I woke up not recognizing my surroundings. I was in some sort of bed and that's all I knew. Next to me in what looked like very uncomfortable chairs were Brian, AJ, Kevin, Leighanne, Amanda, Kristen, and Howie...they were all asleep. Where was NIck? Where was I? Should I be dead by now? The door opened and in walked Nick. He looked horrible. He was carrying a cup of coffee and talking to himself. "Nick?" I croaked out. He suddenly looked up and broke into a smile.
"YOU'RE AWAKE!!" He yelled waking the others in the room. "Nick what's your promblem?" Aj mumbled but NIck ignored him and walked towards me and enveloped me a in a hug. He was crying I could tell. "Ci, why'd you do that?? Don't ever do that to me again. You had me soo scared." I started crying as well and the other guys took this as their cue to leave and quietly exited out trying to find a doctor. "I don't know Nick. I just had to." He pulled away and looked into my eyes. "No you didn't Ci. You may think that no one likes you but that's untrue. Me, the guys, the girls, your brother, Janine, her mom, Carlie and her family, have all been living in this hospital for three days just waiting for you to wake up. We love you Ci, I love you Ci. Just promise me you'll never do this again." I looked into his eyes and noticed that for once in my life, I actually felt love. I was so incredibly happy that Nick tried to save me because if he hadn't then I wouldn't have gotten to live my life. "Thank you so much Nick. I love you." 'I love you too." And we truly meant it. No, it wasn't the lover's love. It was a stronger love. A love that no one could break apart because it was so strong. Nick loved me and I could really feel it this time. Not one of those loves where you aren't sure. Of course, he still had ManDUH but that didn't matter to me because even if they broke apart, Nick and I would still be together. It was a friendship that no one could break apart and for once in my life, I felt happy again.
The door opened and in walked Carlie. She was crying I could tell and I knew it would be a long talk. Nick knew what I was thinking and stood up. He kissed my forehead "Good luck Ci." He nodded at Carlie and then walked out. Carlie walked up to me and sat down. As soon as she sat down I just couldn't help it. I started crying. In all the years that Carlie and I had been friends, I had never cried in front of her. She gave me a hug and we just started bawling together. "I'm so sorry Ci. I never knew you felt this way. If only you would have told me then this all could have been prevented." I shook my head "No Carlie, it wouldn't. I would have tried to kill myself either way. I've always felt unloved it just hurt when I got that vibe from you. You were my best Friend Carlie, and it hurt to not have you around." "It'll never happen again I promise. I'll cancel dates with my boyfriends or not go to my friend's houses if you want to do something ok?" "No Carlie, don't cancel anything for me. Just promise me that when I need you you'll be there sometimes ok?" She nodded.
The door opened once again and in walked Kevin. He looked so terrible. Probably as bad as Nick. Carlie knew that Kevin and I would want to talk so she stood up and left. Kevin came over and sat down. "Kevin, before you start I just want to say that I"m sorry. I know that you're going to ask me how I could do this, why, and make me promise to never do it again but the thing is is that I'm kind of glad that I did it because it's given me a whole new perspective upon life." Kevin just took me in his arms and we both started crying. "well, since you now have a whole new perspective on life, could you promise me you'll never do this again?? I'll miss having my little sister around to bug." I giggled like I use to when I was about five and gave Kevin a hug "I promise Kevy, never again." He kissed my forehead and then stood. "Well, as much as I'd love to stay with you, there are others waiting to talk to you so I'm going to let them have their time." I nodded and he walked out now bringing in Leighanne and Amanda.
"Hey girl, how ya doin?" I smiled "Fine. I don't feel that good but I'm sure that will go away." They came over and sat down. "So, what have you guys been doing?" I asked "Well, we've been sitting, and sleeping, and eating. Just waiting for you to wake up. We met your friend Carlie and I duno if it was just me or if she looked like she was going to kill me!" I laughed. "She's never really liked you. Amanda is the only lucky girlfriend of the BSB's, cause I've wanted to kill Mandy as well." We all laughed "Well, I'm sure we've all wanted to kill Mandy at one time or another." WE laughed again. "Amanda is the only lucky one cause no one wants her freaky man." Leighanne said and Amanda got a joking mad look on her face "Hey, my bone is hott thank you very much." "Sure he is Amanda." We laughed again. The door opened and the guys all walked in "Well, I guess we better go. My freaky boyfriend is here." We laughed "It's good to see you awake Ciati." Leighanne said before they left the room.
