August 03, 2003

Okay well as you know from the front page I'm an unemployed loser. I was working at Jack In the Box, but the shift leader that was supposed to work next to me one night sat on his ass the entire time and didnt do shit, then I took my lunch and he thought he was funny and wasnt going to let me in the building. So I left that place, let it fall appart. That was the example of poor management anyway. The Manager keeps calling me trying to get me to come back, I told her to kiss it.

I got a job though in less then a week, and it was outbound telemarketing, which I hated. But that's not why I quit, I quit because the dude would make me show up hella early and wouldnt let me clock on. He wanted me to go in his office and talk to him, and not get paid. So fuck them too.

This weekend I'm going to be in Reno for Hot August Nights. I want to see my friends, Moses, Ryan, Chuck....everyone I havent seen since last year(thanks Tyson!! I appreciate you not letting me keep in contact with them while you and I were together)--anyway though I cant wait, I'm excited.

I'm dating someone new, he's a nice guy, he treats me like a queen. Literally...I've never had a guy treat me with the respect that he treats me. He's 28 though, and has 2 kids....a 6 year old and a 8 month old...and we arent going to be serious...but its okay. My standards for men have gone up a notch. I will have the respect that he shows me from every other man that wants to date me.

I hate life down here, its no fun, Sacramento SUCKS! I mean there's alot to do, I suppose, but no one to go out and do it with. All my friends work or have kids...well have kids really....so we dont go out. I'm hating it so much, I hope it gets better down here.

Nichole may move down here with me, which is good, 'cause I miss having someone to go out with. I'll hate having a roomate that's a girl, but she's clean and she's not a bitch, so I'll hang in there.

Jason is being a fucking dick to me lately. He woke me up the other day to tell me I was a fuckup. That he was mad at me, then hw wouldnt explain why. SO I'm pissed at him and I havent talked to him since. So far its only been 2 days. But I have nothing to say to him.

Well my life is shitty at the moment, and I'm depressed again cause I thought about it :-( Oh yeah, I got another poem published!!!! I'm excited about it...it's called Desire Forbidden. It's actually a good one.

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