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MathyMandy
Tuesday, 26 April 2005
Amazing what the start of coming out of depression can do!
Mood:  celebratory
Now Playing: "Girl Power" by Shampoo on "NoAlbum"
Topic: Personal
Aside from a general feeling of happiness today after Number Theory, I made some major improvements at the gym today. When doing the dip/pull machine, I decided to push my self and move up to plate 16 (88 pounds assistance) and was able to do 10 each inner and outer pull ups and 10 each inner and outer dips. Then when Bridget and I went back for her round (I had gotten out of class early and thus had started early), I decided to try some on plate 14 (72 pounds assistance). Imagine my surprise when I was actually able to do 5 inner pull ups (the dips I've always been pretty strong on). Now if I can just get that rep up to 10, I will have accomplished one of my gym goals: pulling at least half my weight on the pull up. Once I get that, my new goal will be to pull 2/3 my weight aka be on plate 11. I'm sure I'll be exteremely sore tomorrow considering how hard I worked my arms today but it was so worth it. Bridget was very impressed and noted my change in mood. All I have left to do with Math Club is get reimbursed for Yosemite cancellations. Although Tyler said to wait on them and talk to Tami because apparently Tami does have the time to go that weekend and may still be going. Go figure. Well, if she doesn't talk to me by the end of Number Theory on Thursday, I'm cancelling them and putting in my request to get reimbursed. And now that I don't have to go to the ICC meeting tomorrow night, I can go over to Jess' and have chicken enchilatas and margaritas. (yes, margaritas because, yes, I do drink when invited into a social setting that has alcohol.)

Posted by Mandy at 11:53 PM PDT
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Monday, 25 April 2005
Speaking of great things...
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Library lab noises still
Topic: School
Speaking of great things, I got both of my midterms back today.

Number Theory was 19/20. My point off was for the proof I figured out towards the end and rushed through and left some details out. I looked up the average on Blackboard and it was 14 point something. So I feel really good about Number Theory.

Analysis was a surprising 70/100. Not really sure how that happened but I'll take it. That's higher than both of the first midterms for the past two quarters. Really I was just hoping for a 56 or higher to get above the first midterm last quarter but I will most certainly take a 70. Now I just need to make sure that I get higher than that on the next midterm and the final. It'd be awesome if that was my lowest and it got dropped. I can dream, can't I? But yes, was very happy to see that. Things just keep looking up today =).

Now to the sitting room part to work on my part of my presentation for Plastics. Group meeting in 50 minutes. Perhaps I was a bit rushed in that whole looking up comment...

Posted by Mandy at 6:06 PM PDT
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Well, I did it
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Library lab noises
Topic: Math Club
I resigned from Math Club. I sent an e-mail to Dr. Sze, Dr. Shapiro, Rebecca and Tyler about it. So far I've talked to Dr. Sze and Dr. Shapiro in person. Rebecca sent me a reply e-mail.

It was amazing how much better I felt after sending out a one line e-mail. My mood has already gone up and while doing some Number Theory outside I felt pretty relaxed as if some of the stress was just melting away. It was great. It'll be so nice to have no more commitments on the weekend except for my butt with a library chair. Ah, being free is great.

Posted by Mandy at 6:01 PM PDT
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Sunday, 24 April 2005
The Seemingly Never Ending Math Club Saga
Mood:  don't ask
Topic: Math Club
Randy sent me an e-mail in response to the previous entry. And then I guess he talked with Rebecca and then she sent me one too. I won't post them here since I doubt they want that public (then again, I haven't been very good about reading people recently, have I?).

Anyway, after reading those and talking things over with Bridget, my decision to resign hasn't changed. If anything, it has become firmer. I feel the club is going to die next year anyway since apparently I managed to drive out any remaining members. As I said before: "Now that I've managed to make enemies out of friends, I'm not regressing even farther into depression for them anymore" (Wow, it's weird to quote myself...).

