1979 |
Thirty Three |
Bullet with Butterfly Wings |
tonite, tonite |
ZERO |
Hey Jupiter
no ones picking up the phone.
guess it's me and me
and this little masochist
she's ready to confess
all the things that I never thought
that she could feel and
Hey Jupiter
nothings been the same
so are you gay
are you blue
thought we both could use a friend
to run to
and I thought you'd see with me
you would'nt have to be something new
sometimes I breathe you in
and I know you know
and sometimes you take a swim
found your writting on my wall
if my hearts soaking wet
Boy your boots can leave a mess
Hey Jupiter
nothings been the same
so are you gay
are you blue
thought we both could use a friend
to run to
and I thought I wouldn't keep
with you hiding
thought I knew myself so well
all the dolls I had
took my leather off the shelf
your apocalypse was fab
for a girl who couldn't choose between
a shower or a bath
and I thought I wouldn't have to be
with you
a magazine
no one's picking up the phone
guess it's clear he's gone
and this little masochist
is lifting up her dress
guess I thought I could never feel
the things I feel
Hey Jupiter
Pale September
And all my armor falling down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to the warm, as I'm singing him to sleep
He goes along just as a water lily
Gentle on the surface of his thoughts his body floats
Unwieghed down by passion or intensity
Yet unaware of the depth upon which he coasts
And he finds a home in me
For what misfortune sows, he knows my touch will reap
And all my armor falling down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to the warm, as I'm singing him to sleep
And all my armor falling down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to the warm, as I'm singing him to sleep
Fake Plastic Trees
The Child is Gone
Honey help me out of this mess
I'm a stranger to myself
But don't reach for me, I'm too far away
I don't wanna talk 'cuz there's nothing left to say
So my
Darling give me you absence tonight
Take all of your sympathy and leave it outside
'Cuz there's no kind of loving that can make this alright
I'm trying to find a place I belong
And I suddenly feel like a different person
From the roof of my soul come a gentle coercion
And I ran my hand o'er a strange inversion
As the darkness turns into the dawn
The child is gone
The child is gone
Merman
He's a merman
He doesn't need your voice
He's a merman
Go to bed, dream instead
And you will find him
He's a merman eternally
Doesn't need something you're not willing to give
He's a merman
Doesn't need your voice to cross his lands of ice
Go to bed, the priests are dead
Now no one can call you bad
Go to bed, the priests are dead
Finally you found him - lala la
Who could ever say you're not simply wonderful?
Who could ever harm you?
Sleep now
You're my little girl
Go to bed, the priests are dead
And go singin' low again
Go to bed, past the apple orchard
And you'll feel nice
Two can play, I said, two can play
1979 |Thirty Three | Bullet with Butterfly Wings | tonite, tonite | ZERO |
