owe our lives
She is the one
Who brought up two sons
From birth to now
We've loved her
Though there were times
We had a fight
She always knew
How to set things right
We are grateful for her love
And will forever be
In debt to her for what she's done
And what she did for you and me
I realize that you and I
Don't always appreciate it
But we often did
And it is
Just love that we feel for her
I remember when
We fought like hens
And she would straighten us out
Now and then
I wish for that time again
And mother to send us to bed
I know that when she's reading this
She thinks back to the times of bliss
When we were young
We all had fun
And all because of
MOM
We love her now and always will
Then, now, and forever still
There once was a man on a plane,
Who was, quite frankly, insane.
To the steward he said,
"I wish I were dead!"
'Cause he thought there were flames on the plane.
Time passes us by
And never looks back
It travels on
Speed, it won't lack
Time rattles on
And gives us no slack
The pain goes away
But the hurt's on your back
Time makes us see
That it is only we
Not ready for a mental attack
It breaks down our souls
And will not give them back
Pain is an irreversible emotion.
It cannot be destroyed.
It will exist until the end of time.
It will exist into the world of the unknown.
Into the world of the great beyond.
Sometimes we
Understand not what we see
But we understand
Things in a dream
What we don't understand, we choose to hate.
What we love, we hurt.
What we do understand, we choose to ignore.
What we create, we destroy.
What we believe in, we loose faith in.
What we keep well hidden, we loose.
You're the one I want
By my side
You're the one I need
Eternally
You're the one I want
The one I need
You're the one I love
The one for me
I dream of a life
That lasts forever
And I think of the times
We spent together
As time goes by
The older we grow
And I know I'm right
In telling you so
Life;
Magical, Mysterious,
Full of Hardships, Pain, Sorrow and Defeat.
Full of Anger, Happiness, Fighting, and Friendships.
Becoming a Statistic, or becoming a Star,
No one can say just how or when,
No one knows even if at all.
Making a Stand, or taking a Fall,
Can try your Feelings, can test your Skill.
While only a Memory to some,
It is to others, a Wound.
To others still, an Empty Void.
Full of Silence, full of Sound,
Full of Blackness, full of Sights.
Only too late, is it discovered,
That it is too short to enjoy.
Yet it continues on, Renewing, Destroying,
Completing a circle.
Passing by without you,
Then coming to an Abrupt and Sudden halt.
Smile
for it can save a life
Smiles and laughter
Get rid of strife
They rid the mind
Of sorrow and pain
They also sometimes
Are made in vain
But that's okay
Smiling doesn't hurt
And laughter is but simple mirth
I cry sometimes
When I'm alone
All by myself
Inside my home
Because I think
Of those years past
Of what I've lost
And those dreams smashed
I know I've lost
Something of good
I can't go back
I wish I could
But that's okay
Is what I say
I can only live
In the now, today
It is too hard
To be too sure
What will be
In the future
It's also too hard
to look on back
The past is gone
I lost the knack
In daylight
You see me fall
Upon the ground
And on the wall
I follow you
Forevermore
I do not stop
I don't get bored
I am a shape
I shrink and grow
I am with you
I'm your shadow
Rocks are hard
And feathers
Soft
Why this is
I know
Not
I know it's true
This I say to you
But why it is
I know not this
I love you
I've tried to say
Many times
Before today
I tried so hard
To tell you so
I could not
But now you know
Love is such a crazy thing
I makes you cry and makes you sing
It makes you laugh
Just to think that
You cannot control it
And that is that
I am
And will always be
The solitary person
That I can call me
No matter what happens
No matter how long
I will be me
And I will be strong
Not always in muscle
But sometimes in will
My mind and my body
Grow stronger still
I may not live forevermore
But I will exist in future lore
I will have a name
They'll remember me
All the way down
To my middle name, Lee
They will not forget
what I have done
I'll be in the books
Read by my grandsons
I will be seen
On the walls everywhere
And people will stop
To quietly stare
At my face as I them
And I know I will
Because in me
Is an iron will
I
am
me
and
will
always
be
I only wish
I was fish
To swim beneath the sea
Under there
My only care
Would be for only me
I'd not have
A love like that
One for you I feel
The love I feel for you
Is often hard to construe
I may be somewhat not
Enough to give a thought
But I hardly think that I
Could be not by your side
It seems strange
I know it's true
But I only have eyes for you
The closing of the year
Is coming awfully near
I realize that you
Are feeling down and blue
But do not fret my dear
At the closing of the year
Because, you see, it's true
Next year will be brand new
The pen
Mightier than the sword?
No not always
For on a sword
There is a blade
That can cut deep
Or cause a gashing wound
But then again
Written with a pen
Are words that can do the same
I have seen defeat and glory.
I have seen the deathly story.
I have seen the cunning fox,
Get destroyed for auburn locks.
I have seen the White and Black,
Fighting just to save a back.
I have seen the Trail of Tears.
I have heard their cries and fears.
I have been there when they died.
And when they fought to stay alive.
I know what has happened to,
The people here, that I once knew.
They are gone, forever lost.
But for me, they paid the cost.
I have seen the fleeting deer,
Hit by a car, turned to a smear.
I am witness to every birth,
Out in Nature, upon the earth.
I have seen the rises and falls,
Of the blockades and the walls.
I have seen the ultimate defeat,
Of those who tried to make ends meet.
The Civil War, I sat and watched.
The blood ran deep, I hurt a lot.
Revolution, Paul Revere,
Even then, I was here.
I could have been in Mexico,
After they lost the Alamo.
But I was saved,
By those who loved me,
From defeat,
They grew to help me.
I have been here longer than,
Any creature, or any man.
I am the earth, below the place,
That they call United States.
I live alone
In this big world
Searching for
A special girl
To come to me
And be my friend
And stay with me
Until the end
A Poem Entitled Bleah
I am sorry for this poem. It was late and I was tired.
