That's How It Goes

 
I don’t know what I’m thinking 
My mind is jumbled and confused
And I’m not sure on what to do
I feel like my hearts unused

I look around and I am lost
My heart aches, swells, and burns
And for that there’s no remedy
I don’t know where to turn

It’s funny how things work
In this life I call my own
Where are the directions?
What have I been shown?

I laugh at the direction I move
Up or down, left or right
I’m not sure where I am
Can’t tell if its day or night

Where do I fit in to this word?
Do I have a place?
Am I allowed to be happy?
Can you see it on my face?

The pain, the hurt, the loneliness?
They all are there in little parts
Where do I find the remedy?
Is it between our hearts?

I always jump ahead of myself
I always move to fast
Can I still accomplish my goals?
Would it ever last?

All these things I think in earnest
With every piece of my heart
Why am I tormented so?
Why did I even start?

I feel the warmth within you
But the refusal to act upon
Tears away my inside
Am I just a pawn?

That’s how it goes I guess
I guess we were meant to be apart
But don’t try to explain it to me
Try to explain it to my heart

I don’t think there was anything
Anything more that I could do
I tried to be myself
I tried to be the person for you

I tried to be what you wanted
I tired to be the best
You make me feel well inside
Like taking weight off my chest

But I guess what I felt was wrong
I guess it was a mistake
You made me feel like I was real
I don’t want to be a fake

But if my feelings are not returned
If I’m alone in my thinking 
I guess I should drop it
My hope is slowly sinking

Maybe it’s for the better
For us to go on with out one another
I should look at the bright side
I’m sure there is some other

Someone else to make me feel
The way you did inside
Why don’t I feel that this is the answer?
Like a part of me has died

I still have feelings
For that I will not lie
And after this is said and done
I can’t say I didn’t try

But God knows the best 
He knows the ultimate way
In that I will trust
And I live to see another day.

Info

• Name: Mike
• Age: 18
• State: WI
• Date: 7/05/01
• E-mail adress: GA2WI@aol.com