[02 Jun 2006 | Friday]

 

la de da!

Current mood: accomplished

woot i am in my new apartment & it rawks!

i have most of my stuff in... cept the entertainment stand and dresser and hutch so let me know if anyone is willing to help move the last bits.

emily and i moved my freaking HUGE bed last night but i was so happy to be able to sleep in it.

i am going to spend some time with jensie today cleaning and then getting some supper hopefully... i miss him and my heifer and napolean already!!

ho hum my fitted sheet is too small and i am thinking my bed is larger than i thought... oh well

emily and i hung out with chad, kasey, matt and mike last night it was so funny they are making a new video. its really great!

i hope we can have our housewarming party soon... i will be sure to post what day and time when i know more.

i need to pay rent lol i freaking got it out of the atm last night and now the guy isnt there... bah.

yayness! everyone you can call me at the same old number... 961-1981!!!

i live on campus right on the hill so give me a call and stop by if you want to!!

bah i start work sunday morning lol...

 

 

[30 May 2006 | Tuesday]

 

like what comes out of my peehole, pizzaman!

Current mood: happy

lol chad pieper and his one liners...

my body of work, so to speak is booming! woot!

ask about mandy kane's porno titles coming soon to a tv near you!

 

i can't wait to move and start work and begin my new awesome life!!!

 

 

[24 May 2006 | Wednesday]

 

x rated!

Current mood: damn sexy!!!

ok not really just letting you all know i am going to try to coordinate a time for xmen that we all can make...

ok i am thinking we should all get tickets tomorrow (thurs) and shoot for the 5:05 showing as it is later but also a matinee and most people can go then. sorry emily i will MISS YOU!

and so lets see how that works out....

ok and i want to do something saturday just to hang out and relax with the people i care about... you can come too, lol.

so let me know. sami will be in town and she thinks that she needs to be entertained... so yah we will let her believe that!

ho hum iowa city was fun and the davinci code was great. i had a fun vaction.

vacation time brothers.. vactation time!!

woot i am full of energy... i walked to the library today.

but yes everyone please let me know if xmen at 5:05 is ok... i think it is on the big screen so it should be great!

love ya   bang yur dead!

 

 

[22 May 2006 | Monday]

 

moving on

Current mood: hopeful

i am so excited about moving into my new place, even if i can't take my kitty (i cried for like 20 mins after finding that out) i will make jens let me visit at least once a week lol.

let's see... sami is moving back, YAYNESS and in with katie, angie and lisa who are all very nice girls... ok some are more interesting than nice lol, you know who i mean! but it will be so kewl... she is also learning to drive so that is even more awesome. i hope it's what she really wants to do... you know but i think you have to make the best of any situation and sami has always been good at that.

so anyway i am extremely happy and in a great mood. i am going down to iowa city tonight with angie so we can see the davinci code (cuz we missed it last night) and i think i am going to go to xmen on friday with jensie and sami... possibly getting chad to go with us.

sami and i have talked about this chad situation and have decided that nothing will come of it but it is still fun to pretend lol. and it is fun to have a crush i feel like i am in middle school again!

my finances are not what they should be but i am making it through just fine... as soon as i start my job i should be set.... i am thinking that 20ish hours is a little too few for summer but 17 is great for fall because i am taking 15 credits and i want to do well in school, hence me being there and paying money to take classes hehe.

yeah i am a little upset at davey, since he never calls me or wants to hang out anymore and with this sentance we shall see if he even takes time to read about my life... blah.

i can't wait for kate to return... muahha! we shall have a homecoming-visiting-mandy party!!! woot!

ho hum. i am bummed that my mum is such a loser... i should be used to it by now eh? she just keeps asking me for help and i am trying to help myself!

but anyway everyone let me know what is going on and if anyone is free the 1st-3rd i will be moving and so will emily and jens so we all could use the extra help!

oh on a sidenote, we went to mike's the other night to party with teaya, ashley and derrick it was really fun and we learned the greatest game ever! moew...  hehe.

now my tummy is grumbling! oh btw i start work on the 4th and i have training this thursday!!! woot!!!