Bleah burr baa
Gore saga mu
Gee alga pled
MU you cue moo
Shoe blabber hey
Go saga shah
Me yahoo ado
Pi hue chin ma
This has no meaning
But if it does
I am sorry
For the fuzz
I makes no sense
To anyone
I'm sorry but
I thought it fun
Ma plaza RI
Chew amok oh
Chi hula me
Be terbium glow
Thank you for
Your listening
Excuse me now
I have to sing
Good night
Sleep tight
Don't let the
Bogeyman
Tear your feet off
You must try
Sometimes to cry
Because you
Know that it's true
The truth is often painful
Be truthful to yourself
And you will always be
Someone who I'll try to trust
As much as I trust me
Sitting here
All alone
I sit here
Inside my home
I am lost
Could I be found?
I hear the silence
I feel the sound
How much luck
Could one man have
Is it something
He can grab?
Will I find
My piece of mind
Or will I get caught
In an eternal bind
Every day
I sit right here
Inside myself
I have a fear
I wonder what
Will be of me
When I must leave
I'm scared, you see
I'll be okay though
I'll just go slow
I try so hard
To let you know
That it is me
That loves you so
I try in vain
I really do
And I feel pain
When I think of you
Look at me
Can you really see
Who I am?
I'm just one man
One man alone
Knows how to roam
But he needs some company
It is true
That I love you
And would love to be with you
Making up
All of this stuff
I wonder why
We try to fly
I do not know
If it will snow
But I know this
I'd like to kiss
The one I love
And that is you
I say this
And mean it, too
A Short Poem Entitled What
What?
I didn't hear
You
What
Did you
Say?
Today was a day
Like no other day
And it is important
That this I say
For during today
While I was away
I heard that you lost
Your own precious way
I dream
I dream for a reason
But I don't know quite why
I dream every season
Of trying to fly
I know I can't quite reach the stars
But my mind gets me there when I'm bored
I have a purpose
In the grand scheme of things
What it is
Is quite beyond me
I know I am here
To help someone out
Who that person is
I've got little doubt
The person to help
I can only see
In a mirror because
That person is me
You can make me laugh
You can make me cry
But no matter what you do
Please do not lie
I believe what you say
As the absolute truth
And I know that seems hard
Even strange to construe
A charm is a thing
That works its magic
From the end of a string
It may work good
Or it may not at all
Believing in charms
May cause a fall
But do it anyway
I write because
It is such fun
I write because
I can become
Anything I want to be
Anything
Just wait and see
Love is harsh
And love is grand
Treat it like
An egg in your hand
Be careful not
To drop it down
Or crack its shell
Upon the ground
My life is hard
And that's no joke
But not as hard
As an ox on a yoke
I do not struggle every day
But some days I do
Here's what I've got to say
You have to keep
Your mind in thought
Escaping from it
You cannot
But you learn eventually
To control it
I hope you see
Think back to times
When life was grand
Back to the time
When you held mom's hand
Did she help you
Out in life
Or did she cause you
Some great strife
Was it dad
That helped you out
When you were down
Or out and about
Or did neither one
Help you my son
Did they push you away
And never say
That they loved you
Sometimes they do
Even when they are not there
I act
Therefore
I can become
Anything
I want to son
I know I act
Because it's fun
But also 'cause
It makes my heart run
Up there, out on center stage
Being quiet or in a rage
I act, I know
For some reason
I act
I know
In every season
I try to do
The best I can
In acting
I can be more than one man
In Drama
You can be a king
Or a boy named Charlie Brown
And sing
You can be most anything
If you are in drama
You could be a lonesome bum
In a station
Where subways run
You can be a robot or
You can be a wolf
You can be a doctor or
A king's horse and have hooves
You can sing
You can dance
You can run around and prance
You can learn things
You never thought
That you would learn
And you would be naught
To be or not
You ask yourself
Should acting be put on a shelf
No, I say most definitely not
Because it gives you what you haven't got
It gives you courage
It gives you strength
It makes you see
That you can be
Anything you want to be
I do not lie
When I say this
Acting is such grand old fun
And acting makes your
Small heart run
I love to act
I really do
And I think that
You'd enjoy it too
Mi amour
Mi amour
No one could love
You more
Mi amour
I love you
Mi amour
Time is Death and Death is Time.
Father Time is as old as Death;
Death is Father Time.
Bony hands and a sickle;
Father Time is Death.
He changes from white,
Into a dark cloak,
To steal the souls from us;
Death is Father Time.
Time is Death and Death is Time.
Death is as old as Time;
Father Time is Death.
The clock strikes midnight,
Death's time has come.
He knows what time because he is Time;
Death is Father Time.
Time is Death and Death is Time.
When will my time come?
Does Time come for you?
It will.
My love for you
It cannot stray
Away from you
On any day
I love you dear
I know it's true
My love
I know
Is all for you
Dancing 'round
I hear the sound
Of my heartbeat
And my two feet
I dance alone
When no one's there
And I feel the pain
That's in the air
Around me now
I hear the sound
Of my heartbeat
And my two feet
I lost myself
Some time ago
I lost myself
That's true
You know
Many people
Tell me how
To run my life
Here and now
I try not to listen
To what they say
But it seems like truth
On a dreary day
All alone
I hear the sound
Of silence
Living in the ground
Of pain
That is in the air
Of joy
And then I also hear
Myself
Alone
Again
My timing is off
I've lost the knack
To do anything
Why can't I go back?
I would love to go
Away from here
Inside myself
There is a fear
A fear about
The days to come
And will I find
That special one?
I ask the stars
Time and again
Who can it be?
Is it a friend?
Possibly a stranger
Out there somewhere
Waiting for me
When will I go there?
If ever I walk
With the shadows alone
I ask of them
When will I find home?
If and when I do
Will she be there for me?
I am afraid and
I often worry
I ask around
Just who could it be
But no one will give
An answer to me
Please oh please tell me
I just want to know
Do you know who it is?
Do I want to know?
I'm dying inside
As I wonder who
Is there for me
And could it be you?