Tomorrow morning, I hope to get off work a little early and go over to the Epicenter and ask about it. As a rule follower (apparently one of my many faults of being President), I'll be resigning officially and then dropping off the radar. No more events, no more hanging out in the lounge. I'll clear my locker out and pay my debt to the snack bar tomorrow. Instead of me "alienating people" from the Math Club, I'll make easier and alienate myself from the Math Club. Am I taking the cowards route by avoiding the issues? Yes, but after having spent many nights this month crying myself to sleep, I really just can't deal with it anymore and would rather concentrate on other things. Like my school work, senior project and hanging out with my real friends.

Posted by Mandy at 11:43 PM PDT
Updated: Sunday, 24 April 2005 11:45 PM PDT
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Saturday, 23 April 2005
"Poly students say no to fee hikes"-The Tribune
Mood:  celebratory
Now Playing: "First Time" by Finger Eleven on "The Greyest Of Blue Skies"
Topic: School
It's official now: Both the facilities fee increase and the ASI fee increase failed in the fee referendum Wednesday and Thrusday. The Tribune reported that the ASI one failed by just 76 votes. Which apparently "suprised ASI leaders" because "two thirds of students surveyed last fall supported the fee hike for the renovation projects." What ASI leaders are forgetting about that survey is that in the end, students were basically asked "would you rather have a really nice renovation that will cost a lot of money or a normal renovation that will be less expensive than the other one?" There was no option to not have the renovation, i.e. to not have a fee increase. Someone's letter to the editor of the Mustang Daily reminded me of this fact. The Tribune also said that this was the first time that the students have voted against a fee increase for ASI since 1984. And I would just like to point out that without voter intimidation (read: last year's athletic sholarship fee referendum), the students actually really don't approve of unnecessary fee hikes. I said it last year and I'll say it again: if they want more money for renovations or jocks, start charging the students who actually gave a damn. Yeah, that would include me with the gym and the bus but I'm okay with that. The only fee increase that I will continue to support is any dealing with Health Services because no one chooses to get sick or break a bone.

Posted by Mandy at 8:51 AM PDT
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Friday, 22 April 2005
Excuse me for having values
Mood:  blue
Rebecca really hurt me tonight. As we were leaving the porn shop (yes, you read correctly), the plan was that Hagan, Kevin, Rachel and I were going to head to KFC to get some food and Rebecca and Randy were going to head to SLO. Then as Rachel and I were getting in my car, Rachel and Randy come up and Rebecca asks Rachel is she wanted to go in Rebecca's car. I asked why. Rebecca said "Because we're going drinking and I know you don't want to go." I was absolutely astounded that she would just automatically assume I wouldn't want to go. I asked her how she knew I didn't want to go. She said, "Because you say people are stupid for going drinking." I told her that I have never said that. She said, "Well, that's how you make people feel ." I might not drink often (mainly because anytime I've gone to where alcohol was being served, I've driven) and I might disapprove of people who drink and drive and might have been confused as to why people went to Vegas only to spend the majority of time drinking but I don't think I've ever said that someone was stupid for doing so. I said "Well, it's clear that I'm not wanted" and got into the car. Then I heard Rebecca basically telling Rachel to get in the car. Rachel said bye to me and got into Rebecca's car.

That really hurt me. So apparently that's two of the values I was brought up with that I tried to impose on people. To me, they have always been common sense: you don't arrange for guys and girls to be sleeping in the same room, and you don't drink and drive. Julie agreed with me when I told her and she too couldn't understand why people got so upset about that.

You know what, I'm not sorry that I was brought up with strong beliefs. I'm not sorry that I believe one should drink responsibly. I'm not sorry that I don't like browsing porn shops. I'm not sorry that I'm uncomfortable sharing a room with a guy I barely know. The only thing I'm sorry for is that they elected me president of the Math Club knowing I had these values.

