Sigh...

When he spoke, Emma's mind was most busy, and, with all the wonderful velocity of thought, had been able -- and yet without losing a word -- to catch and comprehend the exact truth of the whole; to see that Harriet's hopes had been entirely groundless, a mistake, a delusion, as complete a delusion as any of her own -- that Harriet was nothing; that she was every thing herself; that what she had been saying relative to Harriet had been all taken as the language of her own feelings; and that had been all received as discouragement from herself.

And it just keeps getting better!

Seldom, very seldom, does complete truth belong to any human disclosure; seldom can it happen that something is not a little disguised, or a little mistaken; but where, as in this case, though the conduct is mistaken, the feelings are not, it may not be very material. -- Mr. Knightley could not impute to Emma more relenting heart than she possessed, or a heart more disposed to accept of his.

He had, in fact, been wholly unsuspicious of his own influence. He had followed her into the shrubbery with no idea of trying it. He had come, in his anxiety to see how she bore Frank Churchill's engagement, with no selfish view, no view at all, but of endeavouring, if she allowed him an opening, to soothe or to counsel her. -- The rest had been the work of the moment, the immediate effect of what he hear, on his feelings. The delightful assurance of her total indifference towards Frank Churchill, of her having a heart completely disengaged from him, had given birth to the hope, that, in time, he might gain her affection himself; -- but it had been no present hope -- he had only, in the momentary conquest of eagerness over judgment, aspired to be told that she did not forbid his attempt to attach her. -- The superior hopes which gradually opened were so much the more enchanting. -- The affection, which he had been asking to be allowed to create if he could, was already his! -- Within half an hour, he had passed from a thoroughly distressed state of mind, to something so like perfect happiness, that it could bear no other name.

Her change was equal. -- This one half hour had given to each the same precious certainty of being beloved, had cleared from each the same degree of ignorance, jealousy, or distrust. -- On his side, there had been a long-standing jealousy, old as the arrival., or even the expectation, of Frank Churchill. -- He had been in love with Emma, and jealous of Frank Churchill, from about the same period, one sentiment having probably enlightened him as to the other. It was his jealousy of Frank Churchill that had taken him from the country. -- The Box-Hill party had decided him on going away. He would save himself from witnessing again such permitted, encouraged attentions. -- he had gone to learn to be indifferent -- But he had gone to a wrong place. There was too much domestic happiness in his brother's house; woman wore too amiable a form in it; Isabella as too much like Emma -- differing only in those striking inferiorities, which always brought the other in brilliancy before him, for much to have been done, even had his time been longer. -- He had staid on, however, vigorously, day after day -- till this very morning's post had conveyed the history of Jane Fairfax. -- Then, with the gladness which must be felt, nay, which he did not scruple to feel, having never believed Frank Churchill to be at all deserving Emma, was there so much fond solicitude, so much keen anxiety for her, that he could stay no longer. He had ridden home through the rain; and had walked up directly after dinner, to see how this sweetest and best of all creatures, faultless in spite of all her faults, bore the discovery.

He had found her agitated and low. -- Frank Churchill was a villain. -- He heard her declare that she had never loved him. Frank Churchill's character was not desperate. -- She was his own Emma, by hand and word, when they returned into the house; and if he could have though of Frank Churchill then, he might have deemed him a very good sort of fellow.

We can only dream.

That totally different feelings did Emma take back into the house from what she had brought out! -- She had been only daring to hope for a little respite of suffering; -- she was in an exquisite flutter of happiness, and such happiness moreover as she believed must still be greater when the flutter should have passed away.

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