The fires burn
Upon the hill
And outside
Storms rage on still
Another day
To fill the vice
Another day
In paradise
I sit alone
Inside myself
Stare at the wall
And its only shelf
There's nothing there
But an empty space
As empty as
This sullen place
Another day
Living like mice
Another day
In paradise
Love
What is it
Love
I cannot say
Love
How does it work
Love
I don't know today
Love
I am alone
Love
I am lost
Love
In my mind
Love
For you
Love
This time
I am
Alone
Within
My home
I can't hear
My thoughts
For I am lost
Within myself
I am and will be
Forevermore alone
I am alone
Quietly
I talk to you
I try to say
What I need to
But it is hard
To say a thing
To one who makes
Me want to sing
I am tired
And it is late
It really has
Been a long day
I will recover
But in a while
I only need
To see your smile
To make me feel
Happy inside
Just give a smile
And truly I'd
Fell better
All the while
I know that
For certain
For always
And forever
Outside
I hear the rain
And inside
I go insane
As thoughts of you
Dance in my head
Swirling around
Are thoughts I dread
Of you and me
Forever lost
But for you
I'd pay the cost
I'd give my life
To save your own
In my mind
I'm still alone
I dread the day
You go away
From me
Forevermore
Because for you
And this is true
There is little
I would not do
Why do these thoughts torment me so?
What did I do to deserve such a thing?
Where have all the people gone?
How will I survive?
Who am I?
I am lost.
I am lost.
I AM LOST.
Destruction.
Pain and suffering.
Outrage and defiance.
Love and hate and violence.
Lust and greed and temptation.
Lost. I am lost. I am lost. Lost.
My thoughts are blurred
As I think about the day
I am starting to hate
The human race
They are getting to be stupid
They are getting to be cumbersome to be around
I want to destroy some of them
Why do they cause the problems they do?
I only wish I knew the reasons
Fight them
That is what I must do
Either that or live with it
Why can I not control my own life?
That is all that I want to know.
What is it that controls it for me?
How can I stop it from destroying me or others?
How do I get my life back together?
What can I do? What can I do? What can I do?
Someone please tell me what to do.
Help me. Help me. Help me find myself.
I cannot do it alone.
Help.
Stand back.
Get away.
Run and hide.
Flee.
GO AWAY.
Now.
Please.
Stay.
Don't go.
Remain here.
Help me.
Please.
Please.
Please.
I need your help.
Save me.
For I am losing myself.
Why?
I do not know.
Tell me.
That can't be.
Because it can't.
No.
I won't believe it.
Stop.
Just stop.
No more.
Go away.
Leave me alone.
Why won't you go away?
Please leave me alone.
I can't take it anymore.
Stop it now.
Suicide Hot line
You don't seem to understand.
I have to tell you.
There is no other way.
Believe me.
Please
I don't know how else to say it.
I really don't.
It must be said.
No.
I have to.
I do.
You aren't going to change my mind.
Not this time.
There's been too much suffering already.
No one but me and you.
What do you think?
It is too late to change my mind.
It is already over.
It is already over.
No.
I can't do it.
Goodbye...
Phone Call
Hi.
Me again.
How are you?
Fine, thanks.
Just wanted to talk.
Oh I don't know, stuff.
How has your day been?
That's good.
Mine? Well, I haven't left the house all day.
I don't know. Waste of gas, I guess.
I wanted to ask you something.
Well, would you go out with me?
I see.
Well, thanks for considering it.
No, I'm fine.
Yes I'm sure.
Drop it, okay?
Thank you.
That's okay, I can take it.
This won't affect our friendship, will it?
Good.
I care too much for you to let it split us apart.
Yeah, talk to you tomorrow.
Bye...
(Click)
I love you.
Damn!
Now look what you did, you idiot!
If she never speaks to me again, I'll kill myself.
Well, probably not, but I'll feel like I did.
Why can't I just tell her how I really feel?
I have to tell her.
I simply just have to.
But how?
How can I possibly do it?
You are so stupid sometimes.
What were you thinking?
Now she'll never talk to you again.
Damn all of this stupidity!
If ever you need to talk
I will listen
If ever you need to listen
I will talk
If you ever need to be held
I will hold you
If you ever need the strength of human touch
I will touch you
If you ever feel lonely and need someone
I will be there
If ever you need anything at all
I will try to help you get it
If you ever want to be told that you are beautiful
You can count on me to do so
If you ever need to hear "I love you"
Just look to me
If you are ever down and need to be cheered up
I will be around
If the world causes you pain
I will do my best to relieve that pain
If ever you need someone to help you out
Find out where I am
I will bend my morals
And test my limits
If I can do anything for you
If ever you need a shoulder to cry on
I have two that you can use
If you ever need to be embraced
I will be glad to embrace you
There is next to nothing
I would not do
To help you out
Even if it meant that I might die
If ever you need to hear "I love you"
I am here
If ever you need to hear "I love you"
Find me and I'll say it
If ever you need me for anything at all
I will be around
And will do my best to help
Crying now
As I sit here
I wonder back
About a year
Things were nice
And we had fun
But now there's little
That can be undone
Things have happened
Between then and now
And we got lost
But don't know how
Only a year
And so much has changed
I wish I could go back
And have my year rearranged
But I can't
And I know it
But I'd like to
All the same
If I could go back
To make some
Tiny little change
Certain times
We say things
That we do not
Always mean
They may be harsh
They may be kind
But they're always there
Inside our minds
We can't control them
Even though we try
Slowly but surely
Thoughts make us die
They drag us down
And hurt us so
We often wish
For them to go
Sickness is a reoccurring thing
It hurts sometimes
Other times it's not so bad
Sometimes though
It keeps you bed-ridden
That sucks
Pneumonia sucks too
It makes you hack up your lungs
And that does not feel too great
The flu hurts your nose and your head
So does a cold
They both suck
Some sicknesses
Are not physical
They are mental
Like insanity
Or depression
Or perversion
Or love
Yeah, love is a sickness
It hurts your heart
Like some kind of cancer
Rips at you
Tears you down
Hurts a whole hell-of-a-lot
Oh well
Some hurts are good
Some are bad
Love has both kinds
And both kinds show their
Ugly heads when you least expect it
But that is the way the ball bounces
The cookie crumbles
The apple falls
The rooster crows
I think you get it
It is one of those things
That just kind of happens
I guess
Love happens
I sit alone
I sit alone
I think of times
I've been at home
I look around
My little room
Inside my head
The thoughts do zoom
I wonder what
Is happening
All around me
I feel nothing
It's quiet now
Out in the street
I long to hear
Some patting feet
Inside my house
What was that sound
A little mouse
Across the ground
I'd like to hear
The sounds of you
Coming near
I'd talk to you
Why aren't you here
Where have you gone
I need you here
My mind has gone
And with it went
My heart as well
I'm living in