It took me a while to realize how fully no one liked me as President (and apparently as a person if they don't like the things I believe in). But I do now. I now remember all these feelings I've been having: they're the ones I had in middle and high school; when I was depressed. This whole situation has thrown me so far back into depression, I just can't take it anymore. Monday morning I'm going to the Epicenter and asking how I officially resign. Now that I've managed to make enemies out of friends, I'm not regressing even farther into depression for them anymore.

My real friends helped pull me out of it before and I'm sure that they will be able to do so again. Once I dump Math Club, I'll be able to spend more time with them and I know that that will help me beat this. I just need to be with people I can trust and depend on.

Posted by Mandy at 11:49 PM PDT
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Monday, 18 April 2005
Why Dream When I Can Live the Nightmare?
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: "Opening" by Linkin Park on "Reanimation"
Topic: Math Club
It's nice to know that I get everyone's opinions and feelings about Math Club through Rebecca. You know, I've been trying my damnest to not take this personally but it's nearly impossible now. If it was at least various sources, I'd feel better. But apparently everyone is venting to Rebecca. *sigh* I can't wait for this nightmare to be over.

Posted by Mandy at 11:50 PM PDT
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Sunday, 17 April 2005
NSCS
Mood:  surprised
Now Playing: "I'm Not That Girl" by Idina Menzel on "Wicked"
I just got 3 e-mails from one of the current co-chairs for NSCS. One saying that I have been selected "most active" for winter quarter and the other saying that I've been nominated for board for next year. I went "huh?" on the active thing. All I did was go to the meetings. I couldn't make it to any of the actual events. As for the nomination, I was flattered but I sent him a reply saying I can't due to graduation. And even if I wasn't, I've had my fill of club board positions for one college expereience.

Posted by Mandy at 3:14 PM PDT
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I Had To Ask, Didn't I?
Topic: Math Club
To make all the ice chests work, I went to Albertson's at like 7:30am to go get some ice. Imagine my surprise when I find that there are only 7lb bags left. Not a single 20 pounder was in the freezer. They had like 2 freezer doors stacked to about chest height yesterday around 2:30. Fortunately there was a high-up employee near by who noticed the water on the floor, called someone to pick it up and yelled to someone else if there were any more bags of ice. I asked if they had any more and they said yes so I asked for two. Phew, avoided that crisis.

So I put the ice in the chest (barely fit) and drive onto campus thinking there wouldn't be that many people there yet at 7:45. Wrong. I had to park in the sports complex lot and walk all that crap down. Fortunately, about half way there, Shannon saw me on her way in for the Democrat club and gave me a lift. Phew.

So I take some time getting everything stored in the book room and then go outside to check on the booth and try to decide what to bring out first. To my dismay, the wind had managed to blow half the tarp off and part of the screen. So I go back to the book room to get the staple gun. I also noticed that nobody was setting up next to us on the right. Fortunately, around this time, Jay shows up to help out. Then some Open House committee person shows up to talk to us about the electricity issue. Alright, I was a little short with her but they did screw us over on that by not notifying us and told her so. She said that for Open House, I have to allow some flexability. Anyway, they said they were working on getting electricity for some other club near us and if they can get it to work for them than they can get it for us too. Yeah, we were a fucking after thought but I said fine. During this conversation, the staple gun was refusing to work for me. Then some Open House Main Stage people show up saying we never signed a waiver to perform on Main Stage. I let Jay take care of that while I went back to the book room to get the other staple gun. Jay fortunately got the booth back together while I got some stuff out. And then we both we upstairs in the Math building to go borrow a table (since the ones under the stairs had already been swiped). We moved that downstairs and then I went to go pick up the pies.

Despite arriving exactly at 9, I had to wait a few minutes before someone could actually help me. He took me and the cart down to the bake shop to get the pies. They had apparently just started to put them in boxes. Good thing I got there when I did because they were putting them in boxes for 6. I said I needed them individualized so me and the guy had to actually make the 25 boxes, load them and label them. I left Lighthouse around 9:30. It was 9:45 by the time I got back to the booth. By that point, Rebecca and Dusti had showed up and the booth set-up was nearly complete for both spots. Between the fridge and the 3 ice chests we had out, we managed to get all the creams, one apple and one cherry outside with us. The rest of the fruit pies I put in the book room. I was actually excited because at like 9:55, people were already at the books and shirts and buying stuff.