THE AEROPLANE FLIES HIGH, TURNS LEFT, LOOKS RIGHT. THE AEROPLANE KNOWS THAT IT IS ALONE IN IT'S DRAMA BONES. MADNESS, PRECONCEPTIONS, RAY GUN LOGICS RUN AND SPIT AND RATIONALIZED UNTIL A WHOLE CHORUS OF MUG WUMPS, BLUE IN THE FACE FROM YELLING THEIR DIVISIVE MANTRAS, RUN OUT OF YOUNG BREATH AND JUST PLAIN GIVE IN TO THE SPIIT OF THE WHOLE DAMN APPLE. FACE IT, YOU LOVE IT, IT'S FUN FOR ONE AND ALL, AND FOR ALL YOU KNOW THE EARTH SPINS ON IT'S RUSTY AXIS JUST BECAUSE OF IT. THE AEROPLANE MOVES WHETHER YOU WANT IT TO OR NOT. CRAM PACKED WITH FUEL INJECTED JET MISSILE ACTION, THIS IS WAR MOTHERFUKER AND DON'T YOU FORGET IT FOR ONE SECOND. IT IS US VERSUS THEM, AND IF YOU'RE GIVING IN THEN YOU ARE GIVING UP. ALL THE NAMES DON'T MEAN SHIT. UGLY, BEAUTIFUL, PRENTENTIOUS, ARROGANT, OLD, TIRED, HAPPY, SELL OUTS, CAREERISTS, TRANCENDENT, HYPNOTIC, TRIPPY, SPELLBINDING, NUMB, EGOCENTRIC, SOLIPSISTIC, EMPTY, HOLLOW, SHALLOW, LOST, 70'S, 60'S, 80'S, 20'S, LONG WINDED, PHONY, GRAND, THE WORST, THE BEST, CREEPY, CRANKY, DESPERATE… THE AEROPLANE JUST FLIES HIGHER, FASTER, STRONGER. THERE ISN'T MUCH TIME FOR MAYBES, EVEN GOODBYES SOMETIMES, DUST SETTLES, THE ARCWELDERS COME OUT AND RECONSTUCT THE OBVIOUS, AND WE ARE ALL LEFT HOLDING THE BLUR. LIFE WILL ALWAYS BE A SENTIMENTAL WAY, YOU CAN VIVISECT IT ALL YOU WANT. BLOOD AND WILL ARE INDIVISIBLE. THE AEROPLANE FLIES HIGH, TURNS LEFT, LOOKS RIGHT. THE WORLD PISSES A SILVER STREAM TO LET YOU KNOW IT IS THERE, ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE SLIPSTREAM OF COUNTLESS THOUGHTLESS THOUGHTS. IT SHATTERS AND DIVIDES INTO A MILLION FRAGMENTS BECAUSE LIFE IS NOT A LIFESTYLE CHOICE. WE ARE NOT A FASION ACCESSORY. MUSIC IS GOD'S BONES CREAKING PLEASURE, AMUSEMENT, EVEN OCCASIONAL APPROVAL. WE SALUTE YUOU ALL WITH A CRACK OF THE BAACK, A BASEBALL BAT AND A SMILE. GOD BLESS US ALL, FOR WHAT WE THINK AND FEEL IS ALL EE REALLY HAVE. BUT WHEN IS TOO FAR FAR ENOUGH. NO LIMIT THAT I EVER KNEW REALLY MATTERS. THERE IS STRENGTH IN THE DIRT OF YOUR GARDEN SORROWS, THERE ARE NO MORE TOMORROWS, ONLY BLISSED TODAYS, PURPLE AND IMMESURABLE IN STATURE AND STEALTH, BECAUSE THE SUN IS ALWAYS SNEAKING AROUND BEHIND YOUR SNEAKY BACK, YOU CAN HEAR US BECAUSE IF YOU CAN'T WE WILL TURN IT UP TILL YOUR EARS BLEED NASCENT APPROVING HARMONY. IT'S ALL GOOD, AND DON'T YOU FORGET IT. THE FOURTH WALL IS DOWN AND DESERVES TO STAY DOWN, BECAUSE ALL YOU ARE REALLY WATCHING IN OTHERS IS YOURSELF, THE THIRD GENERATION T.V. REFLECTION. TIME IS NEVER Time AT ALL. THERE IS NO TIME, NO HEARTBEATS, NO BABIES, NO FRENCH FRIES, JUST SPIDER WEBS STRUNG TO OSCILLATE THE FEVER PITCH OF BLANDKIND, OOPS I MEAN MANKIND. ONCE THE SONIC DART LEAVES YOU FINGERS, IT IS HARD TO GET BACK. SCRATCH, SNIFF, OBSERVE, OBEY, DECEIVE, DISTORT, DISARM IT ALL, THE BOMB IS ON AND TICKING. WE KNOW BUT WE AIN'T TELLING ANYONE ANYTHING, BECAUSE WE KNOW NOTHIN. "T.V. GENERATION X.Y.U.," ZERO COMMAND CALLING, CAPT. COCONUT SOUNDS THE ALARM, EVERY BAND YOU EVER LIKED HAS REFORMED AND IS PLAYING ON A SINGLE BILL, ONE NIGHT ONLY AT THE BOTTOM OF THE OCEAN. ONCE IT IS GONE THERE IS NO GOING BAK, AND IT IS NEVER EVER THE SAME. WAVE TO THE MAGIC BALLOONS WITH OYUR NAMES ATTACHED, 5 ZILLION STORN CIRCLING THE PREDIOUS EARTH IN SEARCH OF A FRIEND IN SEARCH OF ANOTHER. I HOPE YOU ALL FIND WHAT YOU NEED IN WHATEVER HOLE YOU PEER DOWN, WHATEVER CLOUD YOU PEEK BEHIND, LET THE DISASTER DUKES MASTICATE ON THE GREEN GRASS OF HOPE AND LOVE. THIS YEAR IS THE MOST JOYOUS AND HAPPY, MOURNFUL AND SAD YEAR I HAVE KNOWN. LIFE IS GOOD BLEATS THE BLEATING HEART, AND IT KEEPS ON BLEATING LIKE AN 808. NEVER EVER FOREVER TOMORROW COMEWS, NEW DAWNS BLISTER, BEW SONGS TO BE SUNG. THE AEROPLANE FLIES HIGH, TURNS LEFT, LOOKS RIGHT. THE AEROPLANE KNOWS YOU KNOW, SINGS THE SONG OF TRUTH, OF REDEMPTION, OF SORROW. LOOK NO FURTHER THAN YOUR DIRTY FEET.