My personal Hell
Help me out
I need you now
Please get me out
I'm falling down
I am alone
I am alone
I need your help
I'm all alone
I love her
I know I do
And I think
She loves me too
How will I know
This I can't tell
Maybe she'll say
Just go to Hell
I hope that she doesn't
'Cause that would suck
Life is like a wall of stone
To climb it you sometimes need help
Other times you can do it yourself
If given the proper tools and equipment
If given faulty equipment
You will think you can do it
But you will find that
It hurts a lot when you slip from the top
All the way down the wall
Guide me through
This little place
I am alone
And I've lost face
I'm tired and
I need some help
I'd like to go
But I need help
Before I can go
I need to leave
The past behind me
The future is real
I need to get
Away from here
Alone I drive
Alone I steer
Alone I walk
Alone I cry
But I have yet to discover why
To be lost is to not know where to go
I know then that I am lost
In a different way though
I am lost in love
I have many possible directions
That I could go
But I do not know which one to take
Therefore I am lost in love
I could go for her
Or her
Or her
Or any of them
My God, do I love everyone
If so, how can I choose
Which way to go
I know I am lost
Perhaps I should seek help
In my decisions
But who to ask for help
I could ask anyone
I am more lost now than before
I will have to find my way alone
But am I alone
I wonder if there
Is someone else with my problem
Are they lost as well
Can I help them
Can we help each other
How can we help
Will we know how when the time comes
I am lost
I need help
Which way do I go
How do I go that way
What will be the result
Will it be for better
Or for worse
I need help
I am
Lost
A Beloved Place of Mine
Lush stream embankment
With its whispering willows
Twittering birds
And sun beams falling
All around me
It smells of the sweet
Fresh air of the out-of-doors
Budding flowers
And the crisp
Clean odor of life
It makes me bring out
A souvenir of the past
A rainbow from my childhood
Pouring forth brilliant color
In a once desolate
Space of earth
Freedom
A pure word
Better to have
Than to loose
Yes
It's beautiful
The wild side is
A place where
Anything can happen
There you will
Find me
Wandering around
In my own little dream
In this place of
Trouble and hardship
But also of
Love and friendship
Of passion and desire
A place to have fun
A place to be yourself
Take a walk there
Inside your own
Mind
You just might
Find
That which you search for
There
Within your mind
You can be what you want to be
You have no limits
You have no boundaries
Nothing can hold you back
Nothing can keep you from
What you most desire in the world
Nothing but your own imagination
That is all that will hold you back
Even your conscience has no say there
Absolutely nothing can stop you
From getting what you want
Listen closely to your heart
It has a lot to say
If you listen close enough
You may find
That it can lead the way
She can look into your eyes
And you will melt
One look can kill
There is nothing you can do
To resist though you must
Resist her
There is no way out
Like a spider's web
Her eyes draw you in
Like the black widow
She is poison
Look away
Run and hide
You have to get away
But you know you can't
He comes for you
When your time is up
Look for him
But do not fear him
Look him in the face
Stand up to him
Do not go without a fight
Stand tall and face him
Look into his eyes
As he strikes you down
Defy his wrath
Do not fear him
Look at his face
Take my hand
And don't fear him
Do not fear the reaper
Though he comes for you
Do not fear him
Defy him
Make him remember you
Make him feel small
Look into the face of death
And laugh at his cruel face
Do not fear the one
Who comes for your soul
Just tell him
You are not afraid
Do not fear the reaper
Do not fear the reaper
Do not fear him
Defy him
Don't fear the reaper
Don't fear the reaper
He has come for you
But do not go quietly
Do not go down without a fight
Fight him
But do not fear him
Fight him
But do not fear the reaper
Things go wrong
Nearly every day
Everyone seems
To get in your way
Nothing goes right
It's always the same
It is not yourself
That you have to blame
At least
Not always
It is okay to cry
When things go wrong
Don't run and hide
It shouldn't last too long
The pain will away
And you'll feel better too
Sometimes in a day
Sometimes in a few
I'm tired now
I'd like to sleep
But I cannot
For there are things to do
Many things that cloud my mind
In all these things
I cannot find
What I search for and long for
But I know it's there
Inside my mind
Inside
I am there
I'm quiet now
As I drift away
Into a slumber
I float away
I drift on and on
I don't know how long
When I awake
It all will return
Grandma
She is the one that raised
Us all
Or at least she has helped
She is the one
That we all trust
She is the one that we all love
She's been there for us
And we are here for her
Whatever she wants
We will try to get for her
We love her with our hearts
And we love her with our hands
We don't always tell her
But we hope that
She knows
That we love her
Dearly
We truly do
She is our grandma
She is like our mom
We appreciate her
And always have
As we do now
And will for always
Never will we try
To stray
From the ways she
Has taught us
Nor will we go
Against her
With the intent
Of harming her in
Any way
We never will
Because
We
Love
Her
Too much
Often times I think of her
I sit alone and I see her
I talk to her
And she answers me
With words I long to hear
From her true self
Her real voice and not
My imagination
A tear rolls down my face
Why can't I talk to her like
I can talk to an image of her
I can tell her picture how much
I love her but I can't say a word
Directly to her face about it
Some one give me the strength
To tell her I love her
Somebody help me to speak
I sit alone and I see her there
In front of me
But here she's not
Where is she now
Inside my mind
A dream a vision
I love her
As I've told her picture
A thousand times
A picture worth a thousand
Words but I only see three
All that I see is
I love you
But the picture cannot say
Anything to me
I hear it speak
But it is just in my mind
Her voice echoes
There within
Within
Within
Within
There it echoes
Old Friends
Where will I turn when they go away
When they disappear I will be alone
Where will I go
What will I do
How can I continue
My existence will weaken
As we go separate ways
How will I go on
In a world without friendship
I cry sometimes
When I think of them
And how we will part
Though eventually we will
All be together again
It will be hard for us all
To just walk away from
Friends we've had for so long
What can we possibly do
To avoid this pain
Absolutely nothing
Because it is inevitable
That we will part
Possibly forever
Someday we may pass
On the street
And not know each other's
Faces at all
So we should be happy
While we are together
Someday it will
End and we will be sad
Until then we can only
Hope that we will be happy
In our small lives
All we have is hope
And hope is what we need
To live forever in happiness
Hope and love and happiness
Are the things that make life livable
Parody of "O Captain My Captain!"
