WOW.. what a weekend.... where is my heart gone where is my life going
Mood:  hug me
wow... is all i can say... where do i begin....quick note... i gave up reading others horse shit and lies ... gets me totally no where... and nothing but more hurt...i need to stop fooling my self to think that miricales do happen in my love life...ok back to the weekend..... thrus... awsome... was out with a couple GREAT lovely young ladies i met from the USA.... had a fricken blast.... company came over fri... stuck around till sunday.. that was awsome to :).... sat night.. hummm lets see.... well.... hung out in s side a bit.. checked out on the house for the last day.... then off to c town.. cockroach motel.... drank a bunch.. met lots in the hotel.... headed to the concert... then issues arised...i am gettin really sick and tired of the fakeness some people can be... burry the hatchet... how about u kiss my ass... guess there is a reason i walked away from that shit the first time.... so i wasent all that drunk sat... but it was fine.. i got over the glance i had threw the crowd.... my heart had a smile but my head had a frown... but nothing else is new with that shit eh....company tried to get me over it but there was nothing anyone could do... they are thoughts that flow threw my head and something i need to "try" and deal with... oh yes i did see u .... and well... nothing more i wanted to do is be there with you as the words to the song rang out in my head

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me


i couldnt have screams in my skull any louder for you .... nor could i explain how i felt... only you know how i feel.. only you know what i am trying to say...only you is who alot of this is meant for....but what is a fella to do ...all i can do is try and walk on... my life dosent get much easier... just when things are in totally happyness bliss... she leaves.... sunday evening was awsome... hung out with someone that was soooo unbelieveable.... sat down on the shore at North Cape... and just talked.... about life.... it was sooo nice.... everything was just feeling as if it had stoped in time and things were falling into where they should... then as everything good thing that happens to me... she is leavin today... hopefully not cause i would love to spend one more evening with her... talking.... one will never know...as my names goes... where is my heart gone where is my life going... it means lots of stuff.... every person i meet unknowningly they take a piece of me with them.. as i cherrish everyone i meet thurs evening was one... sat was another and sunday was a big part of me ... the tourture continues in my heart...thing game is not fun nore is it easy to play... but i "think" i am strong to play till the end... or untill someone wins over me and the game has stopped for the last time for that moment in my life...lord only knows... and one can only pray...so on that note I should carry on to my job.. make my money... continue with my life and hope that the things that are suposed to happen in my life fall into place really soon...
god bless
cheers
Ry