Before I was a Mom
I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.
I slept as late as I wanted
And never worried about how late I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.
I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to lullabies.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
I had never been puked on
Pooped on, peed on, Spit on, chewed on
Or pinched by tiny fingers.
I had complete control of my mind
My thoughts, my body.
I slept all night.
I never held down a screaming child
So that doctors could do tests or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
When I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
Could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
Could make me feel so important.
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
Every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love
The heartache, and the wonderfulment
Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.