SO FROM THE HOUSE OF LONELINESS, WE SLEPT, WE ATE, WE DREAMED OF NOTHING, PLAYED MUSIC CEASELESSLY FOR 8 1/2 YEARS CLIMBING UP A HILL, STILL IN A WARM CLOUDY SLEEP WE AWOKE, ALL NUMB FINGERS AND DUMB LIPS. THE RIVER FLED, THE MEADOW OPENED, THE MOUNTAIN WOKE, COLOURED LIGHTS STREWN FROM CITY TO CITY, UNDER THE TREES, UNDER THE STARS, UNDER THE TRAVELING MOON WE PLAYED AND SLEPT.
SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED AND THINGS ARE CHANGING SO FAST THAT LOOKING OVER THE DEBRIS AND TARNISHED MEDALS IT SEEMS LIKE SO MANY YEARS. THE DIM LIGHTS, LOUD MUSIC, GETTING LOST IN THE VAN, WATCHING FOR UFO'S, ARGUING, WATCHING BUTCH VIG MICROWAVE BACON, BUGG, PEOPLE ACTUALLY COMING TO SE US PLAY, MORE ARGUING, LOLLAPALOOZA, MORE MUSIC, ENDLESS BORING HOURS LISTENING TO GUITAR "TONES" WITH ALAN, DOOM, HARMONY STRINGS, FLOOD WITHE THE CLASSIC SAYING, "WE'RE IN THE TRENCHES WITH OUR TIN HATS ON," SONGS, RELEASING A DOUBLE CD UNDER THE JAUNDICED EYE OF BUSINESS ACUMEN AND WINKING HIPSTERS, RELIEF, ELATION, TRAGEDY, THEN RETICENCE… AT THE END OF THIS YOU FLIP BACK TO THE BEGINNING OR MAYBEE OEPN IT UP WOMEWHERE IN THE MIDDLE AND YOU ALWAYS FIND THE SAME THING: MUSIC. SO THAT'S WHAT YOU MIGHT TAKE AWAY FROM THIS—AND ALL THIS FROM AN EMPTY ROOM. CHEERS, TA!
i don't look in the mirror
i don't like what i see staring back at me
everything is clearer
i'll never see what you see
it's not me
so beautiful and free
i'll never be what you need
i can't help it at all
i was born so beautiful
but now i'm ugly
and i rot in my skin
as the judgment in their ways
i'll never be what you need
i can't help it at all
my love was so beautiful
but now i'm ugly
i'm good enough but i don't care
i'm good enough but i'm not there
i'm good enough but i don't care
the sun is out but i'm not there
i'm good enough but i don't care
the sun is out but i'm not there
i'm good enough
i don't look in the mirror
i don't like what i see staring back at me
everything is clearer
i'll never see what you see
and i rot in my skin
as a piece of me dies everyday
i know i'm nothing
because i'm ugly
stay with me i'll set you free
cause i can tell you once were pretty
rose so sad you've lost your petals
and lost the luster off your tattle tales
i need a love to help me find my way
i need a strength that i can not betray
i need a word to say what i can't say
i need a lover
what were we waiting for?
