Why?
Why does life hurt so much,
At times seeming not worth living?
I need a break from reality,
I want to run and hide.
Things keep getting forever worse,
I can't see a better future.
I want to go back a year or so,
When things were so much simpler.
I truly wish for better days,
Or at least a ray of hope.
I need someone to spur me on,
And never let me go.
I have a void I need to fill,
Deep within my soul.
I know not what's going on,
All I feel is fear.
I need a place to run and hide,
I need a place to cry,
I need a place where order rules,
In all aspects of life
Inside me turmoil reigns,
I feel I have no control.
Inside I just want to cry,
Outside I keep my cool.
My world is crashing down around me,
My sanity's at brink.
My heart's been shattered a million times,
Pain ripping through my soul.
Things are quickly gaining speed,
Spinning out of control.
My confusion seems to have no end,
It truly knows no bounds.
The fear I feel is new to me,
I can't keep it in check.
It threatens to bring me down,
How far I am not sure.
I need something to hang on to.
Before I'm consumed.
I know I'm slowly slipping from myself,
For the madness I need a cure.
The madness is connected,
To the void in my soul.
If I don't find a cure for this,
It will surely be my end.
I feel myself cracking already,
Underneath the strain.
I can no longer reinforce myself,
With a fire within.
Time is slowly ebbing on,
But everything is flying by,
Something is completely wrong,
I am not sure what.
The certainty of this fact,
Has now become a constant,
It just helps to expand my void,
Each day a little more.
I need to find a peace,
Or passion to fill my void.
So for now I search,
For that peace or passion that my soul yearns for.
An escape from reality,
For a mere fraction of my life.
So for now I'll stand and face,
My fear and my strife.
