07/09/04 Chris Rules!!!

Me

1/8/03

            I am me, me is I, and I am Chris Lehman. Not much can be put into writing to gauge a person, it’s more of how you feel about the person rather than what you think. Especially when trying to figure out what makes you who you are and when engaged in the situation face to face people tend to be cynical and bitter about themselves

. In reality these people are good, honest, hard-working citizens. I feel that I am special, because I am Chris Lehman, I am me, and me is I.

            Many people have a rough exterior. I am no exception to this I am not magazine cover or movie material and I like it that way. But on my outside I’m cold, and bitter, opinionated. My exposing side is often referred to as pessimistic and radical. My exterior expresses realism in a world of idealism. Waking up in the morning and getting ready for school, I don’t feel the need to impress people, love me or hate me – doesn’t matter to me. On the outside it’s hard to get in like molten lava cooled to make an impermeable shield. You don’t need in, and I don’t want you in. On the exterior of my interior I’m very cold like bare finger tips to dry ice. On the outside I don’t give a shit. That’s me, not the real me, but the only me you’ll ever know.

            Every single person has and interior immensely softer that their exterior, well I do anyway because that’s how I am. On my inside I’m warm, warm like a mid spring day. My interior is decorated nicely, I’m funny, I’m caring, and I’m loving. On the inside I’m still a realist. On the interior of my exterior I care, not about everything, but about people. Deep inside of me I’m shy and timid, very quiet. When I do warm up to a person, I’m like a book read me, and then you know me. When I’m with the girl that I love is when I am happiest, without my friends is when I’m saddest. This is me, not the me you will ever know, but the me those who are lucky enough will know.

            I don’t have an interior and an exterior that are widely different on purpose. It’s the way I am, I have no control over that, this is the way I am, and I like it this way. I don’t care to please those of you that only know my exterior, All that matters to me is who I let know the inside, those people are my friends and they love me for me. This is the way I like it, and this is the way it is, this is me and who I am.