 

 

[14 May 2006 | Sunday]

 

kiss kiss fuck fuck

Current mood: confused

no idea on the title actually, sorry. this is a rant about chad so if you don't want to read it or if it is your relative... lol emily i suggest reading something else...

ho hum i am in a sad state... i am in... lust/er luv? i dunno what to call it. basically i am infatuated with chad. *sigh* and it isn't as though he doesn't give me the time of day it's just ... he's not as keen to see me as i am him most often but we talk and hang out and have fun together with other people i mean.

grr.

i havn't felt this silly since middle school. here i am once again reaching out for the unattinable person and as always they are very nice about it, so nice i feel bad for even being upset!

i can't help it i just melt when he sings, i can feel his emotion through his voice and it intices me, moreso than any possibly more attractive guy. he is mysterious, i frequently have no idea what is going on in his head. he is so sexy i can't help myself from saying that but alas i know it probably won't happen between the two of us.

we did have that one night that was wonderful. i havn't felt that way towards someone since jens... i just was happy and excited and i really really like him.

i am thinking over a letter to him... i might possibly post bits here to get some advice. i just don't know... i need an unbiased opinion... someone who knows the both of us but isn't related or more directly involved with either of us to sort of tell me what they see.

it is probably just me being a stupid girl and wanting to love someone... i mean there are so many things i could say in opposition to dating chad but none of them matter when he is looking into my eyes...

oh this is rubbish!

chad pieper i think you are a doll and i would love to take you home 

please don't hate me or think i am crazy...

 

 

[08 May 2006 | Monday]

 

wtf

Current mood: worried

ok my week has been seriously confusing. i wish it would be either all crap or all good because the back-and-forth give-me-something-to-hope-for thing is really pissing me off lol.

ok let's start with the bad things to get them out of the way:

#1 i cut my toe open and it hurts

#2 i don't know if my apartment allows cats

#3 sami isn't moving in with me

#4 i can't talk to my mum for like 2 months at least

#5 i am broke

#6 i have no boyfriend

#7 & on top of it doughy joey's "let me go" so that they could hire more people who could work more just because i was honest with them and told them that i got a second job for june and guess what, now i am out of work for a month! yay. next time i am just going to lie and say nope, no conflicts, yeah i love this place i am staying foreevverrr!

ok now with the good:

#1 jens and fandy and i watched good movies last night and got ice cream. i love the movie "stay" it is a mindfuck! yay.

#2 i got to hang out with jens and osty the other night and we saw hoodwinked and went to walmart and steak-n-shake for some 3am yumminess!

#3 sami came down and we went to braden's and got "felt up" lol and then we all went to emily's house and chad came over... ::fantasizes:: oh and sami lit my freaking hair on fire! that should really go in the bad things but it is so funny.. you're on fire!

#4 i do now have a 6.50/hr job at school starting in june

#5 i do have a nice apartment and get to room with emily & we have a lot of kewl stoff for our apartment already!

#6 my mum is getting help in rehab and looks a million times better!

#7 if i don't get a job i can concentrate on getting help for my mental state ie go to get checked out at the mental health place and see if i can get any help for my anxiety & or bipolar/depression

now i guess there is just as much bad as there is good so let me add one more good

# 8 i can finally let my muse speak to me and start working on my writing again! it is the perfect excuse! i need a few days to let the spark hit me and then for the first time in my life i will have weeks to literally do nothing but read and write if i want to. so long as i stay in i shouldn't need much money and also i can pack and do helpful things for myself. i can give my mind a rest and hopefully find something that makes me happy. also we can do drugs lol.

you may all donate to the help-mandy-get-her-life-togeter-program

your assistance can be in the form of money, love, friendship, or even pity sex, all assistance is non-refundable.

 

 

[03 May 2006 | Wednesday]

 

no need for a title

just a quick little update... i got up, took my final, turned my books in (for a mere 50 bucks) went to the bank, paid my credit card bill and then some and set up and interview all before... 11 am!!!

i am so accomplished lol.

my finals are almost over i can see the end! let me know if anyone wants to do something saturday or something. i work but not too late.

stay fresh, stay clean

stay the hell away from meh!!!

 

 

[01 May 2006 | Monday]

 

i just wanna...

Current mood: crazy

::SCREAM::

ok,  i am much better now, thanks for listening!

i swear i hate looking for jobs more than almost anything. i would rather have teeth pulled... grrr.

anyway i supose that my week could be worse. i am busy but i know i can get through it. i just hate getting sick right before finals but on the upside i only have really two finals to worry about and one of them isn't going to be bad. i will pull all A's and B's by my calculation so my GPA is going to be OKAY lol.

sorry i just freaking love that... WHAT?

did you hear what i said? you did? OKAY!

is mandy a freak? YEAH!!

DUDE mooner took jens and i out for pie... it was the most delicious pie i have had in a while yummy yum yums.

grr i hope i don't have to work anytime this week... until like thursday i just need to study...

blah blah blah

i am having irrational fears about moving into my new place:

like what if i can't have my cat. i think i would die!

and like what if it burned down to the ground with all of my possessions in it! that would suck i think i would die!

what if i were in it when it burned down! OMG!!!!

what if we all die!!!!!!

::looks to the left:: ::looks right:: i always feel like somebody's... *copywrite* lol...

