You're Kidding Again, Right? (Eh Hi Hi)
Woke up at 5:45 a.m. this morning. As usual, I went to wash my face and brush my teeth, my eyes barely open... Yawn... 5 hours of sleep isn't that effective anymore, I guess. Today is the second day I sit at my new seat, so far I don't have much complain about it, though I'm pretty far away from my friends but the place is neither very noisy nor quiet. Anyway, when I reached my class, I sensed a rather, okay maybe not rather but an extremely foul smell. Oh my God, no one could ever believe that someone had stepped on some poop and it was all over tha staircase. I still thought that I farted or something or maybe my poop somehow 'slipped out' from my anus?! Haha! Crystal was laughing her ass off when I told her about it. So, today we all had a short test on the format on accounting, when I got out my exam pad to write the questions, my whole body trembled, yes, I often get anxiety attack during exam time even it's just a small quiz, I still get anxious. My hands were shaking really badly when I drew the lines, it was awful and it took me like an hour's time to let the anxiety subside. I got the first part correct but totally screwd up the second part, it was good that I didn't screw up the format only I accidentally transfered the wrong amount which led to miscalculation. My instinct told me not to ask anyone for the right answers after the exam because I knew that there was something wrong with my answers eventhough I checked on it for like so many times. In the end, I turned to the back and asked Sze Kai and he told me the answer for the second part. I was so shocked that I got that part wrong just because of transferring one wrong amount can make so much difference. Argh! But overall, the total marks for this small quiz is 10, so teacher would stress more on the format. Anyway, today is quite alright for me, except for the pile of homework waiting for me to complete them. So, wish you all a good day and goodbye!

On Valentine's Day I Got Back Pain And Sore Fingers, WowWee!
Mood:  a-ok
Alright, on Valentine's Day, I got a back pain and sore fingers, wow wee! What can fate thinks of next? Haha, just kidding, today didn't turn out so bad eventhough we already changed our seats. At first I thought I couldn't 'survive' but eventually I did. Everyone who sat around me treated me pretty nice and the position of my seat wasn't all that bad, near the window and a wall which I can lean on when tired plus I have a drawer to put my stuff! Finally, a drawer to put my books instead of piling them up on my desk. Muahahaha! Anyway, I kinda like the solitude there except someone just spoilt everything, if Crystal reads this, she'll know what I mean. Heh, heh. However, if the teacher is willing enough to let us change back to our old seats, I would glady do so. I really miss my friends eventhough, I just moved to a new seat. Everyone feels the same way. *sob sob...

You Must Be Kidding, Sir! (Heh, heh, heh)
Mood:  on fire
Okay, so today we all had our usual Monday morning blues and to make matters worse, Mr Eng, our robotic physics teacher came in and told us that we had to change our seats according to alphabetical order and we were like so shocked that we went speechless. I was expecting someone brave enough to stand up and say something, you know make a protest but NO... no made any protests but only whining. Then before anyone could say anything, the teacher said," I don't want to hear anymore complains from this class, you know you people are making so much noise... yada, yada, yada.." Hello? So much noise? Well, we're not the one who are causing it, it's those 4 stupid bastards who make so much noise at the back, might as well change their seats not always. And then that stupid teacher, added in, "Problem solved. Later exams no need to change seats again." What?! Problem solved, you idiot! You're just taking the easy way out! God, now I'm having a really bad impression on him. I heard my other subject teachers complaining about him being laid back and doing things the easy way out, oh, and did I mention, everything he said always have association with money. What the fuck! Just when things are taking a better turn, this teacher came into the picture to spoil evreything.

