But please listen, and understand.
Understand that my love for him,
Was forced and not even to the rim.
I didn't know who he was,
I was going out with him just because.
I began forcing myself to,
Even though I knew it wasn't true.
I didn't know how much my heart could give,
Until I realized that without you, I couldn't live.
The love for him was never like the love for you,
His was false, but I managed to make it all seem true.
Now that I see from the outside looking in,
I wouldn't ever force myself to love again.
Because now I know how loving makes you feel,
And would never take the fake over the real.
But I guess that I love him now,
Since I forced myself to know how.
But loving him was never true.
Not comparing it to the love I that have for you.
©Mandielynn 7/19/98
