Merry Christmas
by Heeroine Yuy
Heero walked the grey streets, ducked away in his coat. Tonight it
was Christmas Eve and it was cold. Muddy snow covered the sidewalks
and the streets. It was getting dark already and watery snow was
falling from the heavy clouded sky. He felt miserable, he was cold,
tired and unhappy. Why had he broken up with Duo again? Because he
wanted his freedom? Bullshit, and he knew it! He missed the hyper
kinetic idiot so much, more than he had thought he would. You never
know what you're missing until it's gone… He heaved a sigh, sniffing
his nose. He had caught a cold somehow, or was that just because he
hadn't eaten for the last two days because he suffered under Duo's
absence? He hoped the first one, but he couldn't fool himself in such
away and knew well enough that it was the second reason. Suddenly, he
heard a few notes coming from a slightly opened window. He pricked up
his ears and immediately recognized the song.
"Amazing Kiss", he let the words escaped his lips.
He had difficulty to keep his tears back, why did he have to hear
this song? It reminded him too much of Duo… After all, it was his
favourite song. The words began playing in his head and memories
crept back…
*Tell me what you're dreaming bout tonight
I never want to let you go
The lips that kissed my lashes and your sleepy smile
Sinking into the darkest night
A breezeless flow in the afterglow
You and me together we could go that extra mile*
Heero thought about the last night they had spent together. Sweet
kisses and tender caresses, both at ease and so in love… What had
changed that all so sudden? He had thought they would never split up,
they seemed destined to be together. But the unthinkable had happened
and actually, it had left Heero shattered.
*Sweet nothings and time
Only you and the rhyme
Dizzy vertigo round and round as we go
Amazing Kiss Shining stars and I'll miss
The flame that used to be ours, ours alone*
He stopped in his tracks and looked at the grey sky that was crying
snowflakes. It was Christmas Eve and Heero had nowhere to go than to
go home. Tonight, he would be all alone… Trowa and Quatre were
celebrating together and so were Treize and Wu Fei. A tear made his
way down Heero's cheek. Where was the flame that used to make him
feel warm and fuzzy inside? Their flame… and theirs alone… He
wondered where Duo was right now…
…
…
Duo was sitting at the bar, ordering one drink after another. It was
Christmas Eve and he was sitting in the `Sanc', a bar where he and
Heero used to go. It was run by Milliardo and Relena Peacecraft. The
boy had been here for hours now, getting himself drunk. He and Heero
had broke up and now he felt absolutely miserable. Christmas Eve and
he had nowhere to go. Trowa and Quatre were celebrating on their own,
so would probably be Wu Fei and Treize too. And he, he sat here, not
nearly drunk, feeling bad and sad because Heero wanted more freedom.
Where did it go wrong between them? He thought they would always be
together, destiny had never looked so perfect before. A tear made it
down his cheek, he didn't wipe it off. The pain inside was tearing
him apart, his heart was bleeding and he didn't know how much longer
he was going to stand it.
Suddenly, he heard a familiar song…
"Amazing Kiss", his lips let the words slip.
He tried not to cry, it reminded him so much of Heero… It was his
favourite song. He tried to blink the tears away when memories came
back to him…
*Cuz we made it happen… our miracle
True and blue oracle
Precious in my love… tu ru tu yeah
I remember…*
To Duo, Heero was everything. Their love had been a blessing for him
which he never wanted to fade or worse, to die. Duo remembered
Heero's unusual tenderness along with the sweet kisses. God, why did
he have to break up? It left Duo in the dark, losing the will to
carry on, completely shattered, just like his heart.
*Amazing Kiss This is only shooting star
The love that used to be ours, I'm in love wow woh
Joy, Affection… our universe
Supernatural whirls
Precious in my love… tu ru tu yeah*
He downed the rest of his iced drink and then stood up. He wasn't
going to stick around all night. To him, life was over and out… Duo
walked outside, shivering as the cold surprised him. He wondered
where the love was, the love he used to possess, the love that made
him go into ecstasy. Suddenly, he stopped and looked at the sky.
Heavy clouds were looking frightening, watery snowflakes falling
down, wetting his shirt and his long, braided hair. He had been
stupid to forget his coat, but he had hoped he would find Heero home
so they could talk a bit. But Heero was out and Duo had ran into the
first bar, to sit there hours of drinking, trying to drown his
worries. A tear rolled down his cheek once more and he wondered where
Heero was…
…
…
Heero was standing on the bridge, his hands on the railing, staring
down the dark hole under him. The icy breeze cut through his bones,
leaving him shaking. The breeze played with dark brown hair, keeping
the bangs from falling in front of his eyes again. He was hesitating,
he couldn't live without Duo and he would beg for a second chance,
but Duo would be too hurt, so he didn't dare to ask him. He had been
at Duo's door, but he was out, leaving him even more desperate. Why
would he stay here? In this earthly vale of tears? If he couldn't
have Duo's love, then he there was no need to stay any longer.
Suddenly, he felt another presence. Heero looked aside…
"Duo?", he softly said to himself.
