My eyes burn now.
I can't loose hope.
Someone will understand..somehow.
All I have to do is cope.
A single tear so small,
Rolls down my cheek.
But it shows to all.
That I am very weak.
I want to keep it all in my heart.
Thrown in and locked away.
I want to keep my actions and feelings apart.
But they just can't stay.
My heart burns every time.
It aches to be set free.
It sets my body on a thin line,
And it's threatening me.
My heart is strangling itself.
Sufficating it by it's own strength,
Knocking every helping hand off the shelf,
Making me suffer in pain at length.
All I want is the pain to end.
To be happy that I am alive.
Never to feel this pain again.
And to say truthfully "I don't want to die."
I want to feel nothing but love for you.
But first you need to help me.
I need you to feel the pain too.
And to show it as it may be.
Please don't hide your pain.
Show it to me and let me help you.
So that we can be happy once again.
And I can have my world back too.
I'm lost here.
Not sure where I'm going.
Not sure if I'll ever get there.
I don't even know what I'm doing.
All I know,
Is that I need you.
I need you to help me grow.
And just help me pull through.
Listen to my heart complain.
Comfort it as best you can.
I don't expect you to take away the pain.
I have to, that's the only plan.
Only I can take away the hurt.
But I need you to lean on.
I need you to take a little dirt.
And don't be so strong.
I need to know that you're hurting too.
So that maybe I can help my heart.
And then I can finally pull through.
But I'll never let us part.
Us parting is just not the way.
I won't let it come to this.
That's to big of a price to pay,
Just for a heart I'd never miss.
-Mandielynn 11/11/98
