Because I have traveled this road, I feel quite qualified to describe it for you - especially
those of you who have never been there. I can do this now because of the grace of God.
He has brought me from the “pit of hell” and set me on firm ground. When my ground
begins to shake again, I can hang onto HIm for dear life, and know He will never desert
me.
Let me describe to you the feelings that enveloped me as I lived in that “pit.” Bear in
mind, I do not have these feelings now, but they are very vivid to me from the past- so I
will describe them as I felt them.
Thoughts that filled my mind- aka satan's lies
Lie #1 : It doesn’t matter what I do - I will never be able to measure up. There is
nothing I can do that is sufficient or even pleasing. I can try my hardest, and I will still
fail.
Lie# 2: I would be better off dead. And so would everyone else in my life.
Lie#3 : I am worthless and taking up unneccesary space and time.
Lie#4 : I am optional. There is no one that I am a vital person to- I’m easily
replaced and forgotten.
Lie#5 : The only reason people are nice to me is they feel sorry for me. They would
rather they didn’t have to deal with me. I bother them.
Lie#6: I don’t have a purpose.
Lie#7: I could not talk to anyone for weeks- and they would never notice. And if
they did, they would be glad.
Lie#8: I hurt so bad I cannot think straight. I am probably insane. Probably
everything I see isn’t even real. I bet if I was normal, nothing would look like it does
now.
Lie#9: I want to go to sleep and never wake up. I wish I could do that and succeed.
But if I took something to try and kill myself, I’d probably fail at that and end up a
vegetable. My mind would be awake but I wouldnt be able todo anything. I’d be even
more useless than I am now.
Lie#10: God is unhappy with the way I turned out. He wanted me to be different,
but I messed up. He is angry at and disappointed in me.
Lie#11: God will punish me for being such a failure by making my life long,
miserable and lonely.
Lie#12: No one even cares that I hurt-so there’s no use telling them. They will try
and talk me out of it.
Lie#13: At least if I’m hurting, I know I’m alive. Because when I finally die, I will
get to quit hurting. I will just disappear. That’s what I want to do - is disappear.
Lie#14: Everyone who says they love me is a liar.
Lie#15: God cannot love me, so neither can anyone else.
Lie#16: If __________ doesn't love me, life is not worth living, And he/she will
never love me. I would give my life for them and they wouldn’t even care. I love and no
one will love me back.
Lie#17: I am too afraid to keep living!
As I write these things, tears stream down my face, because I know these are very real
feelings for someone else right now. I also know that nothing anyone says to them will
make any difference. Everything is seen through terribly distorted vision.
Satan, the joy stealer, the deceiver, the liar, fills the mind with so much garbage, that
nothing human can slip in.
That is why it is so imperative that we are praying constantly for others! Had I not had a
prayer warrior on my side, praying fervently for me through all I put him through, I
would
not be here today. He and his wife put up with months of my distorted vision- repulsed
even by their attempts at loving me. They were tormented by satan in his attempt to get
them out of my life- yet they persevered.
They helped me see the truth where I saw only lies. They prayed for every lie I believed,
and one by one, they were replaced with the truth. In an attempt to teach you how to pray
for these poor souls who are tormented by depression, I will “attack” each of these lies
one by one. Yes, depression is also a physical thing- and I strongly urge people in this
deep of depression to seek medical help. The only problem is- in that state of mind, you
take any attempt at help as an attack! Depression depletes the body of neurotransmitters
in the brain- and thinking becomes faulty. Antidepressants are nothing more than a
replacement neurotransmitter. It’s like slowly filling up an empty gas tank while the car is
running. It will help...but it takes a while. It’s important to understand that these are not
mind-altering drugs!
The most important thing is to replace these lies of satan's with the truth of God's love. Whether for yourself, or for others, pray that each of these lies leave and immediately be replaced with God's truth.
Accepting God's love is a difficult step for someone deep in depression- and satan will help them fight it every step of the way. As an intercessor for others, it is imperative that you do not give up the fight...and keep praying for God's love to overwhelm them!
If it's yourself you are seeking help, please find yourself an intercessor prayer partner.
Use the scriptures to replace the lies satan is spreading:
