This is where I'm going to express my thoughts through the mind of a man with ADHD...
What can one do when he feels so sad and downtrodden? ...when he feels like there is nothing else to try because he's already tried everything he can think of? I've tried everything I can think of, and I can't get anywhere. I'm stuck in the same place I was with no way out in the immediate future. All I can do is feel sorry for myself. Trying to make the other person see his ways, trying to change people for the better...; it can't happen unless that other person wants to see and wants change. But, without will, there's no way. I feel like a chew toy, having my emotions toyed with. One minute they're all over you, the next they want nothing to do with you and want to move on to the next best thing. So, I try to make myself feel better by going out and seeing if I can enjoy the rest of the world, but I can't because I'm just a pauper with tuppence to his name. All, the lies and the promises that have been told to me eat at me like a flesh eating bacteria. They move up so quickly, and they are difficult to recover from totally. I can't wait for the day I'm totally independent. I won't have to deal with issues that aren't mine. (July 17, 2002)
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