You don't love me?
That's fine. Really.
I love you.
Not that it matters to you.
My heart aches,
You used to tell me, but it was fake.
I really wish that you loved me.
Then maybe I wouldn't feel so lonely.
It feels like you're gone.
That there was no bond.
That you never felt something.
That I never meant anything.
That you were just messing around.
Wrestling my heart to the ground.
Now you have it pinned, and you're going for the kill.
You have not only my love, but my will.
My will to live, my will to die.
You have my will to say good-bye.
I can't do anything without your love.
I can't think anything I'm used to thinking of.
It's all changed now.
But you don't care anyhow.
You've been out of love for a while,
I gave you an inch, and you took a mile.
I don't know how long you haven't loved me.
I'd rather go unknowingly.
I'd rather forget this whole thing,
And believe you love me with everything.
But I cannot forget.
My heart is in major debt.
It lost everything in this fall.
You raped it and took it all.
My heart hurts for your love again.
But it's gone until the end.
So I must say it once more.
I'll love you forever more.
Through the darkest night,
And the brightest light.
Through the worst,
And through the best.
I'll be here for you.
Because I love you.
-Mandielynn 4.30.99