"Well, you must be visitored-out." Brian said "Nah, not really. It makes me feel special and all giddy inside." They all came over and gave me a hug "It's good to see you awake Ciati. Nick was really worried." I mocked hurt "Oh I see how it is, you guys don't care." I pretended to choke back tears while they all laughed at me "Nah, we love ya girl." I put my hands on my hips "Good, you better!" The door opened one last time and Nick came in once again. He looked a lot better than he did the last time that he walked through the doors. "Guys, the doctors said that visiting hours are over and we need to let Ci get some sleep." "What? I haven't slept enough these past three days?" I joked and the guys all left. NIck walked over to me and kissed my forehead "Night Ci." "Night Nick." he looked over at a radio in the room "Man, it's boring in here, mind if I turn the radio on?" I shook my head and he walked over and turned it on. He was about to leave "Nick." He turned around and looked at me "Thanks." He smiled "No problem Ci. Just go to sleep. OK?" I nodded and he walked out.
I couldn't get to sleep. I hurt too much. I know I told them all I felt fine but I was having major chest pains and stomach pains. I felt like I was going to throw up but then I felt too weak to throw up. I didn't know which one. If I threw up, I felt like I was going to throw up everything I had ate in my whole life. Finally at around 7:00 in the morning, I fell into a peaceful, pitch darkness. Where no one existed but me.
Nick walked into the room whistling. He felt great because he had actually slept the whole night. He looked towards the bed where Ciati was. She was very pale and didn't look lifelike. He noticed a buzzing sound and looked towards the moniter. Where a straight line line buzzed along with a little whirring noise. "I NEED A DOCTOR!!" He yelled and then everyone rushed into the room. The doctors came rushing in and tried to revive her. Leighanne, Amanda, the guys, Kevin, Janine, and Carlie all rushed in as well and watched the doctors.
They finally stopped and the doctor sadly looked up at everyone and shook his head. They all burst out crying. "NOOO!!!" Nick yelled. "Time of death, 8:15" The doctor said and then pulled the plug. "Come on lets go." Brian and Aj said to Amanda and Leighanne and the four of them walked out of the room crying. Kevin and Howie then left along with Carlie, Kevin and Janine. Nick sat there staring at Ciati. "Why Ciati? Why did you have to do that??" He asked over and over but then walked towards the door. He opened it and then looked back at Ciati, laying, so lifeless.
"Goodbye Ci, I love you." He whispered before leaving the room. The room was total darkness. Ciati's lifeless body lay the room was silent except for the faint music playing from the radio
I won't see your smile
And I wont hear you laugh anymore
Everynight, i wont see you walk through that door
Time wasnt on your side
It isn't right
Can't say i love it's too late to tell you
But i really need you to know
No, I'll never forget you
I'll never let you out of my heart
Oh,you will always be here with me
I'll hold onto the memories baby
Baby, can you hear me
Where ever you may be tonight
Oh no, are you near me
I need you to be by my side
Cause i never said gooybe
It isn't right
I shoulda said i love you
Why didnt' i just tell you
God knows i need you to know
No, I'll never forget you
I'll never let you out of my heart
Oh, you will always be here with me
I'll hold onto the memories baby
Somewhere, I know you'll be with me
Someday, in another time
Right now you're gone
It isn't fair but it's the way
I'll never leave you behind
No, I'll never forget you
I'll never let you out of my heart
Oh, you will always be here with me
I'll hold onto the memories baby
Oh, you will always be dear to me, baby
No, I'll never forget you
I'll never let you out of my heart
Oh, you will always be here with me
I'll hold onto the memories baby
No, I'll never forget you
I'll never let you out of my heart
Oh, you will always be here with me
I'll hold onto the memories baby
*THE END*
Musical credits go to Mariah Carey and Babyface, "Never Forget You" off the Musicbox cd. Copyright..sometime a while ago (haha..i don't feel like looking it up..sorry...it wasn't professional but i dont care)