Go, Chia Hsin, It's Your Birthday!
Mood:  celebratory
Oh yeah, baby! Last night just when I thought my birthday 'dinner' was going to turn out to be bloody boring, things just took a different turn. All of the guests showed up except for one who couldn't make it. I was already bloody anxious when the clock struck 7 and no one turned up yet, so I called Crystal and pleaded her to come so I don't feel so 'alone'. But the first to show up was Connie, yeah, she's always the earliest,followed by Crystal, Francis, who had a hard time finding my house, then it was Audrey, and last but not least David. I was so happy that turned up that I almost went berserk, okay, maybe not berserk but just plain crazy. Haha, I know it sounds silly but I made my decision at the very last minute and yet they showed up was pretty heart-felt. Seriously. And they brought nicely wrapped presents again. However, my cake did not turn out to be what it was like in the picture. What the hell lah, apa ini, itu goldfish tidak macam golfish punya. (What the hell, what is this, goldfish don't look like goldfish at all). After gossiping around, we went to take pictures then started eating. My big bro was the cameraman of the night and all my guests were given ang paus as well, you lucky people.... Tsk tsk. Anyway, the 2 main topics of our conversation that day was a guy who claimed himself as 'Aaron" who called a few of my friends and started talking dirty, the freaky thing was the guy knew their names without knowing them at all! At first we were guessing that this dude is from our school but one of Connie's freinds who studys in another school got the same phone call also. Yeah, freaky isn't it, it's good that I didn't get the call, if I do, I will be shouting on top of my lungs to ask the guy to stop calling me. Essh, perverted freak! Anyway, the other hot topic is a about a girl in our class who is already starting to get on everybody's nerves, but that's how far I'm gonna talk about her here, cause this topic is pretty confidential. Back to the dinner, so we ate pizzas and KFC fried chicken and Crystal even brought her mum's home made jelly. Mmmmm.... Thanks a bunch! Oh yeah, and did I mention it took me a long time to make my wish before I blow my candles? Om my God, I was laughing all the way when I was making my wish. Anyway, when we finished our food, we went to the living room to laze around and continue our conversation while I open my presents. My presents ARE pretty cool, Crystal, gave me a cool Nike T-shirt with abstract designs on it(I love it, yet it comes with my fav colour-green); Connie gave me a beautiful decorative item, a purplr frame with a butterfly figurine in it(Purple? Woo! It's one of my fav colurs too, this can be added in my fairy collection); Audrey and Siaw Wee gave me 2 lovely cards and another decorative item of a glass bottle with blue snad and sea shells in it(It's a pretty insipirational item, seriously, I can refer to it whenever I wanna write a poem on life journey); Joanna gave me a novel(Yes, I am a bookworm and I can use that book for my book report); Francis gave me a pink file, a notebook and 2 pens(Thansk for the pens, I'm pretty stingy when it comes to buying stationery); last but not least, David gave me a CD that consists of classical music( I can listen to it when I'm painting a fairy). After chatting, we went to walk at the park jst opposite my house. We didn't stay for long at the park cause most of our feet started to hurt badly especially me. We went back to the house again to continue our conversation, then around 10:30 pm or so, everyone went home. Before I end my entry, I just wanna thank everyone for coming and the presents as well, and oo.. the jellies.... So, I wish you all a good day and to myself a happy sweet 16!

Few Hours Till My Birthday!
Mood:  celebratory
Okay, I almost my birthday is just tomorrow and I made a really hasty decision this morning. Actually I was going to invite only my closest girlfriends, Crystal and Connie to attend a birthday dinner, yes, I rather call it a dinner because I'm bad in organising parties and I always make very last minute decisions, ergh! So anyway, I ended up asking 2 other guys, Francis and David to come and actually I wanted aske Calvin also, who is my classmate and primary school friend, but then I thought no need to invite so many people. Essh, now I'm asking another 2 more girls to attend, cause I'm scared it might turn out even more boring. Just nw I even called Crystal to bring along her monopoly and I have to ask Connie to bring along her Uno card games, yes card games are usually way more cool than board games. Argh! Next time I promise myself not to make hasty decisions ever again! Anyway, went to Mita to order my cake, gosh, there were so many designs there, I was lost at that moment, didn't know what to choose, and was flipping through the menu as if it were a magazine. So, I ended up ordering a nice chocolate cake wit 2 fishes on it, yes I love fish alot, they're one of my favourite animals. I actually wanted to order the jigglypuff cake, ahaha, I thought it might be a good joke cause Crystal suggested that she would sing the Jigglypuff song at my birthday dinner. Well, I didn't order that cake anyway cause it might makes me look a little stupid, hahaha. Sorry, Crystal, I'm so sorry..... *sob sob