O Teacher! my Teacher! our little class is fun,
But lack of sleep has withered us, and we want to go home,
The time is near, the bell we hear, the children all are yelling,
While on and on assignments come, we try so hard we're crying;
But O work! work! work!
O the hardened whip falls down,
And we slave on, we really do,
Just to possibly please you.
O Teacher! my Teacher! be nice and let us go;
Be nice--for you we slave away--for you we lose our sleep,
For you our pain and suffering--for you the students slave on,
For you they call, the swaying mass, their tired faces turning;
Here Teacher! my Teacher!
The pen that's in your hand!
It is some dream that on this day
You'll let us all away.
My Teacher does not answer, for she does not want to,
My Teacher does not feel my pain, has she no heart at all,
The class is quiet sitting here, its time is almost up now,
And we will wait for minutes long and sleep will slowly grow,
Please make them ring, accursed bells!
For I with mournful tread,
Walk the aisle within my class,
That seems so tired and dead.
I wander around
Not knowing what is where
I look to the sky
But there is nothing there
I try to explain
My thoughts all a blur
Not knowing what's what
Or even who's who
I'm lost in a dream
And I'm lost in myself
The time is all gone
I'm an empty shelf
And I'm all alone
In Response To Paul Hewitt's Question
Well my friend,
These books ore
Not dealing with real
Life you say?
Macbeth shows what evil can do,
Huck Finn showed us bravery,
If Willie Loman wants find happiness,
He has to have hope.
You may never hunt for a white whale,
But you can experience it through
Moby Dick
and Captain Ahab.
Even though you never fought in
The Civil War, you may fight in
War sometime
The stock market could crash
At any time, bringing about
Another depression.
Books about real life is what you want?
You mentioned a few yourself.
I don't know
Just where the wind will blow
I don't know
But wherever it goes I will follow
I'm just a drifter
Floatin' in the wind
Don't know where I'm headed
Can't remember where I've been I've been in towns
Both big and small
I've been there and
I've seen and done it all
Ten miles
Uphill
Barefoot in the snow
Travelin'
Wanderin'
To where
I don't know
The Road Of Life
We dance so softly, with our feet off the ground
And we talk for hours, without making a sound
I kiss your lips, but they are not your own
And we whisper softly, then go out on our own
We sit in our rooms, but we are never home
While we stay together, we are always alone
We're both locked up, but will always be free
Always together, but not you and not me
Traveling on, but not going somewhere
We're never home, but we never are there
We come and go, but never travel on
Don't know how to sing, but we're always in song
We forget how to dance, as we sway to the beat
We need but one chance, to get back on our feet
I'm just a drifter, floatin' in the wind
I don't know where I'm headed, can't remember where I've been
While we are asleep, we wander the paths
Of an existence, that will quickly pass
We keep wandering, following the wind
Gotta be something for us, just up around that bend
Always in a dream but we're always awake
We don't know where to go, or quite what to take
We're just traveling down the road of life
I live in a world
Where I walk all alone
Every day
I look for a home
I try just to find
A small piece of mind
In this world that I walk
There is little to talk
About so I'll roam
'Til I find my own home
And when I am grown
I will be all alone
'Cause I lost something there
Now I just sit and stare
At the bleak and desolate wall
My Dad
He is a man
That I look to
When things are going
Rough
He can solve
Almost anything
Because he knows
His stuff
Often times
I look to him
To help me to create
The things that I desire most
He knows just how to make
All this time
But there's not so much
Together
With him
Not so much time to tell
Him how things are
Or how they could
Possibly be
On this earth
I've yet to be so
Much as he is now
A wise and caring
Person
But it's true he has
An iron hand
With which to set down rules
I don't always say
That I appreciate
The things he does for me
But I do
I'll tell you true
A human
A man
A father
My friend
My dad
Dreaming of
A little place
Thinking of
Your lovely face
I wander back
Through my mind
Hoping that
I will somehow find
The words I need
To say to you
The words I need
To tell you true
I look so hard
But nothing's there
I try so hard
It isn't fair
It makes me cry
To think of you
And what eventually
We must do
We'll travel on
We'll make a path
I just hope
We don't catch the wrath
Of the mighty ones
Who watch us here
Because they are
The ones we fear
They also are
The ones we hold dear
To our heart
When can we start
To leave this place
This desolate space
This place called home
We need to roam
But it is too late
Because
We are
Alone
I am alone
I face the tears
I am lost
I feed my fears
I look around
But no one is there
And so I sit
And solemnly stare
Into the darkness
That only I see
Into the darkness
Felt only by me
Into the darkness
Hoping to find
That iridescent light
That is piece of mind
I try and I fail
And so try again
I fail now again
And again and again
I fall down this hill
And go into a spin
For I'm lost in myself
And it must be a sin
I'm here for some reason
What it is I know not
All I know is that
I've got what I've got
That's all I want
And that's all I need
All in this world
To truly succeed
My life and my health
Not so much of the last
Looking on backward
And into the past
All alone am I now
All alone I have been
All alone will I be
All alone all again
A thought from the past
As I sit on the grass
The question in mind
Is not hard to find
In my life there is this
Energy that just is
Just a thought in my mind
That is too hard to define
A dream of a thing
That some day will be
I dream of this thing
And I dream happily
Slowly I try
To only get by
I use what is here
Things of warmth and of cheer
