"What did I do? Why does he hate me? God why the hell do things like this happen to me?" I thought to myself as I sat on the bench by the park. I ran about a mile away from the buses. I didn't stop till I finally couldn't take it and started crying.
Aj ran to the other bus and ran inside.
"Where's Lauren?" He asked frantically. Everyone looked at him and looked where Lauren was last.
"She was right here, but I guess she left. I didn't even notice." Chrissy said. Everyone shrugged their shoulders and thought she just went to get something to drink. AJ knew different though. He went back to his bus and sat down on his bunk.
"What the hell did I just do? Lauren comes on here, not even knowing me and wants to help. I then decide to blame everything on her when it's not her fault it's Amanda's. Now who knows what's going to happen? Lauren is probably going to hate me and when she tells her friends there going to hate me and when her friends tell Nick, Brian, Kevin, and Howie there going to hate me! Oh god what did I just do?" Aj mumbled to himself.
I sat there and decided to get back. "Why should I rush, there not even going to notice me." I thought and walked to the bus. When I got on I noticed everyone was still there except Aj. I walked to the front of the bus where Steve (our bus driver) was. I sat on the passenger seat and sighed.
"What's the matter hun?" He asked. I shrugged my shoulders. He gave a small smile.
"Now you know you can tell me, I've know you since before you could walk, now what's go on?"
"It's just that it seems no one even notices me. Like they only notice me when it comes to having someone on there side, or when it's just me and one person, but any other time it's just them, not me." I said sadly.
"I'm sure they don't try to be that way, but it's because they've known each-other longer then they've know you."
"But I knew Chelse before she knew them, and they talk to her a lot."
"Well, she's not shy like you are. She just goes out there and talk; you on the other hand stay quiet until you know them. You don't let anyone in till you can trust them."
"Yea, I know. But after Glen's death, I don't know."
"That left a mark on you, it made you feel betrayed because you thought he wouldn't leave."
"But it's not like he was my boy-friend! I mean, he was a lot older then me, he was like a second a dad, or a big brother."
"That's why it hurt so much more." Steve said. I sighed and got up. I walked back to the bus when everyone was discussing something.
'What are we going to do? I mean, there's only 4 bunks here, and only enough room for 4 people." Chrissy said.
"Well, there is 8 bunks in our bus, one of you could stay with us." Brian offered. I just started to walk to the back of the bus.
"Hey Lauren where did ya go?" Brian asked.
"At least one of them realized I was gone." I thought.
"AJ came in here in a panic to find you." He said.
"Of course, I was mentioned by someone else, they couldn't remember me all by their selves." I thought again. "Wait who's AJ?"
"Who?" I asked.
"Aj" Brian said, "I don't know why, I didn't even think he knew who you guys were."
I sat there while everyone discussed what was going on.
"Maybe Lauren could go with you guys?" Chrissy suggested. Everyone turned to me. I shrugged my shoulders.
"Of course I would have to go, why would they want me in there with them?" I said to myself mostly but I guess that Brian heard me.
"What was that Lauren?" He asked. I gave a small smile and shook my head.
"I'm just going to get my stuff." I said softly and walked away.