Fragile
Mood:  blue
Today, I'm not having a good day, in short I'm having a bad day, not only just a bad day, but a fucking rotten day! Just now at school we had a short additional mathematics test and it really sucked. Most of the people in the class were having troubles with the questions. Connie and I skipped some questions while Crystal went a little berserk with them. When I finished my paper, I suddenly felt like breaking down, my whole body felt light and yet it was trembling a little, I was scared. Yeah, you might say, almost all the people are facing the same thing, but I don't care right now, I treat it as some sort of comfort for me, what matters most to me are my feelings and how I'm going to get over with it. Yes, I AM selfish about my own feelings, I'm hanging by the edge now, you can't expect me to go around and help people, all I can give to other people is reassurance. I'm only human, and yes my feelings are getting more fragile day after day, and it'll break any time soon, so it's obvious that my feelings are more important than anyone else's.

Break The School Days With Some Dull Colours (Yawn)
Mood:  don't ask
Okay, today school reopens again after a week of Chinese New Year holidays. Yeah, it's another pretty boring day, everyone seems to have te usual monday morning blues. Urgh! So we spent the whole day listening to boring lectures, doing stuff that have since become a routine to all of us. Ah... sometimes I really wish I can fade away or just disappear and yes one of my friends find this phrase that I invented pretty meaningful, well, I think we all think the same way now. We're all riding on the same boat and the only way to get out of it is to find a perfect place to land, but some will land earlier than us as they have completed their journey and some will continue as if the journey is endless. Ah....feel poetic all of a sudden, amybe later I'll write another poem, it smees inspiration is coming back to me again. There is another hot new topic which my friends and I like to gossip about but I'm not telling it right now or perhaps I'll never tell it at all. But I found out that alot of people are making wild guesses and jumping to conclusions. Am I misleading you again? Are you lost? Fine, maybe I don't continue this topic of mine, let's move on, shall we? Okay, so EST was pretty interesting, okay maybe not interesting but alot better than other lessons for today cause we got to go to the library, so this means, free air-con, yay! Ha! Actually it was pretty cold today, cause it was raining ceaselessly. And the teacher was praising us for finishing our work so early and that Dexter, one of my group members kept on asking me why Crystal and I didn't go find more details on how the kingfishers mate, then he sang a phrase from Air Supply's song, "Making love out of nothing at all" and we were like what the hell is he talking about. After that, it was back to normal again, lsitening to Mr. Eng during physics class. The thing that sucked was that we had to stay back for extra lessons for accounting. But looking on the bright side, at least I don't laze around at home again. Anyway, I have to go now, feeling pretty tired and MSN just kicked me out which fucking sucks.

Freaky......
Mood:  lazy
Okay, last night wasn't a really great night for a beauty sleep. Why?! Cause there was a blackout at the whole neighbourhood and I was really freaked out. There wasn't any electricity for like 3 hours. It was around 4 in the morning when the electricity stopped, and I was so terrified by the solitude and the darkness of the night, that I had to grab my alarm clock, which was the only tool that gives out light by just pressing one of the buttons ( that shows how blind I am at night), then headed to my parents's room. I was feeling a bit guilty at first that I had to wake them up just because of a black out and so I was pacing to and fro outside my room, deciding whether it's wise for me to wake them up. In the end, I knocked on their door and tole them that I wanted to stay at their room till the electicity comes back. Eventually, I fell asleep on their bed till around 7 in the morning. I didn't really sleep well and the problem that pissed me off was one of my pyjamas was stolen together with my bro's sandals. My neighbours stuff were too stolen. The theif must have taken the oppurtunity to steal our stuffs during the black out. Anyway, I also had the weirdest and creepiest dream of my life last night. Well, I couldn't really recall the first part of my dream as it was pretty blurry but the second part just freaked me out. I dreamt that I went to a theme park and to reach there, I had to climb a roof top and it was so darn steep that I fell from my grip and plunged into the sea. And before I fell into the sea, I heard a deep voice asking me, "Chia Hsin, why do you want to call to heaven?" I was totally speechless at that moment as I fell into the sea. Then I found myself on a hospital bed but the bed was placed outside and the whole room was quiet. The whole corridor was lighted red and I was so scared that I went to peer at one of the rooms and saw a cross dresser nurse in there nursing a baby. I was appalled and disgusted to see that. I just knocked on the door to see whether he(or she) would like to accompany me as I was scared to be alone in a hospital but he(or she) just glared at me and I thought the nurse(I'm tired of saying he or she) was going to change into some ghost or something, so I just turned away and sat down. Then, suddenly all the cross dresser nurses came rushing through the corridor and what horrified me was that some of them were pregnant though they were men? Oh my God! I just woke up after that, phew, saved by the alarm clock. Anyway, I also had a great time yesterday, Crystal and I went to watch Memoirs of A Geisha and I'm gonna give a two thumbs up for the movie. And I was chattering the whole way through after the movie, yeah, and Crystal was freaked out but I told her it's normal for me, I just can't stand a little cold. Did a little shopping after that and went home, that's practically, it for today. I wish you all a good day, bubye(english accent).