BAH CRAZY LUCY STOLE MY SAILOR URANUS PANTIES! GAH

 

 

 

[25 Apr 2006 | Tuesday]

 

"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans”

Current mood: contemplative

life is happening to me. finals are fast approaching... my apartment is going to be ready in june...i just had a *hopefully successful* job interview at pcr and i am becoming aware of just how i want to continue living.

i want to go to england.

i want to study abroad for a semester at least and i think i want to go to england because i love british culture, i love the literature and it just seems like a neat place to visit. i don't want to copy kate and go to new zealand hehe but that would be nice too. really anywhere... i could take some french and visit in my senior year i love france it is so full of history and of course my love, napolean   what a sexy devil lol.

anyway i am at a crossroads so i will let you know what i decide and what i think... soon.

 

 

[24 Apr 2006 | Monday]

 

woot

Current mood: accomplished

i am in a mood of the "woot" persuasion! today i had such a hard time waking up but i knew i had to... and i went to my first class and all we did was hand in our paper and i don't have that class wednesday or friday! then we got to leave after like ten minutes and i found out my friend is going to be in my mulitcultral literature class and she is awesome... and i get to dink around in the library... i found out that i had a "book overdue" which really wasn't true because i asked them and they looked and found it so ... no fine! yay. i saw silent hill this weekend and it was so good and jensie has the weekend off so we can party (even if i work cuz we can party when i get home from work and he can still have plenty of time to do what he needs to do) and sami is coming down the weekend after that! and we are going to have a 06.06.06 party lol. guess when that is?

but anyway i guess i have been stressed but soon that stress will be much less and today i have to impress because i have a job interview at prc that starts at 8.50/hr and that kicks ass!!!

oh and happy late birthday to my new friend zach, who is hilarious when he gets drunk lol.

i just had a thought right now... maybe my life is going to be ok. 

 

 

[20 Apr 2006 | Thursday]

 

bastardo!!

Current mood: crazy

titanic, what a good movie i mean wow, big boat, slightly skanko kate winslut (sexily skantaly (sp?) clad) leo finally dies and i get to hear that freaking song for freaking 10 years after that damn boat sinks lol.

random

try to be it more often, then people might know what to expect.

i am hyper

i am hyper

i am hyper

and its only 11:50 am ... i have to work tonight (crap) but that means i get $$$ (yay) but prolly on this much $$ (-$$$) lol so its BAD.

i want to wish jenny penny a happee birthdae!!!

and as for everyone else its 4.20 (you do the math my friends, if you can!)

i need a male friend, nay make that male genitalia for pleasure and fun and maybe a little sects muhahaha. see  how i spelled "sex" like "sects" to make it less naughty and euphanism-ish.

lets add ish to many words for no RAISON (LOL FUTURAMA)

GOOD LUCK AND GOODNIGHT!!!

 

 

[18 Apr 2006 | Tuesday]

 

jitters

Current mood: nervous

today is going well, emily and i are looking at apartments tonight and i don't have to work til thursday which is good because i have homework to catch up on. i have friday off so let me know what's going on... i think i am hanging out with jensie so maybe a movie night, i don't feel like partying i think i will save that for saturday.

ho hum

i am nervous i am supposed to give that guy i like my note today. ::nervousness:: i like him and think it would be nice to meet some new people. *calms down* the worst he could say is no, or i have a girlfriend. but i like him ::wahhhh::

anyway i need to find a new job i was thinking about asking around the hospitals or something i just need full timeish for the summer and part for the fall... i like doughy joey's but there is no way i can make it on 2 days a week. i need $$ a whole lotta spendin $$ lol i love you george... *a moment of adoration for the quiet beatle*

dude i am the walrus was totally on radio the other morning i was rocking out!

i have to go now talk to ya later ya hosers!

but first....

 

a little inspiration via mandy's quote orgy...

 

"Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth." Oscar Wilde

 

"Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night."  Edgar Allan Poe "Eleonora"

 

“All that we see or seem, is but a dream within a dream”

 

The ninety and nine are with dreams, content but the hope of the world made new, is the hundredth man who is grimly bent on making those dreams come true

YEEEAAAHHH... OKKKAAAYYY... !!!

 

 

[17 Apr 2006 | Monday]

 

movin on up

not yet exactly but getting there. emily and i looked at apartments today and found some good finds (well derr) but yeah so all we need to know is if samantha wants to move down with us. i also scheduled for my classes today i am taking:

visual inventions (art class)

multicultural literature

survey of english  literature: romantics to post-colonialism

and beginning poetry & fiction writing

so its 15 credits and the times are nice so i can have plenty of study time and what not so yeah

but emily is back so i have to go now!

 

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