Also things of despair
That were also put there
Some things by my own hand
Others by some other man
Or even a girl
Living in the same world
As I sit all alone
And I think of my home
I lost it somewhere
And it's so hard to bear
It is my own thought
That makes me happy or not
But why doesn't it do
The things I want it to
I think way on back
To a time of great slack
In the rope of my life
The noose they call strife
A time when I cried
And a time when I lied
I think of this time
And it is all benign
And now it has come to the last
As I sit alone upon the grass
In spite of the world
I sit all alone
I sit there
Because
I enjoy to be
Alone
Sometimes
But some other times
I need someone else
Some one other person
Some being to talk with
She would have to be smart
And have a pleasing voice
She would have to be willing
To sometimes just sit
And talk
Or listen in my company
Maybe she would not
Have to be beautiful
But she could not be
Hideous either
For if she were
I would have to get used to her
I would like someone
Who I could get used to quickly
Someone who would get used to me
Quickly
That may be all that
I desire
In this world
A person
To talk
To me
Or if
I should
Need it
A person
To listen
To my
Voice
She clouds my dreams
And memories
Like a ghost
Upon the wind
I look at her
And tears well up
Inside my eyes
And then
A tear rolls down
My tired face
And falls upon
The ground
I listen for her
Beauteous voice
But silence is
All around
Where can she be
I'd like to know
Because for her
I'd die
To give her
All her heart desires
I'd go as far as
To lie
I'd do almost
Anything
To make my love
Known to her
And that my love
Could never be
For anybody
Other
Because
I love her
More than
I could possibly
Love any other
Single
Entity upon
This earth
In the darkness
It waits
In the light
It waits
Ever present
It is
What is it
You ask
No one knows
You can not
Hide from
It because
It knows
Where
You
Are
And it
Is coming
To get
You
Annoyance
In this world
It is around
Every turn
Every corner
Hides a new
Annoyance
For your mind
In your mind
In the minds of others
The minds of children
The minds of adults
The minds of men
The minds of women
Annoyance
Is all around
All around
And it waits
For you to find it
In time
I will find
My life
Will unwind
All the things
That I do
Make my time
Spent on you
And I know
That with time
You will understand why
All the things that I do
Are all done for you
I think about
The time gone by
I sit alone
And I just cry
I look around
I'm all alone
I trust myself
I trust no one
What is here
I try to see
Just what will
Become of me
I do not know
How time will pass
But I am determined
To get off my ass
To go out in the world
To get a life
Possibly even
To find a wife
A man
Walks
All alone
Through
His mind
Ignorant
What does it mean
Uneducated
Is how it would seem
But just unaware
Or just uninformed
Also fit in
To give power to the storm
The ignorant fools
That gather around
They all make a joke
Of themselves and
Their town
They poke fun at "Jews"
They make fun of "Spicks"
They laugh at the "Japs"
And they laugh at the "Hicks"
They make racial slurs
They call people names
They do it so often
It drives me insane
But what can I do
To stop all the fights
To fight right back
Would that set things right
No it would not
I know this is true
When I look 'round a room
Filled with people like you
You've all heard jokes
About "Niggers" and "Crackers" and "Jocks" and "Hicks"
But did you ever look
At the person telling the joke
Are they really prejudiced
Or do they think it's funny
To make fun of other people
Even to their faces
Ignorance causes hurt
And it can even cause death
When will people learn that nothing is trivial, not even stupid jokes?
Waves rolling in
Bringing in sin
To meet with the shore
A young man no more
He just walks the streets
Doesn't talk when he meets
This man
With a gun in his hand
Took the life
Away from a wife
And three kids
When he shot and he split
From the scene of the crime
Just a body they'll find
On the beach
He walks all alone
Traveling on
Looking for someone's home
To get into
And steal a pair of shoes
And maybe some clothes
If the door's closed
He will just break in
He knows not his sin
'Cause he's all alone
Without his own home
And all he does is roam
Mass murderer
Can he be stopped
Mass murderer
Like the hands on a clock
Mass murderer
He continues to kill
Mass murderer
Killing gives him a thrill
I gets him high
He lives his life
Underground
Never knowin'
What's up or down
When things go wrong
Where does he go
Under the sand
But he doesn't know
It's all wrong
What he understands
You can't escape the world
Buried under the sands
Little sand crab
Unbury your mind
Things'll get better
Just give 'em some time
We walked the shoreline
Day after day
Didn't know where we were going
And there was nothing left to say
Still we walked that shoreline
Deep into the night
Hoping that forever
Things would go right
And we walked on forever
Hand in hand
We walked on forever
Leaving footprints in the sand
We slept on the sands
And played in each wave
We had our love
Our lives it would save
Our timing was off
But we were not alone
We knew eventually
We would find a home
THOUGHT Love.
What is it?
I'm not sure.
Is it an emotion?
Yes.
Does it have boundaries?
No.
Can it be stopped?
No.
Can it be won?
Yes and no.
Is it material?
Not for me.
Is it physical?
Partially.
Is it mental?
I think so.
Can it be explained?
Definitely not.
Does it have a voice?
It could.
Can you touch love?
Possibly.
Can you taste love?
Maybe.
Can you hold love in your arms?
Of course.
Can you smell love?
Some people can.
Can you see love?
Sometimes.
So what is love?
It is an emotion without boundaries that cannot be stopped but can sometimes be won,
can sometimes be material, can be physical, mental, unexplainable, and can sometimes
be heard, felt, tasted, held, seen, and overall can be experienced.
But what is love really like?
Does anyone truly know love?
Do you know love?