time has lost it's hold on me
hatred sleeps inside my bones
in the stillness of cool air
all the boys have been left for dead
cause we go where they fear to tread
the beautiful one's
the one's we'll remember
the precious one's
our greatest pretenders
i need a love to help me find my way
i need a strength that i can not betray
i need a word to say what i can't cay
i need a lover
and if you lose yourself
could you take me too
could you rest inside the sleep
stay with me i'll set you free from you
born to please every simple need
i stand alone in my thoughts indeed
hate you
for ever making me
i'm in you
i'm your anything
i want you and i need you
all you are is brand new
and i need you
come to me
let me hold you still
i'm so tired
just as tired as you
take me for anyone
but me
all that you feel is never true
i want you
and i need you
all you are is brand new
and i need you
when you say that you are
forever my star
could never ever let you go
and never let you know
let roar these fears
to the whore of my tears
pure as a lie
i pour to your eyes
suck you
like the sap from a tree
honey from the dew
from the bumble bees
i want you
and i need you
and all you are is brand new
and i need you
when you say that you are
forever my star
i'll never let go
never let you know
speak to me in a language i can hear
humor me before i have to go
deep in thought i forgive everyone
as the cluttered streets greet me once again
i know i can't be late
supper's waiting on the table
tomorrow's just an excuse away
so I bull my collar up and face the cold
on my own
the earth laugh beneath my heavy fee at the blasphemy in my old jangley walk
steeple guide me to my heart and home
the sun is out and up and down again
i know i'll make it
love can last forever
graceful swans never topple to the earth
and you can make it last
forever you
you can make it last
forever you
you can make it last
forever you
and for a moment i lose myself
wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
i've journeyed here and there and back again
but in the same old haunts still find my friends
mysteries not ready to reveal
sympathies i'm ready to return
i'll make the effort love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
tomorrow's just an excuse
and you can make it last
forever you
you can make it last
forever you
this is the last song
this is the last song i'll sing for you
this is the last song
this is the last song i can give you
the roaring city sleeps
metal fingers clutching dirty sheets
and no one comes for free
in this place where the angels sleep
this is the last song
my eyes are open wonder to this
as you hold the secrets
i count the minutes off so perfectly
the shards of broken glass
sing the strains of a sad old tune
we've made it at last
but what we had is lost inside our past
this is the last song
could you find a way across me
to forgive and forget me
to appease and relent me
to deceive and detect me
to understand and release me
to the dawn
this is the last song
love is a sentimental heart
life is a sentimental way
spy the fragile heart so cursed
as he walks across the earth
I'm disconnected by your smile
disconnected a million miles
and what you promised me
i hope will set you free
I'm disconnected by your smile
and all I gave you is lost
and all you took from me is lost
black wings carry me so high
up to meet you in the sky
I'm disconnected by your smile
disconnect a million miles
and what you promised me
I hope will set you free
I'm disconnected by your smile
wishing you were real to me
wishing I could make believe
I'll take my secrets to the grave
safely held beneath the waves
always knew I couldn't save
always knew I couldn't save you.
a livewire moves slow
a transformer alway knows
the score is four
leaves you hanging on the floor
for more and less and more of the blame
and she's tired and she's sick of the same old shit
it's just more of the same old same
i know she wants more and more and more and more to witness
to lay down and bear true
a cherry onion firefly
tastes sweet and white
as you are blue
knows just what she wants to do
with you below the silver skies
don't hate her because she's undecided
and she's tired
and she's sick of the same old shit
it's just more of the same old same
i know she wants more and more and more and more to stomach
in honor of her youth
she's not sorry
she's happy
sorry
she's happy
she's not sorry
she's happy
sorry
she's happy as a turtle
she's a real live transformer
ooh the bells are ringing out
what a sound
ooh the bells are are ringing out
what a sound
and i'm in love
and i'm in love
the joy of love
the coming of jesus
jesus did you call my name
never ever felt afraid
did you hold onto
did you make it thru
you
there's so much doubt in every heart
for all our faults we carry on
jesus
jesus i ran away
i got so scared
i made mistakes
will i hold onto
will i make it thru
ooh the bells are ringing out
what a sound
the world is a vampire
sent to drain
secret destroyers
hold you up to the flames
and what do i get for my pain
betrayed desires
and a piece of the game
even though i know
i suppose i'll show
all my cool and cold-like old job
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
now i'm naked
nothing but an animal
but can you fake it
for just one more show
and what do you want
i want to change
and all my cool and cold-like old job
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
tell me i'm the only one
tell me there's no other one
jesus was an only son
tell me i'm the chosen one
jesus was an only son for you
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
and i still believe that i cannot be saved
you should know that i love you
we should love like lover do
and i can't help but fall for you
ah honey
i'm just a fool
now you know
darling
i'll never be true
you see
for so long i was blue
(i'm not the only one)
and if i hurt then you will too
ah honey
i always lose
now you know
lover
when will you
i'm so afraid that no one cares
lover
can't find you
i swear to god don't leave me here
now you know
oh you know that it can't be
but no one else here really means
(anything to me)
if you hurt inside
if you confide in me again
since you ran away
hold me now
tell me how love is ours
lover
when will you
i'm so afraid that no one cares
lover
can't find you and no one knows what brings us here
lover
