KME Founder's Award
Topic: Math Club
Remember that award I "won"? Well apparently I was slightly wrong about it. I get $200 instead of $100. That's pretty cool. Although when you consider that because I never got receipts for the pizza for the softball games, that's really only about $90 I'm getting. Anyway, apparently it's a scholarship check so it's not going into my student account so I guess it's "free" money.

Now if only I could get $200 for everytime I do a sucky job at something...I'd be so rich!

Edited to correct a runaway link tag (stupid quotation mark)

Ode to Math Clu
Now Playing: Pink's "Don't Let Me Get Me"
Topic: Math Club
Ode to Math Club
I thought I always did what was best,
How was I to have guessed
That you would silently protest
And thus lose interest?

I thought we were having fun,
Making the club open to everyone
But silently you had begun
Me and the club to shun.

I thought this is where I did belong
That I'd be a leader and be strong
But it didn't take you long
To Show me that I was completely wrong.

I thought hard I did try
But privately I did cry
Until to myself I could no longer lie
And decided to bid Math Club goodbye

I did what I thought best
And as you did suggest
My resignation was truly blessed
And the one thing you didn't detest.

Award
Now Playing: "Me Vs The World -" by Halo Friendlies on "Freaky Friday - 2003"
Topic: Math Club
So apparently I won the KME Founder's award Friday night. And $100 but I'm not sure how that happened since I'm not on file with Financial Aid. Actually, according to the top of the page, to apply for any of these, you go through Financial Aid. *scratches head* Whatever.
Here's a description of the award:

outgrowth of a request made by Professor Chester Scott's wife after he died in March of that year. The award is presented annually at the KME Banquet to a member of KME who best exhibits the spirit, enthusiasm and dedication of the founders of the Chapter. For more information on KME, please see the entry under Mathematics Department Clubs and Events, or contact Jonathan Shapiro, KME Advisor.

"spirit, enthusiasm and dedication?" BWAHAHAHA!!! To the resigned Math Club/KME President. HAHAHA! KME hasn't done anything for the past couple of years except go to dinner which we're forgoing this year I think. I bet they've just given this award to the President every year. So I wasn't wrong, it *was* a "thanks for being President for 7 of the 9 months" award. *snickers*

The Seemingly Never Ending Math Club Saga, Part II
Now Playing: "Welcome to My Life" by Simple Plan on "NoAlbum"
Topic: Math Club
Why is it that no one except Nick seems to understand why I'm not going to Banquet?

I was in the lounge with Eddie and Rachel today and just before I left they asked if I was going to Banquet. When I told them I wasn't they went "Why not?!?" I tried to explain that it would be an uncomfortable situation for me and they tried to convince me that I shouldn't let one person ruin something for me. Then I tried to explain that it wasn't just one person. Fortunately, the mood turned lighter when Eddie asked if I would be his date to the Banquet. I say this turned it lighter because before that we were talking about how lying can be good sometimes and then we progressed into Eddie's weird rejections and then later going out on a date with the same girl. It was actually quite a funny conversation, but you had to be there for it.

Anyway, my point is that I just don't want to go. Even if I hadn't been President this year, I can't guarntee that I would have gone. As I've said before, it wasn't great fun last year. Actually both of my banquet expereinces from last year have proven to me that it's not worth it unless you go with good friends. And seeing as how only two of my good friends are Math majors and neither of which are going, why bother? Hopefully all of this "why aren't you going?" nonsense will end tomorrow.

I laugh at their desperateness! Hahahaha!
Mood:  mischievious
Now Playing: "The Phantom of the Opera" by Original London Cast on "The Phantom of the Opera"
Topic: Math Club
Banquet tickets still seem to be coming up short. Today when I walked into the lounge, it was totally decked out in balloons, stremmers and stars and there was a poster promoting the banquet. There was also an e-mail from Dr. Morrison reminding people about the banquet that was probably sent at Rebecca's request since she is conviced that people delete her e-mails on sight. Then when I got home, there was a message on my machine from Dale (department secretary) reminding me about the banquet and my supposed award. She asked that I come by the office and let them know if I'm coming and if I'm bringing anyone. Yeah, they don't give a damn if I go cause my ticket is free, they just care if I'll be bringing a paying guest. *shakes head with a smile and laughs at their desperateness* Ahhh, it feels nice to laugh at it and not be going crazy worrying about it.

In other news...
Now Playing: "Close My Eyes" by Mariah Carey on "Butterfly"
Topic: Math Club
In Analysis, Dr. Shapiro handed out envelopes to some people and I was one of them. It was an invitation to the Math Department Banquet next week because I was being "recognized" and I would get a free ticket. Seeing as how I didn't apply for any awards and can't be nominated for one since I'm not on file with FASA, I'm guessing I'm being "recognized" for being a rule following, anti-alcohol bitch who caused half of the Math Club members to drop out, err, I mean the president. Yeah, that's an awkward situation I'd rather avoid. I'd rather just spend the evening relaxing in PJs at home than pretending to have a good time in formal wear at a banquet (ah the beauty of resigning).

The Final Sacrifice
Topic: Math Club
Well, here it is. The final sacrifice I made for the Math Club.
Oh how I love my pi!

Well, I did it
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Library lab noises
Topic: Math Club
I resigned from Math Club. I sent an e-mail to Dr. Sze, Dr. Shapiro, Rebecca and Tyler about it. So far I've talked to Dr. Sze and Dr. Shapiro in person. Rebecca sent me a reply e-mail.

It was amazing how much better I felt after sending out a one line e-mail. My mood has already gone up and while doing some Number Theory outside I felt pretty relaxed as if some of the stress was just melting away. It was great. It'll be so nice to have no more commitments on the weekend except for my butt with a library chair. Ah, being free is great.

The Seemingly Never Ending Math Club Saga
Mood:  don't ask
Topic: Math Club
Randy sent me an e-mail in response to the previous entry. And then I guess he talked with Rebecca and then she sent me one too. I won't post them here since I doubt they want that public (then again, I haven't been very good about reading people recently, have I?).

Anyway, after reading those and talking things over with Bridget, my decision to resign hasn't changed. If anything, it has become firmer. I feel the club is going to die next year anyway since apparently I managed to drive out any remaining members. As I said before: "Now that I've managed to make enemies out of friends, I'm not regressing even farther into depression for them anymore" (Wow, it's weird to quote myself...).

Tomorrow morning, I hope to get off work a little early and go over to the Epicenter and ask about it. As a rule follower (apparently one of my many faults of being President), I'll be resigning officially and then dropping off the radar. No more events, no more hanging out in the lounge. I'll clear my locker out and pay my debt to the snack bar tomorrow. Instead of me "alienating people" from the Math Club, I'll make easier and alienate myself from the Math Club. Am I taking the cowards route by avoiding the issues? Yes, but after having spent many nights this month crying myself to sleep, I really just can't deal with it anymore and would rather concentrate on other things. Like my school work, senior project and hanging out with my real friends.

Why Dream When I Can Live the Nightmare?
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: "Opening" by Linkin Park on "Reanimation"
Topic: Math Club
It's nice to know that I get everyone's opinions and feelings about Math Club through Rebecca. You know, I've been trying my damnest to not take this personally but it's nearly impossible now. If it was at least various sources, I'd feel better. But apparently everyone is venting to Rebecca. *sigh* I can't wait for this nightmare to be over.