Listen to the sounds
I make
Are they human
Or are they merely
Figments of the
Mind
Do they have meaning
To some alien race
Am I cussing out sombody's mom
If I speak gibberish
Do others understand
If I mumble
And a dentist knows what I say
Is that because he
Is a dentist and has to listen
To people with things in their
Mouths all day
Or is it because he is a good listener
If I write a poem
That only I care about
Is it worth writing in the first place
Or maybe I only think it is just me that cares
About this poem
Maybe it contains some vast knowledge that
I cannot comprehend
If I punctuate some sentences but not others, then am I making a
Statement that poems need not be punctuated or, am I , merely, wishy-washy"!?
{}Does lack of thought&timing make for a lost cause
And where am I @ when I am lost in myself?
I must know where I am because I know me
But do I really know myself or am I a figment of m own mind
If so, how do I actually exist>:"<()!*#&%^!#%$)!#%&%^@?
Am I part of someone else's dream and when they awake, I die
Or am I dreaming all that I see and nothing is reality.??
~`!@#$%^&()_+{}|":?><-=[]\;'./, could mean something in another
language. Or could it? I don't know.
Or do I and I am merely hiding it from myself.
Do I want to know what it means
Do I really want to know anything?
I look back
To my life
I look back
At all the strife
The pain was bad
The hurt, immense
I don't really wonder
Why now I am so tense
I have endured so much
Yet so little
A lot of my hurt
Was from others
I took their pains
Their suffering
And made them feel better
While I soaked up the bad emotions
The anger
The frustration
The pain
The sadness
And so much more
I held it all inside
And lately it is showing
I don't know what to do
Except continue on
Doing what I have always done
Being who I've always been
Living like I've always lived
To live a life in fear
Is a life half lived
I heard that in a movie
"Strictly Ballroom"
But it holds true to me
I am living a life in fear
Fear of tomorrow
Fear of defeat
Fear of triumph
And fear of the unknown
When will it all end
When will I be free
She cuts herself and bleeds
She's trying to escape
'Cause that's what she needs
She cuts herself and bleeds
Her body grows cold
It's not just a sleep
She would not trust their deeds
They lied to her
Broke down her sanity
They killed her with their greed
Though they'll never know
'Cause she didn't let it show
She got down on her knees
Crying to the sky
To end her grief
And now she's gone for all eternity
Why wouldn't they let her see
How much she really meant
To the world and to me
I cannot change the past
Though I wish I could
I know it's no good
I cannot take it back
Somewhere along the line
I lost the knack
If time is all we've got
Why won't time give in
And turn back the clock
There is nothing I can do
To bring her back again
To reverse this sin
And what can I do now
I look back and ask
I ask myself how
How could I let it be
Never asking her
What she needed from me
And so she cuts herself and bleeds
Never wanting more
Than eternity
(I Need) a New Battery and Starter For My Car
I need a new battery and starter in my car.
If I get 'em both then I'm gonna go far.
Farther than I have ever been,
Because my car will be working again.
Chorus: Maybe I could just get a new car.
Then I'd be able to go real far.
I wouldn't need a new battery,
I also wouldn't need,
A starter for my car.
(music)
Already have to climb in the window,
And there's dents in the sides from when it snowed.
A guy hit me, we slid and hit again.
He left the scene and that was the end.
Chorus: Maybe I could just get a new car.
Then I'd be able to go real far.
I wouldn't need a new battery,
I also wouldn't need,
A starter for my car.
(music)
Lapel pins are holding the roof on.
The blinkers only work when the hazards are on.
I really need a new car in my life,
Because this one just causes lots of strife.
Chorus: Maybe I could just get a new car.
Then I'd be able to go real far.
I wouldn't need a new battery,
I also wouldn't need,
A starter for my car.
(music)
Crying, I sit here
Wondering, why am I here
What is my purpose
What is my goal
What is my reason
What makes me whole
How do I stop
I do not know
Life is sometimes cruel.
Life is sometimes fun.
Life is somewhat crazy.
There's so much to be done.
It is so very timeless.
It is so very short.
It completes an endless circle.
But the truth is what I wrote.
Rain rain, go away.
Come again some other day.
Rain rain, just go away.
Leave only sun, for today.
Rain rain, go away.
Come again some lonesome day.
'Cause I am down,
When skies are gray.
So rain rain go away.
Come back when,
The tears fall down,
Upon his face and on the ground.
But even tears don't want to drown,
So rain don't stick around.
I think back,
To all the fun,
We had in the summer sun.
Life, to us, had just begun,
But then rain you had to come.
I dream of,
A summer breeze,
On the beach,
Out by the sea.
I will not beg,
I'll just say please,
Rain, I ask of thee.
Rain rain, go away.
Come again another day.
But for now,
Just go away.
Rain rain, go away.
So many times
In my life
I've met a few girls
I'd call my wife
But most of them
Are already taken
Every now and then
I get a chance again
To try my luck out
To give out a shout
To say that I love
That girl so
Much
More
Than
Any
One
Else
I wish I had more
Chances like that
Then I think I'd be
Happier
Happier with my life
Happier with my friends
Happier with every aspect
That comes into play
In the merry-go-round
Of life
In hardship
I would not fall
The suffering would be
Great indeed but
I would not fall
Not if I had the love
Of one that I can love back
One that I could cherish
More than any
Other
Being
On the planet
Woman
How does a
Person describe
A woman? Is a woman
Somebody who cooks and cleans?
No, I do that, and I am far from womanly
Is a woman someone who raises children?
Some do, yes. But men do that too.
Is a woman a sex toy? For some, I suppose.
Not for all though. Is a woman
An all-knowing creature of beauty?
I know a few who think they are.
So how does one describe a woman?
They come in all shapes and sizes
They all have different personalities
They all eat, sleep and breathe
But what makes them so different from men?
Anatomy, obviously. But what else?
There has to be something else.
Doesn't there?
Otherwise, they are equal to men.
Aren't they?
Yes, they are.
Then why aren't they treated as equals?
Is it because the majority
Of men have always treated
Women as sex objects?
Or is it because of some primeval
Instinct?