*Looking for words our brainwaves
Found a way to communicate
Secret sounds that You and I monopolize
The moon reflected on the waves
Moving in time reverberates
Drifting ashore to you deep into your eyes
As I lay awake
Another night of heartbreak
Longing for you Hits me out of the blue*
Duo looked down the bridge, deep black. He was desperate. His hands
took a grip of the railing, slowly stepping on the other side of the
railing. It was a small piece to stand on, but it was possible. He
stretched his arms, leaning somewhat forward, his hands still set on
the iron bar behind him. He stared into the black, hearing the water
stream far beneath him.
He still loved Heero, he needed him to stay alive, but now he had
lost it all. The took a deep breath, closed his eyes for a brief
moment and then let his voice sound through the cold, winter night,
while a flood of tears came from his cobalt blue gaze.
"I still love you, Heero!", he shouted, hearing his own echo sound
through the dark night.
Heero was stunned, he should run over to him, catch him before he was
going to fall off the bridge. He wanted to hold him, comfort him,
apologize to him for being such an asshole…
"Duo!", he called out desperately, tears glittering in his own blue
orbs.
But it was too late… Duo jumped and fell into the cold, dark water
below, being dragged along by the fast current.
"Duo!", the boy called out again, stepping over the railing and
jumping after him.
He didn't care for his own safety, he just had to get Duo! He had to
get him out of the water and fast. He scanned the water in front of
him and when he saw a lifeless figure floating face down, he began
swimming to it as fast as he could.
*Amazing Kiss This is only shooting star
The love that used to be ours, I'm in love wow woh
Joy, Affection… our universe
Supernatural whirls
Precious in my love… tu ru tu yeah*
As he reached him, Heero grabbed the boy's coat and pulled his face
out of the water. Duo was unconscious, but on his lovely face could
still be read the hurt expression and the marks their break-up had
left on him. He pulled him close to his own body, firmly holding him
with one arm, his other arm struggled to keep both of their heads
above the water surface. As the short haired noticed a low hanging
tree branch, he reached for it, able to grab it and hold on tight. He
just hoped the branch would hold both of their weights. Heero began
pulling himself towards the shore, laying Duo down first before
pulling himself to safety. He turned the long braided boy on his
back, quickly checking on his pulse, heartbeat and respiration. His
pulse was weak, but still there, but his respiration had stopped.
"Probably swallowed too much water", Heero muttered as he began mouth-
to-mouth resuscitation.
Two times, stop, another two times…
"Come on, Duo", he sighed.
Another two times…
"Come on, baka, don't you give up on me!", he growled.
Another two times…
"Duo!", he shouted desperately.
He let go of the kid's face, turning away from him and let the tears
run over his face.
"You baka, why did you have to jump?", he sobbed, "I'm so sorry…"
His sobs became louder.
"I'm so sorry, Duo… so sorry…"
A coughing sound made him turn around again. Duo was coughing up
water, Heero crawled over to him to support his back so he could sit
up. The braided boy fluttered his lashes and opened his eyes.
"Heero…", he could barely bring out.
*Tough enough to weather the hands of time
Cuz our dream beams gonna shine on
You and I will come this way again
True blue our destiny
Leaning up against this wall of ice
Never gonna let love fade away
I don't want you to go
So forevermore
Just the way you are…*
Then he saw Heero's tears, it was the first time he saw him cry.
Nobody had ever seen him cry, no one…
"Why did you jump after me?", Duo meekly asked.
"I just had to…", Heero sighed, "Why did you jump?"
"I had to jump, Heero…", Duo's tears began falling down, "I can't
live without your love, I just can't…"
"So can't I, Duo…", Heero agreed, his own tears still rolling down
his cheeks.
*Precious in my love Woh yeah yeah… yah
Just the way you are…
Precious in my love Woh yeah yeah… yah
Just the way you are…*
"I can't live without you by my side, Duo, I never have… I just
didn't realize it until you were gone… I was afraid to come back,
begging like a kid, showing my weakness. But that's not my weakness,
Duo, my pride is my weakness. It was my pride that did this to you,
it made me thing I didn't need you, but I do, Duo, I really do…"
*Amazing Kiss Shinish stars and I'll miss
The flame that used to be our, ours alone*
"I miss what we had, Duo, I didn't realize how much it meant to me
until you weren't there anymore…"
*Amazing Kiss This is only shooting star
The love that used to be ours, I'm in love wow who
Joy, Affection… our universe
Supernatural whirls
Precious in my love… tu ru tu yeah*
"God, I just missed YOU… If I could turn back time, I would never let
you go… I loved you, I still do and I will always do… I just want you
to know that…", Heero sobbed, burying his face in his dirty
hands, "Ai shiteru, Duo…"
*Amazing Kiss Sprinkled pieces of bliss
Promises that we'll be forevermore
In the Milky Way I guess it's no more
Don't you remember our vow, oh
Precious in my love… tu ru tu yeah
I remember…*
Duo softly smiled, leaning his head back against Heero's chest,
closing his eyes.
"I love you too, Heero, I always have and I always will, I won't
break this vow we've made… please, Heero, just take me home now…", he
whispered, before placing a light kiss in the boy's neck.
After all, Christmas was the time to forgive…
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