At 10 when it became evident that no club was coming next to us, we realized how crappy of a location we were in. The Open House booths basically go in a U shape around building 38 and we at the top of that U with only two booths to our left and no one to our right. Bascially, we got the least amount of foot traffic. By the time people got to us, they had already eaten and were full. And because it happened to be the hottest day of the quarter, no one was interested in getting a sweatshirt.

Using a technicality, we lowered our price to be 1 slice for $2 or 2 slices for $3. Our technicality was that on the price sheet, I had said "slices of pie," not "slice of pie" so I could put as many slices for $3 as I wanted. No one caught us on it anyway. That only helped business a little bit. We tried to tag onto the Materials Engineering's free nitrogen ice cream saying they could get their pie a la mode. Around 1, I counted the pie money to be about $88. Shit. So Rena and I quickly made some $1 off coupons and I went out to advertise the pies to where the crowds were and gave out coupons. I avoided using the coupons when Open House people were around. I went back when I ran out to grab some more. There was some effect but not a lot. So I went out again. Around 2:30 I came back and had a break. Rena said that business had picked up. At 3, we were offically allowed to lower our prices so we took it down to $1/slice and started to sell whole pies. I even offered people to hit me with the pie if they bought the slice. I had one guy take me up on it. He bought 2 slices and gave one to his friend to shove in my face. It was actually kind of refreshing and the whipped cream was good. Then I went around with a lot of pie on my face to see if anyone else would take me up on my offer. I went back to the booth and cleaned up a bit and then Bridget came by. I managed to convince her to hit me with pie too. I cleaned up after that and then we started to take down the booth. Emily stayed for a bit and helped out. After that it was just me and Jay.

Wow, breaking down both booths took a long time. Two and a half hours actually since it was just the two of us. In the end, we had 2 whole apple, 2/3 apple, 5/6 cherry and one whole cherry left over. When all was said and done, I didn't leave campus until like 6:50 or so. I then went directly to South House to return Steve's cooler and to hopefully sell some pie. Andrew took a slice of cheery, Steve bought the whole cherry and Matt bought a whole apple. I gave Steve the 2/3 apple as a thank you for the cooler (okay, mainly because I didn't want to deal with it). So I took home a whole apple and 2/3 cherry. I was thinking about trying to sell some to my neighbors but my feel hurt too much.

So then I came home and counted up what we made. After taking $60 back that I fronted for change and the $140 it cost us to get the pies, we only made $74 today. We did make a lot at the book sale end but then again we had no way of knowing from what. [We interrupt this journal entry with some much needed sleep. zzzzz...And now back to the entry.] I'm pretty sure that we didn't sell any sweatshirts which is what we really needed to sell. In the end, we ended up grossing $499.50. I'll be donating 50? to make it an even $500. Which is good since that's how much I was expecting. Although I honestly think we would have done a lot better had our booth been almost anywhere than where it had been. Although if we can get everything donated for the social and only spend about $30 on the EOY BBQ, we'll just be broke instead of in debt. I'll have to get an official statement again on Monday and do these calculations with the real numbers.

Posted by Mandy at 10:38 AM PDT
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Friday, 15 April 2005
Stupid Fucking Open House Bastards! or Do I Dare Ask What Else Can Go Wrong?
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: So not true music: "Perfect Day" by Hoku on "NoAlbum"
Topic: Random Rant
A little backstory: Open House requires that clubs selling food must either keep their food above 120? or below 40?. To comply, last year the Math Club brought in a mini-fridge and two coolers of ice to keep the pies in. The fridge of course required electricity which we were able to get.

