wow monday again
Mood:  not sure
well lets see what have i accomplished... is that spelled right who cares ya know what i mean... so i thought ALOT lately.... have found out that i am a good person.... yes everyone has faults im no better than the next person.... but really i dont understand how someone can look a person in the face tell them how they feel... shed a tear and well... take it all back :S... just puzzles me... is it the spring fever... is there something like that happening... like new flowers blooming.. so why not have a new beginning.. to the summer... really what is it... i dont understand it really.... CONFUSED.... i do everything i can in my power to make things good... but its never good enough... i dont understand :S......well tonight im off to another Habitat meeting ... funny this crazy thing is helping me out alot....and i like it :).... just wish i had someone i could hold and talk to at nights.. or even call on the phone.... is that to much to ask.. i think not... really i have never asked for anything .... just like to have someone by my side is all... oh well... i guess hoping to hear a phone ring and have a certain someone on the other end say lets try it again is something i can only dream about.... dreams are just thoughts that drive a person mad...right... oh well guess ill just keep a bit of hope like i always did.... no matter what happened... strange things already happened in my life... who knows... maybe something strange might happen again... for the good and perminant....
signing out
Ryan