well lets see... i wake up... and THINK..... dammit..
so i though alot as i always say .... think think think... and i am starting to hate someone.... im a good fucken person...... i was accused of being dissrespectiful once.... bull fucken shit i say... go out with friends when your gone away is OK... havent met anyone yet that finds it offensive.... but.... go to the bar and basically get ditched by your gf... now WTF is up with that... that is ignorance i say..... i tried... TWICE... with nothing good come out of it :(.... fuck....what is a guy to do..... is it a woman nature to just lie and fuck with a guys head or what.... come back bawling and shit....were those sympathy tears or truely honest feelings tears.... that is the worst dam part of it....talk about kids and shit... livin together again... and poof... gone.....i think she has the major issues.... oh yea no stress... bs.... and the whole single mother and shit... pfffffft... like i am going to stand by and let her struggle with shit.. now fuck comeon.... always helped out always did :S... to what help did it to me... sweet fuck all....guess i should just start saying fuckem all....really dont know who i can trust any more :S.... when a miricle happens as it did in jan 2005 and then everything gets flushed down the toilette right when u thought u were on top of the world together....what the fuck do ya do :S....yea earlly morning... 5:45.... maybe a bit tired and cranky... but this is how i am feeling today.. might change might not.....but i know im a good person...... ALOT better and nicer than this time last year... if people cant see it or maybe they dont want to.... there isnt anything i can do ..... not going to beg and plead for acceptance... cause that just dosent work sociably...... how ever ya spell that.. dont have time to check it...but strange fucken thing is.. i know where my heart is... and i hate it....cant do anything fucken about it....
signing out a little aggravated
ME