trying not to break
but i'm so tired of this deceit
every time i try to make myself
get back up on my feet
all i ever think about is this
all the tiring time between
and how
trying to put my trust in you
just takes so much out of me

i take everything from the inside
and throw it all away
cause i swear / for the last time
i won't trust myself with you

tension is building inside
steadily
everyone feels so far away from me
heavy thoughts forcing their way
out of me

i won't trust myself with you
i won't waste myself on you
waste myself on you
you