I was drunk, and everyone knew it. I was hitting on every guy in the place, but I didn’t even realize it. Kevin was also drunk, I would never have thought he would drink, but he did. Before I could even think about what I was doing, Kevin and I were in my room. Our clothes were thrown on the floor and he was hovering over me ready to take me. That night was filled with wild, passionate sex, and I didn’t stop it.

Now I’m lying here, in my room trying to remember what had happened. How could I have done this? He’s my best friend. I don’t feel anything for him except friendship…right? He knew what happened, everyone knew. How could I do this? I’ve never done anything like that! Even if I was drunk. Just then the doorbell rang. I slowly got out of my bed and answered the door. There was my second best friend, Brian.

“Hey Brian.” I said and let him inside. He gave me a sympathetic smile and sat down on the couch, he beckoned me to join him.

“You ok?” He asked, I shook my head.

“How could I do this? How could I have sex with my best friend?” I whispered, a tear fell from my eye.

“You were drunk Nikki, you couldn’t control anything.” He comforted, but I shook my head.

“I knew what I was doing, I remember. I could’ve said no. But I didn’t, I let my lust take control, and now I lost him.”

“Why? Your not the type to just have sex with someone, unless you cared about him.”

“I don’t know, I was thinking that all day and I can’t come to a conclusion.” I sighed and leaned my head back against the couch. “I do care about him, I just don’t know in what way.”

“I think you guys need to talk to each other, he doesn’t remember anything. He only knew about it cause someone told him.”

“I guess your right, I will. I hope everything will be ok.” I whispered and looked at Brian. “What did he say when he found out?”

“He was shocked, and confused. He’s feeling the same way you are.” I nodded my head and got up. “Where you going?” He asked.

“I’ve got to talk to him, there’s not better time then the present.” I got my keys and walked out the door, leaving Brian by himself. When I got to Kevin’s house I was shaking, I was scared. What was I going to say?

“You can do this.” I thought to myself and walked to the door. I knocked the door and I heard rustling on the other side, then Kevin opened the door. When he looked at me he looked just as scared as I did.

“Hey.” He whispered, I couldn’t even speak so I nodded my head. We both stood there, not a word was said between us. Then he kissed me. I didn’t know what I felt, actually I did. I wanted that kiss, but he didn’t. I knew our friendship was over, we didn’t want it to end, but it just happened. That night cost us everything, it would be to weird, and we were stupid enough not to try to get over it. I turned around and left. I knew I was falling for him but what could I do? He didn’t feel the same way. So I left, I left my best friend, I left my love, and I left him my broken heart.