Initially, I wanted to be alone. I didn’t trust anyone. I wanted to pretend it wasn’t really happening. I isolated myself from friends. When I moved to Texas, I interacted with family only. I had no friends. Stayed at home. Did not work for nine months in 1984. I began work again in January 1985 and started to socialize with co-workers. Started to date. Began a daily exercise program. Synthetic voices, burning, interactive thought communication began in the latter part of 1985. I was laid off from employment. I completely shut down. I discontinued exercising. Did not work again for a year. My social interaction was limited to family and girl friend. Began work in 1986. Social interaction was still limited to family. I started to attend church on a regular basis. In 1987, I began an exercise regimen which continues to date. I made friends at the gym but our interaction was restricted to the gym. In 1989, I became a regular member of the church I still attend. I got involved in church activities and developed friendships. I began to talk and pray about this experience. I also began to confront this problem by writing congressman, government and civil rights agencies. Almost all of social interaction evolved around the church. This continued until July of 1993. The combined female synthetic voices and sleep deprivation became intense. At the same time, a new girl friend dumped me suddenly. She and her new companion were both members of the gym and the church I attended. She flaunted this new relationship. My emotions were exacerbated and manipulated. I found it difficult to cope. Both events caused me to withdraw from church involvement and limited my exercise regimen. I began seeing a therapist in 1994. The therapist and my primary care physician were the first persons I’d shared everything about this experience. It was a relief. Unfortunately, he died in 1995 of heart failure. She died in 1997 in an automobile accident. I have not been able to develop a trusting relationship with a medical professional since. Since November of 1997, I’ve been communicating with other victims on the Internet. I have been able to work and maintain a few close friendships.
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