so its 28 degs on a beautiful sunday afternoon :(.... and what am i doing.. writing a fucken blog... well this is my way to get shit out.... i need to find something to do ... dammit... i know what i want just cant seam to get it.... someone by my side that can look at me and take me how i am and cares for me as much as i do them.... this has to be the most difficult thing "life" has to offer i think... jobs are easy... there would be nothing better on a day like today is to just hang out with someone ya love.... but gawd is that ever difficult.... almost impossiable for me it seams....like a few friends told me.. what is wrong with you... why are u single.... i have a house well in the progress of it... tall blaaaaa... dark... blaaaaaaa.... and i hate using this word.. handsome apparently ......have a good job... no kids.... i dont smoke.... but still i am single wtf is up with that .... i tell them about my past experience they say what is she stupid... :S..i dunno what is it really.... is it all me.... i dont seam to think so.... most ladies i met get along with me :S.... guess there is an underlying thing there or some sort.. maybe afraid of something.. comittment.... one never knows.....one will never know i guess.... all I know is i am just sick and tired of doing shit alone... maybe its time to "move" on.... pack up my shit sell everything and dissapear.... the thoughts have crossed my mind.... not like anyone would wonder where i was anyways....cause that is just how it is....hard to find people that can be as honest as i am .... ones who can put an effort into a friendship....well enough bitching for a sunny day for me... i have to eat now and well... find something to do :S..... chow for now
Ry