Chapter 31

I quickly broke myself away from him. "What are you talking about?" I said it like I didn't have a clue.

"Here's what I know: I know that you and Chris were dating, I know that you didn't tell me, and I know that I don't care about that." He whispered, still so close to me I could feel his breath on my neck.

"Jimmy, I might get back together with Chris." WHAT? What did I just say? I realized my heart was doing all it could to keep Jimmy away from me. But why?

"What?"

"I--" I stumbled on my words. "I'm sick of waiting for the right person to come along, Jim." I raised my voice.

"I'm right here, Cat!!" He said, looking like he would throw a fit.

"Your too late." I answered sternly.

We were silenced for a second. "Cathy, you don't love Chris." He said softly. "I know it for a fact you don't. Why would you want to run around in circles with him if you're always gonna end up in the same damn spot? He can't take you anywhere, Cat. He can't."

"And you can?"

"Why can't we be together? You don't hate me. Why can't we just try to make it work?" He was right. And I hated him for it. "Look, I think about you a lot. Sometimes, I feel like I love you." Oh, God. "And it's the saddest fucking thing in the world when you love someone who doesn't love you."

I sighed. "Jimmy, you're my best friend. I can't be with you." With that, I turned away, walking to the door, realizing I wanted to be with him. He took my hand and brought me face to face with him, our noses barely touching.

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