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~* My Angel Mother *~ |
| This page is dedicated to my mother...i lost my mom in April of 1997 so almost 3yrs now...The song that reminds me most about my mom was written |
| by Dolly Parton...its called 'AN EAGLE WHEN SHE FLIES'...golly this song has reminded me of my mom for a longtime now but especially towards |
| the end of her life, there’s a part that goes something like this...she’s a sparrow, when she’s broken but she’s an eagle when she flies... |
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| Those 2 lines really describe my mom, I guess to help all of you know what type of a woman my mom was I would have to say that even though |
| my mom knew for the last 5 months of her life that she was dying and there was no hope, she never stopped believing in a miracle--A miracle for |
| some seemed impossible to achieve but for my mom...She knew that if it was meant to be--It Would Be...I took care of my mom the last 3 weeks of |
| her life and I will never exchange those memories for all the gold in all the world...the last time I spoke with my mom (April 18th) at 4am, *tears* |
| golly this is so much harder than I thought it would be, anyway the last time I spoke with my mom, she told me something that surprised me, (you |
| see she had been doing very good, getting stronger and even in less pain day by day...so...what she said to me that morning really took me totally |
| by surprise) she said "Ya know I'm going home"...this was the 1st time since she was diagnosed that she ever talked like she wasn't going to make |
it...When I realized that my mom was talking about dying I said "Mom even well people have there days where they don’t feel quite up to par."...and... |
| with that she reached her hand out and touched my cheek and said 'I Love You' then she drifted off to sleep, by 7 AM that same morning---A mere 3 hrs. |
| later---I went to check on my Mom and she was gone---No not "Home" as she called it...but...In between here and there, she had slipped into a coma, |
they say before someone is physically ready to go onto the next plain, they have to be mentally ready as well…
Little did I know at that time that my moms life here on earth would soon be only a memory...A memory of a woman that was full of life and so much to give was soon---very soon---going to be over...I was told that in a coma their hearing becomes more sensitive and they can hear the littlest sound, its almost like the ears take over where their other senses fail, just like a blind man whos hearing is very much intensified because he doesn't have the use of his eyes anymore...Such as with the comatose patient...My mom passed away @ 1:20pm, Saturday the 19th of April, 1999...My sister Diana and I were by her bedside when she decided to go home, where she belonged once again beside my Dad and my brother Mike, which both had died yrs. earlier... |
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~* Letter to My Mom *~ My Dearest Mother, I never took the time out whilst you were alive to tell you how truly greatful I was and always will be to you for the things that you have taught me along the road of life *tears*...You were an inspiration to me in more ways than you ever knew---even in death you continue to be my guiding light... Mom you have to be the bravest person that I know to have gone through the last days of your life knowing there was 'no hope'...But...somehow always believing in a miracle up until the last day... Mom if by chance your watching over me from above and reading these pages---Iam truly sorry for all the pain I caused you in your life...I know when I was growing up we never got along and |
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like cats and dogs and it seemed that it was Dad that always brought the 2 of us back
together again... Mom I really wish that I had told you that 'I Loved You' that day *tears*...and...told you what an inspiration you had been to me throughout my life...I truely miss you more than I ever thought I would...n Mom why is it that when we lose someone it's always the things that we didn't 'SAY' or 'DO'---but should have---That we remember, and most of all regret?... The lessons you taught me mom are more valuable than ever, I didn’t put them to use while you were alive, but I can assure you it's because of 'Your Love' and 'Your Belief' in me that definately does help me to get through each day... I guess I always took you for granted, as most kids do...Most of all I always thought that you and Daddy would be around forever, but unfortunately reality comes crashing down and then you come to the relization that people aren't Immortal...Not even your parents *tears*... Mom I miss you and love you very, very much...
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| *biggest mom hugs 4-ever* |
| ~* becca *~ |