So You Call That Inspiration
Mood:  chatty
*Ahem, I know I have been pretty lazy recently, not updating my blog and not even bother to do anything with it. Well, I'm gonna say sorry for being a lazy pig but to tell you the truth, I only treat my blog as some sort of therapy to let out my anger, express my opinion when I feel the urge to or maybe just killing time on long holidays. Okay, back to main topic, what am I gonna say today is regarding the fact of inspiration, oh yeah, here comes Lady Confucious, baby! I just recently found out that I haven't been very productive these few weeks when it comes to writing poems, whenever I force myself to write one, the words just seemed to get stuck in my head. When it's not unusual to me whenever I run dry of inspiration, it occured to me once few years ago when I was around 12. I started writing poems when I was 10 and boy was I stupid. My poems were pieces of crap, they are all about my crush and they don't even rhyme plus the meanings are straightforward, no metaphors, no nothing. And at that exact moment I thought I was mature and gifted, no other people in my class could write a single poem. But hey, I was dead wrong, I stopped writing in the end cause I found out that my poems sucked like shit, so I stopped for almost a year. Then inspiration came knocking at my door again, so I picked up my pencil and started to write, no more love poems, they're all about peace and politics. It was a fresh start but my poems began to take shape, they began to rhyme and I started to use metaphors, I listened to more songs (to me songs are like poems, just only they have beats and rhythm, or in short, has music to accompany them) to find more things to write about. I write about people's lives, my emotion, society, anything that inspired me at that moment. Same goes to drawing, I'd run out of inspiration so many times that I see it as something common, I mean like duh, you just can't force yourself when you don't feel like it. I ever made a stupid pledge that I must draw at least one picture per week to master my skills but hey, things just turned out badly. My human figure just don't seem right at any angle, the colurs awful and I hate it. So in the end, I reserve my weekend for things that I FEEL like doing, I don't want my weekend to be some sort of routine. So there you go, inspiration, is not something you can buy nor is it something you can find. Inspiration is something that just come knocking on your door at a very unexpected time. Thus, don't go chasing for inspiration, let itself inspire you. This is Chia Hsin, wishing everyone a good day and goodbye.

Oxymoron....
Mood:  lazy
I have 2 words with me right now to form an oxymoron to describe my day at school and at home. Boring and great all the same time. Okay, maybe not great but fine.... Jeezzz.... I feel so tired right now after 4 hours and 20 minutes of 'devotion' to my Math's and additional maths homework. But somehow, I find it rather enjoyable(don't get mad, I know it's hard but somehow I like it)or perhaps, The Strokes's songs were accompanying me while I tried to find a solution for every question? I don't know, my brain is kinda fuzzy right now and I don't wanna spoil it, I love my brain more than my heart, I mean literally, cause the brain thinks logically, while your heart 'thinks' emotionally which leads you to making stupid decisions. Okay, enough crap here. Back to what happened at school.... Let me recall.... Okay we spent most of our days crapping and laughing at senseless jokes(don't all jokes sound senseless) and doing lots of math and had a stupid biology quiz, it was some suprise quiz and yes, it was FUCKING suprising, woo wee, quiz.... Bah! Like I care. The teacher expected us to revise what we learnt last week, but come on, all those homework has taken up most of out time but then again I know there ARE some people who got revise but really I don't care right now. I just really wish I can slip away and disappear, I don't feel like being here at the moment. Is it me or is it hot in here or perhaps it's just my emotion?