Okkk this is taking ALOT of guts to put these up here lol why? because these are my PERSONAL reflections on life and emotions and such.. so PLEAAAAAAASE lol these are MY FEELINGS AND WORDS dammit and you can't have them!! All poems © 2002 Martee Wonder Sometimes I wonder, Why I'm alive If I will keep on living If I will learn to survive Sometimes I think The worlds not on my side And everyones trying To kill me inside Endlessly they taunt me They abuse me with their words Take my biggest fears and faults And use them And it hurts Other times I think I'm going to be okay Life will carry on And I'll get them back Someday.. Life I've been pushed around And then let down I've been shoved away And often lead a-stray I've had my high points And my low points too But I've never been this hopeless I've never thought what life can do I used to have my faith But then it blew away And when I get close to it Another wind takes it from me My worlds been breaking down I pick the pieces off the ground But then an earthquake comes And turns those pieces into crumbs My life was picking up I was turning it around But then it changed the pace And spun me deep into the ground I tried to believe again That I could make this go away But my hope's long been gone Disappeared without a trace Everyday is like a war I never win Every second I feel my soul is giving in Life is delicate With the likeness of a rose You can get caught up in the beauty And never realize the pain it holds Life is like a dream With a nightmare every day You get caught up in the fear And your life is washed away *Perfect?* I may not have the average waist the perfect face the most beautiful hair I may not walk with my hips or have the poutiest lips or laugh as soft as the air I may not be your picture perfect dream of a beauty queen all plastic and polished up I may not make the boys drool at my highschool but at least i have my thoughts Believe Believe that love is understanding A heart can never lie Believe that people are forgiving And spirits never die Believe that friends are always honest Never stabbing you behind Believe that love can keep a promise And memories are time Believe that words can inspire And you control your mind Believe that life is never ending If you have the will to survive Believe a song can help you mending When you think you've lost your light Hold on to what you believe in Believe what you believe In the end all that matters Is if you believe in me Fate I have a past that wasnt easy I look back on a once broken heart Recalling tears that were never ending I just don't know quite where to start The only thing I could trust in Was that someone had a plan For all the pain that I was feeling One Day I'd be set free And then from nowhere came the answer A reason for what I'd been through The clouds cleared away for a sunnier day And fate brought me to you Why? Can't you see that I'm scared? Can't you see that I need you? 'Cause baby your my air And I need to breathe you Don't you see that I'm lonely? Don't you see that I'm afraid? 'Cause baby your my courage And I need you to be brave Why wont you put your arms around me? Why wont you make it all okay? 'Cause baby your my saviour And I'm waiting to be saved. ~Spiderman has a New Sweater~ A smile lights your face and briefly I'm alive I rest against your soft embrace and I know I will survive Your strength runs through me like the blood inside my veins you whisper to me and it eases all my pain your lips touch mine and the world just melts away our tongues entwine and time stops ticking for the day I feel your hands on my back and I forget about my problems I look into your eyes and my soul no longer falters I feel your heartbeat ;) and I'm no longer sad or lonely I feel your love surround me and this fight no longer owns me you give me strength with all your faith you give me life with your embrace you make me whole with all your love without you i'd be lost without you i'd be gone Battered Drown me in your sorrows I could suffocate you with mine Punch me with your anger Slap me with your lies Push me down with your frustration Pull my hair with your despise Tear some flesh with all that hurts you Make some bruises with your saddened eyes Take your anger out on me Because I'm just a girl I'm something to blame For all your pain Another battered woman In the world Boy So you fooled me again What else is new I had my heart sewen on my sleeve And you ripped it into two I should have been more wise I should have tried to see That you were just another boy Waiting to use me So I'm broken again What's different about that? You wanted my best friend And now when I look back I can see it so clearly All the signs were there But I was blinded by my feelings Even though you didn't care Your ignorance amazes me But your smile still makes me melt How can it be That your my heaven And your putting me through hell *1 Am heartbreak* I should have trusted my insticts I should have listened to my gut Now my heart which I have trusted Is bruised and torn apart Words too carelessly thrown together Like a jagged knife Have ripped apart my beating chambers And cut away my life The pain I feel Is so consuming That every breath is like a chore A simple job that I no longer Feel the need to do anymore You were everything to me You saved me so many times But now like everything else, I lose Your love is no longer mine So I will go on bleeding From the pieces of my heart I never will stop loving you Even though you broke my heart ~~Confused~~ You tell me you never meant to hurt me You say it hurts you to see me cry One day you say you don't love me The next you wonder why And then you spin my life around And say those 3 words again The words you said you didnt feel anymore And I'm weak so I give in I want to believe so badly That your heart belongs to me But you keep changing your mind Its quiet easy to see That you don't really love me Your just a bit confused But everytime you say it It hurts me, I feel used Because when I reply And say I love you back I mean it from the bottom of my heart The one your turning black.. All Poems © 2002 Martee Home Email: fake_plastic_superhero@hotmail.com
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