hold me now
tell me how
love is ours
time is never time at all
you can never ever leave
without leaving a piece of youth
and our lives are forever changed
we will never be the same
the more you change the less you fell
believe
believe in me
believe
that life can change
that you're not stuck in vain
we're not the same
we're different tonight
tonight
so bright
tonight
and you know you're never sure
but you're sure you could be right
if you held yourself up to the light
and the embers never fade in your city by the lake
the place where you were born
believe
believe in me
believe
in the resolute urgency of now
and if you believe there's not a chance tonight
tonight
so bright
tonight
we'll crucify the insincere tonight
we'll make things right
we'll feel it all tonight
we'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
the indescribable moments of your life tonight
the impossible is possible tonight
believe in me as i believe in you
tonight
and on her doorstep i saw that i was blind
i'd forsaken what was mine
what had mattered little now
we had shattered apart somehow
i can't help but stay the same
i'll remain true to my name
time to get up and take the long walk home
and for the first time i go alone
do you remember when we first met
chasing down the alleyways behind my dad's
i can't help but stay the same
i remain true to the name of lovers past
good enough to lose and good enough to chose you too
dirty your face
with longing and grace god given
suffer her heart and love her when your love goes unrequited
where the cool winds blow i must surely go
for my love calls below to drag her form the depths of my soul
when will i see her again
the other side of friends
the darkened claws of death
the empty breath desire dirty your face
with longing and grace goes given
suffer her heart and love her when your love goes
unrequited
restless in by speech
and rootless in my teach
so vacant in my breach
i drive the dirt of her garden sorrow
she'll never listen again
no other lovers to bend
just rotten apples to eat
just letter yellowed distant scorn
dirty your face
with longing and grace god given
suffer
her heart
and love her when your love goes
unrequited {unrequited}
life just fades away
purity just begs
dust to dust we're wired into sadness
you're an empty promise
you're an easy chair
you're the gods forces struck down somewhere
you're a secret noticed
you're a mystery sky
you're a wish floated up to the night
medellia of my eyes
you're the emptiness of i
you're the reason that i write
and if you say you will
i would love you still
and if i could
i'd throw away this world
i'd dress you all in pearls
i'd give you what you wanted
you're all i notice in a crowded room
you're vacant motives unmoved
revealed
medellia of my eyes
you're the emptiness of i
you're the reason that i drive
and if you say you will
i would love you still
and if i just could be anything for you
just anyone at all
anything that mattered
washed out
you're the silly reasons in a goldfish laugh
you're the ageless seasons at rest
at last
Zero
she's the one for me
she's all i really need
'cause she's the one for me
emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
and cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me
intoxicated with the madness, i'm in love with my sadness
bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms
the fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth
i never let on, that i was on a sinking ship
i never let on that i was down
you blame yourself, for what you can't ignore
you blame yourself for wanting more
she's the one for me
she's all i really need
she's the one for me
she's my one and only
god knows I'm helpless to speak on my own behalf
gos is as helpless as me caught in the negatives
we all just do as we please
false transmissions
i hope god forgives me for my transgressions
it's what you want to know no consequences
it's what you need to fucking bleed
it's all too much god knows i'm helpless
god knows i'm restless and weak full of piss and vinegar
god knows we sow what we reap in the dirt of grandeur
when the darkness comes to me and it fixes it's gaze on me
god knows i'm helpless
it's what you want to know no consequences
it's what you need to fucking bleed
it's all too much god knows i'm helpless
you break your back for what you can't have
you can't turn back
god knows i'm helpless
so here we are true superstars
we're so real from afar and now
you're with us now
and the mouths of babes sing revolution
and the mouths of babes scream disillusion
you can't break what's already broken
cause form the mouths of babes comes nothing
the "dreams" was a sham for saving what you can't and now
they're me but i'm not them
i am you and you are me
it's in the ways i walk thru fire
it's in the ways of my desire
and when i said that you're no good
what i meant was i wish you could be there
forever be young
forever i wish you could be there
so now i bid farewell beyond the bonds of hell
and now you'll swear you knew us well
well you can never tell
and the mouths of babes sing revoolution
and the mouths of babes scream disillusion
you can't break what's already broken
cause from the mouths of babes comes nothing
and i'd love you to notice i'm devoted
to destroy for no one
now it's that time again to take revenge
on all the debutantes and their friends
the bitter charlemagne's so self absorbed
the bodily remains such a bore
was i good enough to break you
and all i see is empty
cause now i'm one of them
so adored
the slink of impotence al that you can give
was i good enough to break you
in the back of the car the angel dust was given back to the stars
and in this fall from grace
we'll meet again another time another place
i've been down deep in you and me let's see where we can go
angels
barbed wire
fuck you
desire
and i stumbled onto you as you stumbled over me
and you say the fates were cruel for throwing us together
i always loved you so especially when you'd go
all the world must know that i loved you so
it's a pity were apart
it's shame you broke my heart
but i've got a new girlfriend
she looks a lot like you dear
no one could ever do dear all the world must know
that i loved you so especially when you'd go
especially when you'd go away and leave me here
go away and leave me alone
all the world must know
pennies for sale