Daddy I was there for you to love,
Not for you to hurt.
I was there for you to cuddle,
Not for you to fondle.
I was there for you to teach,
Not for you to breach.
I was there for you to protect,
Not for you to reject.
I was there to be your little girl,
I was there just to be your world.
It went on and on for ten long years,
I have cried and cried so many tears.
Ten years of my life I spent in fear.
And I've had night terrors for year
after year,
I remember the guilt and shame,
I also remember all your head games.
A little baby's dream is shattered,
Not that now it even matters.
Trusting? Well that is hard to do.
To think that people can be true?
Daddy why did you do this to me?
Why could'nt you just let me be?
Daddy you were not alone, there were
more,
All be told, together there were four.
In relationships it's hard to feel,
For the wounds are deep, and slow heal.
Daddy I was there after you met your own
demise,
By your own hand, I could'nt believe
that you had died.
It was hard for me to go back to that
room,
The one where all I felt was gloom and
doom.
I thought to my self "How crule and mean
the spilled blood and filth you left for
me to clean."
Daddy the ONLY present you ever gave was
on my sweet 16th birthday...
A poem... when I read it, it went on to
say....
You made me cold and bitter for a long
long time,
But because I forgive you. NOW my soul
is mine....
I'm a survivor Daddy....oh yes in deed,
Love, safety, and security is all I
need.©
Written by Darlene J.
Septmeber 25,1999
I wanted to thank my special someone who
encouraged me to write this and he
knows who he is.... Thank you baby I
Love you!
read my other poem called
"Coping with my loss"