But in nature, things are reversed
Males are generally the "pretty" ones
And the smaller ones
The less dominant ones
Like in insects
And birds
But I guess if Darwin was right
Then it makes some sense
Apes are like that
But even wild animals are more
Humane than humans
When I think of you
What do I see
Inside my mind
Thoughts known only to me
I see us together
And I see us apart
Either way
I can't see the start
How it was ended
Or how it began
How we got lost
Or walked hand in hand
I think about
The times gone by
And I think of things
That gladly I
Would have said to you
To let you know
My love for you
I wish I could show
But it's too damn hard
To tell you so
What's in my mind
That I'd like you to know
It makes me cry
When I think of you
And how I've tried
To say what's true
Inside my heart
There's just one thing to say
That I'd try to love you
No matter how bad the day
Only that thought
Nothing more
Nothing less
Only that thought
Only love
That's my guess
Love for you
And I know it's true
Could A Real Love Exist? Yes.
I've known her so long
Yet I know so little
About her
I look in her eyes
And I don't know what I see
Mixed emotions
And thoughts
Racking my brain
Inside myself
I just can't tell
I don't know what I long for
Nor what she longs
For either
There is something there
But I know not what it is
Maybe she knows
But she isn't telling
Nothing wrong with that
Mystery is fun
But still I look
Into her eyes
And try to see
What she does
It's so hard though
To understand
Eyes tell so much
But can hide it
All the same
I look at her
And I am lost
In thought
But I don't know my own thoughts
Her eyes don't conceal
But I still don't know
What she is thinking
What I should say
What I should do
I just don't know
I just don't know
I'm lost in my dreams
At least that that's how it seems
I don't know what I'll say
If I see you today
I don't know what I'll do
Except dream about you
I think about your memory
And I know I love you
I believe it's time
To tell you the truth
The truth of it all
Is I've fallen for you
I look in your eyes
And what do I see
I see an angel
Looking back at me
What my mind can caress
My hands can barely touch
It is so hard to tell you
That I love you so much
But what can I do
Except sit and think of you
And how our love
Could ever be true
I believe it's time
To tell you the truth
The truth of it all
Is I've fallen for you
I look in your eyes
And what do I see
I see an angel
Looking back at me
Sometimes out of sight
But never out of mind
I'm searching for you everywhere
And I'm running out of time
I believe it's time
To tell you the truth
The truth of it all
Is I've fallen for you
I look in your eyes
And what do I see
I see an angel
Looking back at me
Yes I see an angel
Looking back
At me
I'm a high school gym teacher
I've got meal ticket taste
I'm a high school gym teacher
And I'll make your heart race
Hey dirtbag
Yes, I'm talkin' to you
I own you boy
Whatcha gonna do?
Hey there missy
Do you want an A?
Here's the key to my house
Where tonight you'll stay
I'm a high school gym teacher
There is no way out
I'm a high school gym teacher
I flaunt myself all about
I'm a high school gym teacher
I've got meal ticket taste
I'm a high school gym teacher
And I'll make your heart race
I don't care
What the children say
I'll just sleep
With her anyway
It dosen't matter
If her parents don't know
As long as I pretend
To love her so
I'm a high school gym teacher
I've got meal ticket taste
I'm a high school gym teacher
And I'll make your heart race
'Cause I'm a high
School
Gym teacher
Yeah I'm a
High
School
Gym teacher
I am a high school gym teacher
To Ascertain My Mind's Yearning
I met her years ago
When I was still a boy
I didn't really know
What love was
And could probably care less
I had feelings
But mine were different
I was so shy
And incoherent
I lost myself
Just recently
In her eyes
And now I see
She is beautiful
And I'm alone
Others want her
To be their own
How can I say
What I'm feeling now
Is it because it is spring
Or am I suddenly realizing
That I have met someone
Who I've cared about
For a long time
But never said anything
Directly to her
About it
Have I come upon the realization
That I need someone around
Someone like her
Someone that I can love
Someone that will
Hopefully
Love me back
How can I explain the
Feelings that
I have
How do I tell her
I care
95 Lines on the Fridge at Clea's House
Smeared love
Forest's bitter shadow
Essentially weak
Manipulate their
Luscious
Vision
The spring aches
Produces light
Crush those petals
Music is the flood
Heaving in your blood
Do but recall how cool a life
A goddess
To waxy drunks watch
Through mist
Enormous rock like winter
Moan
Picture
Pound
Lie
Death
Tiny sky like diamond love
Raw after sweat
Wanting my next elaborate
Fall
Playing
Singing
Friends of mine
For those shadow like roses
His moment hot and voiding
See in my mad garden
Wind some away with him
And never
Cook like a man
As water will spray
Swimming like iron
But fiddle not chocolate
Eggs
Stare up at the black moon
Dress some peachy girl
So as to rip skin
Rob beds to trudge behind
Dreamers
They said no but mean
Ask and rust
Cry
I am still beneath a lusty
Knife
Be me
Yet I am delirious
Smoothness
Incubate and smells
Gorgeous symphony
Breast
Chant
Repulsive boy
Juice not urging me
Take out a sweet beauteous
Gown
From our pink language
Together we think
Did you use time
Lazily wantful woman
Mostly puts hair with
True red feet
Soar and then tell a bare
Gift to let I by
Sad day of purple men
Sausage
What languid tounge was
Part of we
Pantless puppy
Power though bluest honey
Goes
Shine from them always
Under who must weed
I have felt as the road
Would
When will rain go
Hit and run
About
Above
You ask or say
Easy trip here in TV
Please she has screamed
There
He near gone
She is delicate
Only lives for a frantic
Whisper
Her sordid apparatus
A mother's ugly chain
Worship is sleeping on you
Shake leg over the
Lather none of the place
By her arm he could sit
I've forgotten so many times the answers I needed to speak to you
Lost my soul in indecision
Faced with anger
I now know the pain of loss
Fearing that I might get you back again
Fearing that I might lose you again
Fearing that this is all a fucking dream
Where now?
What now?
What can I do now?
I don't know where to go
I am lost again in a slient, black shroud of remorse
Feeling no more for the life I once had
And desiring it more than ever
It hurts so much now inside
And I can't hide anymore
This is my emotive cry
My blob on the white slate of creation
And I don't know if I can handle it