This year, we again applied for electricity. Open House told all the representatives that unless they received an e-mail saying they didn't have electricity, we did. Jay, our Open House rep, never received such an e-mail. Only when Jay and I went to check in at 4 today, they didn't give us an electricity permit. I said that we should have it and the girl said we weren't listed but she made a note of it and would look into it and call us at 6...tomorrow morning. Without the electricity, we can't have the fridge in the booth to hold the pies. All we'll be able to have is our one guarnteed cooler with 2 pies and people running to the fridge in the book room to get pie slices. In other words, we're completely and utterly fucked if we don't get that electricity. I was about to walk home after setting up the booth but decided to see who I could argue with at the Open House office. I fortunately ran into the girl in charge of such things. She said that there was nothing she could do and that our rep should have been contacted. If the contact info wasn't up to date, that wasn't her fault. So basically, she tried to blame her oversight on Jay, who has received every other e-mail that Open House has sent out. I called Rebecca to let her know that electricity was definitely a no. She said that she got another cooler from Dr. Morrison and that he was going to ask his neighbor for one and ask other faculty members. Tami had said she would try to get one from her brother. I said I would call all of my friends to see if they had one. Fortunately Steve said he had one I could borrow. Of course, now we still need ice. I had bought a 20lb bag earlier today and put it in the department freezer. I originally thought it would be too much. Now it looks like it might not be enough. I did just fill up all 5 of our ice trays and took the ice from the three that were full and put that ice into baggies. Of course now I have to figure out how to get the cooler and more ice onto campus tomorrow. I could drive it on, but I would have to do that before 8 and without access to the department freezer, it would probably melt. I could walk, but...ow. I could take the bus but the first one runs at 8:44 and will only take me to Mustang Stadium (close but not quite close enough). *sigh* It's a big mess. We need to sell those pies. At least 8 of them. And we also need to sell those sweatshirts. 23 of the 29 remaining to be precise. Shit. We also need to sell at least 7 MAtheletics shirts, at least 30 M*A*S*H shirts (some have already been sold though) and more of the Fight Club and Friends shirts. Bascially we need to sell out of everything to really make money tomorrow. In other words, we are totally and utterly fucked.

We were also suppose to have an organized gathering at SLO Brew tonight from 5-7. Since I didn't even start to leave campus until 6:30, I said screw it as I would be home at 7. I went home, grabbed a diet Pepsi and hopped into the car and went to South House to get the cooler. I hung out there for a little bit trying to get the guys to join me for dinner. At 7:38 or so, Tami calls me, asking if I was coming to SLO Brew. I was surprised there were still people there. She asked if Math Club was paying for the appetizers again. I told her that we couldnt' afford to and I know I told a few people that we weren't doing that and we never said that we were in the e-mail this time. So I managed to convince the guys to join me at SLO Brew but we had to wait for Matt to get home. Then Matt had to shower and then we left. We probably got to SLO Brew at 8:15. No one from Math Club was there. Okay, yeah it took me a while to get there but I didn't expect it to break up that fast after hearing Math Club wouldn't buy anything. The good news is that I did get to have a nice dinner with South House and Shane, all of whom sans Leigh I haven't hung out with yet this quarter.

Rena had helped set up today and afterwards she asked me about the possability of a Yosemite deposit. I told her it wouldn't be more than $10. When I do finally get home, there's an e-mail from Randy saying that Rena didn't quite feel comfortable going and with a deposit being required she really doesn't feel like going. And therefore Randy won't be going either. Which would bring us down to 9. I sent an e-mail out to everyone, including Randy and Rena, if they would back out if they had to put down money. I honestly don't see why anyone would back out if they had to pay $10. I mean, it's a trip to Yosemite for only $10. You couldn't even get into the park for $10, let alone buy the gas to get there. And the campsite cost more than $10. I mean, $10 really isn't all that much is it? But basically, what it now comes down to, is that if two or more people say they won't pay, the trip is cancelled.

Posted by Mandy at 11:50 PM PDT
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