These days the words "I love you" are used almost too frequently, when it's not the truth. That is very sad and unfortunate. I am one of the lucky people that has been able to feel and find love. Some of the older people reading may say, "Yeah, right..she's only 17, she doesn't know what love is. She's just too young to understand." Well, to know, you'd have to live the life I have lived for the past few months, just to find out you're wrong. There's another thing added to the fact that I may be "too young to know what love is." It's that we met in a chat room over the internet. I'm sure some of you are rolling on your chairs now. But that's fine by me because you don't know what it's like or you've never experienced the feelings I feel for this person.
From the first time I met this man my heart swelled. Sure it was an "interesting" first chat, but it was the most fun I've ever had. We clicked, or so I think we did, we've been together every since. Some say love on the internet is not real, because they could be lying, or they could have a girl/boy friend back where they live, or they could be ugly or whatever. But when you're on the net the first thing you get to know a person by is their personailty and what they're like way before looks ever come into the picture. You fall in love with the persons thoughts, feelings, words, etc. Sure, we get a small picture painted in our minds of what our "dream 'person'" looks like, but that shouldn't matter anyways. When you talk to them you have a picture of a goddess/god in your mind and the words they say make the image even more and more beautiful or handsome. Soon they're all you think about and you can't get them off your mind even thought you'd rather he/she stayed in your mind forever. They've become part of you and no matter what no one will change that. You find yourself on the computer during any free time you could possibly get to talk to them. even if you know they won't be on, you always look and hope they will be. If there ever is a misunderstanding between the two of you, you hurt forever, your heart aches and cries. Sometimes it hurts so bad that you cry, not wanting this to be the last thing you ever say even though you know things will be straightened out. You're always in fear because they mean so much to you. They're everything to you. This man of mine always keeps me on the edge. I'm always wondering what he'll say next. He has me hanging on every word, soaking them into my memory. The first time we met is so clear to me. I can imagine it so well, like it's happening right now. I wish I could tell him how much I love him, but the best I can do is just to tell him, "I love you," but those small words don't seem like enough. I think "love" is the strongest word ever created, but no matter what it's not enough. You could tell someone that you adore them, like them, think they're sweet, but you none of those are like the word love. When saying you love someone it should come from the heart and you should mean it. But when telling someone you love them over and over what else is there to tell them that will make love seem like a weak word? Nothing. I love my man with all my heart. No matter what anybody says.
*kiss*