Caution: If you possess suicidal tendancies and/or suffer from depression, 
maybe you shouldn't read this...


Forever.

Look upon the piss stained face of an angel
And mend its broken wing 
Take my hand and be my new true love 
Soaked in sin white knuckle holocaust disgust and triumph 
Glass exile burning long progress so I will live as I have lived 
And I will live on forever with you.


Sinister Thoughts.

Pale eternity in idle darkened sea
Drinking sin filled waters of impure lust
in burning exile and demonic holocust
Where hellish moonlit shadows dance 
and cimmerian darkness takes over with wicked enchance
There silently waitin for your sweet deathly kiss
I'll lay in infernal tides of passionate sinister thought
....Cold darkness sweep me away
With sinful memories of sweet lecherous play.


Untittled #1

Come hold me close
Never let go
Because this is something 
I cannot control 
My heart's beating faster 
As you take my hand 
I'm willing to do 
Whatever you command..
Kiss me once more 
Seems like so long 
Here in my arms 
Is where you belong 
Dont leave just stay by my side 
For only in your arms is where I can hide.


Untitled#2

Heartless Love
Dauntless cowards
Sunshine darkens my empty,
Bruised soul
Silence echoes off the walls
Desireless passion
and cruel love,
Run away from fear,
Fly like a black dove.
Resentful anger makes me crave
What i cant have.


Shattered.

Haunt me,
Dimensions of dreams,
Swirl by,
Colours of sorrow,
Merge the past,
Into my today,
Play with my mind,
Steal away my tomorrow.
Desert me,
Images of what might have been,
Relinquish your hold,
On my heart's shattered being
Taunt me,
Memories of you,
Take away,
My corroded soul,
Within the drop of a single tear. 


In Dreams.

I let the wind lull me to sleep, 
the night I went to Hell,
And in dreams your presence haunted me, 
when sleep's black curtains fell.
My love for you was too long denied to do much about it now,
But each time I lay down to sleep I feel you kiss upon my brow.                              
And though I'm damned I pray to God that he may mend my soul
And save it from the ashes of the hearts that you have stole.


A Decision.

I lay my head down to sleep
on a pillow where I weep
I look around with blurry vision
trying to make a hard decision
should I or should I not?
or live this life, my soul to rot?
a shiny object in my hand:
a tool to save me from this land
should I bear this hateful place
or fake a smile upon my face?
staring at the blade around my wrist
and at a hand, never kissed
and as I watch the blood run down
on my face, there is no frown
in a few now, 
I'll be free
and rid of this unjust society.


In My Eyes.

In my eyes
you would see traces of darkness
Outlines of loneliness
And slivers of passion unleashed
In my eyes
You would see a salty sea
The waves would be frightening
The black water inviting
In my eyes
You would see a haunting
So dark and deep
That many look away in fear
In my eyes
You would see a fire raging
Ablaze with stifled passion
Awaiting your touch
In my eyes
If you look in them
And not through them
You would see forever.


Blackened Sky.

How dare the sky turn blue today
I need to see it black and gray
Fitting perfect with how I feel
Something I must still conceal
I feel broken almost insane
How I wish that it would rain
In the rain there is no pain
Freeing me from all my shame
Colors only distract attention
From the reality of pure intention
To the darkness I shall flee
Inside the arms of misery
When the clouds cover the sky
I will feel an incredible high
I wish that it could always be
A blackened sky for me to see.


Untittled #3

A love like this
Dark...and...cold
Never growing, only dying
Winter of my death.

Iced tendrils
Crack the glass;
And crystal tears shatter
Obituary of my heart.

He is . . .
mind achingly beautiful
heartbreakingly cruel
why.. 


Untittled #4

Thinking back to the days of past
I thought for sure our love would last
But now I sit here all alone
Haunted memories of a love gone wrong

The razor in my hand is a symbol of
The way I feel for you, "my love"

Tears are falling down my face
Empty shadow shall replace
Nothing can put to rest
This broken heart in my chest.


An Empty Longing.

Thoughts of you have drifted near
I sense them in my heart
Along with all the sorrows
Not being with you has brought
My tears are no longer empty
They are filled with pain and such
The sea they form is lovely
Yet deadly to the touch.
When peaceful sleep encloses me
I only dream of you
These dreams are what hold me
When my wishes don't come true
This longing never ends
And will never be satisfied
Until my life is over
And my heart and soul have died. 


Untitled #5

Each tear as it falls
forms the bricks
for my walls

Color them one and all
the pain it won't
ease at all

I will build it 
tall and strong 
bricks won't fall

For as I do recall
my heart
didn't matter at all


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