well shit... something has to fucken give here.. im startin to sound like a basket case.... that is ok isnt it.... :S... well lets see.... my thoughts..... be aware of any women... especially ones who like to fuck with your emoitions cause their afraid them selves.... committment... marrage... settling down... who knows.. no one will ever.. but i am very cautious now... have to be... cant go threw shit i have in the past any more.... if i hear...you and change in the same phrase ... she is gone cant deal with me.. u know where the fucken door is.. cause when ya finally calm down... ill be there... no matter....my 2 cents... so on another note... got me tickets... and its going to be awsome... booked rooms at the cockroach motel... that place wont know what hits em... but who will i invite down... soon that will be the only weekend i am free till the mid of july... habitat is takin up alot of my time lately.... but its awsome... love to do that full time... but money is an issue right...so what else.. nice day....good food..... roof over my head... oh yea.. nice house... all alone in it... grrrrrrrrr fuck i hate this shit..would rather live in a dam apt building really at least see some real people around :S.... gota do something about that... maybe a roomate.... drug dealer... hhaaha.. lots of company then lmfao....joking.... but roomate would be good.... "the one" would be better :)... but that isnt going to happen.... me got this wall up now....and lost respect for my self in a weird way.... nothing to loose.... any of this make sence.... prob not but that is me... dont try to figure me out... just remember... do good to be ill do good even more... cross my path and turn your back... better start watchin your back..... its only fair... i cant be fake like others i have met... i am true to me and to others... if u want to hear from other what you want to hear... ask someone else... cause no lies and bull shit comes outa this mouth.... when i say something i mean it.... and one thing "love"....I lost the meaning of that so dont expect to hear it any time soon.... the shit eh.... well i must run.. work on the truck... makin good progress... hopefully soon ill be cruising around with the top on... tunes cranked and enjoying the day.... been years that can say i enjoy a day to my self... was to committed to with someone.... this is a huge step back for me.... prob trip the odd time but ill keep trying.... all i can do eh... or break.... so here i go
Ryan .... oppertunities are around every corner take a peek I always do ;)